Robert Reed - Marrow

No, they didn’t want to eat that bug dinner.

Or poop in the neat new latrines.

And thank you, no, they wouldn’t play nice, or sleep during the arbitrary night, or listen to every important word when their parents explained what Marrow was and what the ship was and why it was so very important to eventually escape from their birthplace.

But these were little problems. Over the last decades, Washen had tried every state of mind, and optimism, far and away, was the most pleasant. She worked hard to remain positive about everything difficult and gray.

Good, sane reasons were keeping them from being rescued. The most likely explanation was the simplest: the Event was a regular phenomenon, and it had reached beyond Marrow, collapsing the access tunnel so completely that digging it out again was grueling, achingly slow work. That’s what must have happened to the original tunnels, too. Earlier Events had destroyed them. And the Master could only act with caution, balancing the good of a few captains against the unknown dangers, the well-being of billions of innocent and trusting passengers taking easy precedence.

Other captains were optimistic in public, but in private, in their lovers’ beds, they confessed to darker moods.

“What if the Masters written us off?”

Diu posed the question, then immediately offered an even worse scenario.

“Or maybe something happened to her,” he grunted. “This was an utterly secret mission. If she died unexpectedly, and if the First Chair Submasters don’t even know that we’re down here…”

“Do you believe that?” asked Washen.

Diu shrugged his shoulders as if to say, “Sometimes.”

Through the heavy walls and sealed shutters came the drumming of a hammerwing. Then, silence.

For a moment, it felt as if Marrow were listening to them.

Playing Diu’s own game, Washen reminded him, “There’s another possibility.”

“There’s many. Which one?”

“The Event was bigger than we realize. And everyone else is dead.”

For a moment, Diu didn’t react.

It was the unmentionable taboo. Yet Washen kept pressing, reminding him, “Maybe we weren’t the first ones to find this derelict ship. Others came before. But the builders had left behind some kind of booby trap, primed and ready”

“Perhaps,” he allowed. Then he sat up in bed, iron springs squeaking as his smooth strong legs dropped over the edge, toes kissing the cool dark floorboards. Again, softer this time, he said, “Perhaps.”

“Maybe the ship cleanses itself every million years. The Event destroys everything foreign and organic”

A tiny grin emerged. “And we survived…?”

“Marrow survived,” she replied. “Otherwise, this would be barren iron.”

Diu pulled one of his hands across his face, then with his fingers, he combed the long coffee-colored hair. Even in the bedroom’s enforced darkness, Washen could see his face. After so many years, she knew it better than she knew her own features, and in the vastness that was her remembered life, she couldn’t think of any man to whom she had felt this close.

“I’m just talking,” she told him. “I don’t believe what I’m saying.”

“I know.”

Placing a hand on his sweaty back, she realized that Diu was watching the crib. Their infant son, Locke, was hard asleep, blissfully unaware of their grim discussion. In another three years, he would live in the nursery. He would live with Till, she kept thinking. A month had passed since Washen had overheard that story about the Builders and the Bleak. But she hadn’t told anyone. Not even Diu.

“There are more explanations than we have people,” she admitted.

Again, he wiped the sweat from his face. Then she said, “Darling,” with an important tone. “Have you ever listened to the other children?” He glanced over his shoulder. “Why?” She explained, in brief.

Since they built this house, the same sliver of light had slipped its way through the shutters. Changing the tilt of his head, the light hit his gray eye and the high strong cheek. “You know Till,” was Diu’s response. “You know how odd he can seem.”

“That’s why I didn’t mention it.”

“Have you heard him tell that story again?”

“No,” she admitted.

“But you’ve been eavesdropping, I’d guess.” She said nothing.

Her lover nodded wisely and came close to a smile. Then with a little wink, he stood up, bare feet carrying him to the crib.

But Diu wasn’t looking at their son. Instead, he was fingering the mobile hung over the crib on a thick, trustworthy cord. Painted pieces of wood bounced gently on nearly invisible wire, showing Locke all those wonders that he couldn’t see for himself. The ship was in the center, largest by a long way, and surrounding it were tinier star-ships and several generic birds as well as a Phoenix that his mother had carved for her own reasons, then hung there without explanation.

After a moment, Washen joined Diu at the crib.

Locke was a quiet baby. Patient, uncomplaining. From his parents he had acquired a stew of immortal genes and an easy strength, and from this world, his birthplace, came… well, what about him was Marrow? Not for the first time, Washen wondered if it was wrong to allow children on a world barely understood. A world that could probably kill all of them. And kill them tonight, if the urge struck it.

“I wouldn’t worry about Till,” said Diu. “I don’t,” she promised, speaking more to herself than him.

But the man still explained himself. “Children are imagination machines,” he said. “You never know what they’re going to think about anything.”

Washen was remembering the Child, that part-human, part-Gaian creature that she raised for Pamir, and with a bittersweet grin, she replied, “But that’s the fun in having them. Or so I’ve always been told…”

The boy walked alone, crossing the public round with his eyes watching his own bare feet, watching them shuffle across the hot, sky-baked iron. “Hello, Till.”

He seemed incapable of surprise. Pausing, he lifted his gaze slowly, a smile waiting to shine at the captain. “Hello, Madam Washen. You’re well, I trust.”

Under the sky’s blue glare, he was a polite, scrupulously ordinary eleven-year-old boy. He had a thin face joined to a small, narrow body, and like most of his peers, he wore as little as the adults let him wear. Modern genetics were such a tangle; Washen had given up guessing who was his father. Sometimes she wondered if Miocene even knew. She obviously wanted to be his only parent, openly grooming him to stand beside her someday. Whenever Washen looked at the half-feral boy wearing nothing but a breech-cloth, she felt a nagging resentment, petty as can be, and since it was directed at an eleven-year-old, simply foolish.

“I have a confession to make,” she said, using her own smile. “A little while back, while you were in the nursery, I overheard you talking to the other children. You were telling them a very elaborate story”

The eyes were wide and brown with darts of black inside them, and they didn’t so much as blink.

“It was an interesting story,” Washen conceded.

Till looked like any boy who didn’t know what to make of a bothersome adult. Sighing wearily, he shifted his weight from one brown foot to the other. Then he sighed again, the portrait of pure boredom.

“How did you think up that story?”

A shrug of the shoulders.

“I know we like to talk about the ship. Probably too much.” Her explanation felt sensible and practical. Her biggest fear was that she would come across as patronizing. “Everyone likes to speculate. About the ship’s past, and its builders, and the rest of it. All our chatter has to be confusing. And since we are going to be rebuilding the bridge, with your help… it does rather make you into a species of Builder, doesn’t it…?”