Joseph McElroy - Women and Men

She herself is dark blonde. In her thirties, watching him from beside her car.

She’ll know if it’s just a myth that the plume from the power plant drifting south, drifting north, holds together for hundreds of miles, or has at least been seen hovering near Albuquerque.

She understands he’s looking at the Rock.

But it doesn’t look like a ship.

But it brought him here.

And it will get him home.

How it happened?" exclaimed the fair-haired woman. "How it happened?" she said, looking past her companion who sat with her back to the street window. "I don’t care how it happened. It happened."

"But if you don’t care," replied the other woman, who was younger, "how do you keep it from happening all over again the next time?"

She had hesitantly introduced herself to the fair-haired woman only to be invited to sit down; rather, she had found out who she really was after she had sat down.

"Don’t worry, it could never happen in the same way again."

"You wouldn’t kill him by the same method?" said the younger woman and put her finger to her lips.

"Oh, I told you he said that — that I killed him."

"I thought you did."

"He always was a braggart."

"Has he recovered from being killed?"

They smiled. "He’s immortal, that’s why he’s boring," said the fair-haired woman, whose name was Maya. She reached across to touch the other’s hand, looking past her as if easily distracted by the street. "I’m better now," she said. "He pushed me into this free-lance thing like he pushed me into the book. I’m better now."

They seemed to tell each other in the corners of their eyes that the large man two tables away was listening to them at his leisure. The younger woman felt this modest challenge from the man, who was bald but had bushy red eyebrows and a mustache to end all mustaches.

"That book was everywhere," she said. "I even saw it in Burlington; I saw it here, of course, and do you know I saw it in Albuquerque."

"Oh," said Maya, "it was everywhere for two or three months, and then suddenly you couldn’t find a copy anywhere. A lot happened too fast. I thought he was being supportive. He said, ‘Behind every successful woman there’s a good man.’ "

"Yes. In her past," said the younger woman.

"Sounds like you know from experience."

"Other people’s."

"Saves wear and tear."

"Saves time," the younger woman said.

"Why don’t I believe you?" said the other. "Oh hell, one picks up what one can."

"Maybe so," said the younger woman, "but I’m never sure what it means when I first hear it."

"Well, I overheard it," said Maya, "that thing you mentioned. ‘Behind every successful woman. .’ "

"You mentioned it, Maya."

"You’re right," said the fair-haired woman, in response to the familiarity. "We were at a party and he had his back to me when he said it. He was wearing the burnt orange sweater I bought him. I remember how he looked. Tall as he is, he looked almost slight. But then it came to me: Second-Generation Pig, that’s what he is."

"Second generation?"

"A generation’s only about five years these days."

"Listen," said the younger woman, "at least he wanted you to do something with your life." She cast an eye at their neighbor, the man with the red mustache; he had received a large puffed pastry powdered with sugar, and he tilted it in his fingers curiously, like something outstandingly large, before biting into it.

"By that time," said Maya, "he wanted me out of the way; that was what he wanted. You’re nodding," she said to her attentive companion.

"He wanted you out of the way?"

"But nearby — how about nearby? Happily surviving — how’s that?"

"What’s nearby?" the younger woman asked. "Same house? Same neighborhood?"

"You really ask the questions," said Maya.

"They can be painful to ask," said the younger woman, nodding, nodding.

"Especially if you know the answers already. There, you’re doing it again," said Maya.

"All I know," said the younger woman, "is I’ll be glad to live in this neighborhood for a good long time. It’s not at all depressing like the West Side, and it’s realer than the Upper East Side."

"I couldn’t agree more," said the fair-haired woman. "It’s where I’m happily surviving."

The younger woman uncrossed her legs and recrossed them the other way. She leaned sideways on her elbow to sip her coffee. "You yourself said he wanted you to make something of your life."

"Why, he was proud of me. He bragged about me as if I weren’t there in the room; he reported my originality and my talents as if I were someone he happened to know. You’ve heard that story?" The voice eased into faint curiosity. "You’ve heard that one?"

For — as if to say, When will people ever learn? — the younger woman was slowly shaking her head, smiling with sisterly resignation: "Yes, I’ve heard it."

"Granted, it’s always nice to hear about yourself."

"There was nothing about you on the book jacket."

"You noticed."

"Suppose," said the younger woman, "the awful truth is that he’s right and you are talented."

"Listen," said Maya, "to hear him, you’d think I was consumed with ambition."

"What were you consumed with?" the younger woman asked, and then, surprised by herself, she laughed.

"Let me tell you," said Maya, "the Second-Generation Pig comes to you supporting your every endeavor. He wants for you what he knows you half-think you want. He tells you you’re loaded with talent, you’re incredible, you can do anything you decide to do. He’s a feminist, right? Wrong; he’s a closet pig."

"But this guy," said the other woman agreeably, "when I first sat down here, he sounded kind of special."

"You’re nodding again," said the fair-haired woman. Her fitfully blinking blue eyes looked away, undecided as to how lightly her needling had been meant.

"I mean," said the younger woman, feeling boring but smiling more or less good-naturedly and nodding hopefully, "the way you said he still phones, and he gave you the picture of yourself you didn’t know he took when you were working, and he tells jokes on himself, and he got that woman interested in you. He probably still loves you."

"Of course, he loves me now. Good old Dive."

"Dive?"

"My English for Dave. He did a lot of business in London in the old days. I guess it’s a term of endearment."

"Maybe it was once."

"He did take time off," said the fair-haired woman. "I mean, during the day though he’s a businessman."

"To do what?"

"I’d meet him here for an hour."

"Sounds nice."

"He scheduled me."

"Still, it sounds nice," said Sue. "I mean, you lived together but he took time during the day."

"One day — just like clockwork, one day a week," said the fair-haired woman, and actually looked at her digital wristwatch. "I’m talking too much. I’ve got an audience. So listen, Sue," said the woman with some touch of confidential humor. "Sue is your name? I just got this message from you: you would like us to be silent for a minute."

It seemed true. They looked toward the rather gross man with the brilliant mustache munching on his pastry. He raised his eyes to them from his paper.

They looked past him, past the marble tables on the ironwork stands, to the Gaggia machine in good, silver working order. A small woman firmly pushed down the steam handle. She wore a yellow T-shirt and she had fat upper arms. Between the accelerations of the afternoon traffic outside, the man could be heard chewing.

The minute of silence was passing. This was the best table; it was in the front corner formed by two broad street windows. The two women, who didn’t know each other except through a mutual acquaintance, raised their cappuccino cups, which were glasses in metal holders.