Jaume Cabré - Confessions

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Drawing comparisons with Shadow of the Wind, The Name of the Rose and The Reader, and an instant bestseller in more than 20 languages, Confessions is an astonishing story of one man s life, interwoven with a narrative that stretches across centuries to create an addictive and unforgettable literary symphony. I confess. At 60 and with a diagnosis of early Alzheimer s, Adrià Ardèvol re-examines his life before his memory is systematically deleted. He recalls a loveless childhood where the family antique business and his father s study become the centre of his world; where a treasured Storioni violin retains the shadows of a crime committed many years earlier. His mother, a cold, distant and pragmatic woman leaves him to his solitary games, full of unwanted questions. An accident ends the life of his enigmatic father, filling Adrià s world with guilt, secrets and deeply troubling mysteries that take him years to uncover and driving him deep into the past where atrocities are methodically exposed and examined. Gliding effortlessly between centuries, and at the same time providing a powerful narrative that is at once shocking, compelling, mysterious, tragic, humorous and gloriously readable, Confessions reaches a crescendo that is not only unexpected but provides one of the most startling denouements in contemporary literature. Confessions is a consummate masterpiece in any language, with an ending that will not just leave you thinking, but quite possibly change the way you think forever.

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‘Adrià.’

Bernat had come into cinquantaquattro and was looking at his friend.

‘Where should I sleep?’

‘Are you tired?’

‘I don’t know.’

‘Who am I?’

‘Little Lola.’

Bernat kissed him on the forehead and examined the room. Adrià was sitting in a comfortable chair beside the window.

‘Jònatan?’

‘Huh?’

‘Are you Jònatan?’

‘I’m Bernat.’

‘No: Wilson!’

‘Wilson is that lively bloke, the one from Ecuador?’

‘I don’t know. I think …’ He looked at Bernat, perplexed: ‘I’m all mixed up now,’ he confessed finally.

Outside it was an overcast, cold, windy day; but even if it’d been a sunny, gorgeous day it wouldn’t have mattered because the glass separated the two worlds too efficiently. Bernat went towards the bedside table and opened the drawer: he placed Black Eagle and Sheriff Carson inside it, so they could continue their useless but loyal watch, lying on the dirty rag where some dark and light checks and a large scar in the middle could still be made out; a rag that had been the source of much speculation by the doctors because during the first few days Mr Ardèvol wouldn’t let go of it, clutching it with both hands. A disgusting, dirty rag, yes, Doctor. How strange, no? What is this rag, eh, sweetie?

Adrià scratched with his fingernail at a small stain on the chair’s arm. Bernat turned when he heard the slight sound and said are you all right?

‘There’s no way to get rid of it.’ He scratched harder. ‘You see?’

Bernat came closer, put on his eyeglasses and examined the spot as if it were very interesting. Since he didn’t know what to do or what to say, he folded his glasses and said, don’t worry, it won’t spread. After fifteen minutes of silence, no one had interrupted them because life is made up of the sum of solitudes that lead us to

‘Very well: look at me. Adrià, look at me, for God’s sake.’

Adrià stopped scratching and looked at him, a bit frightened; he gave him an apologetic smile, as if he’d been caught with his hand in the cookie jar.

‘I just finished typing up your papers. I liked them very much. Very much. And the flipside of the pages, I plan on having them published. Your friend Kamenek says I should.’

He looked him in the eyes. Adrià, disorientated, kept scratching at the itchy stain on the arm of the chair.

‘You aren’t Wilson.’

‘Adrià. I’m talking to you about what you wrote.’

‘Forgive me.’

‘I don’t have anything to forgive you for.’

‘Is that good or bad?’

‘I really like what you wrote. I don’t know if it’s very good, but I really, really like it. You’ve no right, you son of a bitch.’

Adrià looked at his interlocutor, scratched at the stain, opened his mouth and closed it again. He lifted up his arms, perplexed: ‘Now what do I do?’

‘Listen to me. All my life. Sorry: all my ffucking life trying to write something decent, something that would affect and move the reader, and you, a total novice, the first day you put pen to paper you rub salt into the most sensitive wounds of the soul. At least, of my soul. You’ve no right, damn it.’

Adrià Ardèvol didn’t know whether to scratch at the stain or look at his interlocutor. He chose to look at the wall, worried: ‘I think you’re making some mistake. I haven’t done anything.’

‘You have no right.’

Two large tears began to roll down Adrià’s face. He couldn’t look at the other man. He wrung his hands.

‘What can I do?’ he implored.

Bernat, absorbed, didn’t respond. Then Adrià looked at him and begged, ‘Listen, sir.’

‘Don’t call me sir. I’m Bernat and I’m your friend.’

‘Bernat, listen.’

‘No: you listen. Because now I know what you think of me. I’m not complaining; you’ve revealed me and I deserve it; but I still have secrets you’ll never be able to even suspect.’

‘I’m very sorry.’

They grew quiet. And then Wilson came in and said everything OK, sweetie? And he lifted up Adrià’s chin to examine his face, as if he were a boy. He wiped away his tears with a tissue and gave him a little pill and a half-full glass that Adrià drank up eagerly, with an eagerness that Bernat had never seen in him before. Wilson said is everything OK, looking at Bernat, who made an expression that said fantastic, man, and Wilson glanced at the semolina all over the floor. With a paper napkin he picked up some of it, displeased, and left the room with the empty glass, whistling some strange music in six by eight time.

‘I’m so envious that …’

Ten minutes passed in silence.

‘Tomorrow I’ll bring the papers to Bauçà. All right? All the ones written in green ink. I’ve sent the ones in black ink to Johannes Kamenek and a colleague of yours at the university named Parera. Both sides. All right? Your memoir and your reflection. All right, Adrià?’

‘I have an itch here,’ said Adrià pointing to the wall. He looked at his friend. ‘How can I have an itch on the wall?’

‘I’ll keep you posted.’

‘My nose itches too. And I’m very tired. I can’t read because the ideas get mixed up in my head. I already don’t remember what you said.’

‘I admire you,’ said Bernat, looking him in the eyes.

‘I won’t do it again. I promise.’

Bernat didn’t even laugh. He stared at him in silence. He took him by the hand that was still sporadically battling the rebellious stain and he kissed it like you would a father or an uncle. He looked into his eyes. Adrià held his gaze for a few seconds.

‘You know who I am,’ Bernat declared, almost. ‘Right?’

Adrià stared at him. He nodded as he traced a faint smile.

‘Who am I?’ A hint of frightened hope in Bernat.

‘Yes, of course … Mr … whatshisname. Right?’

Bernat got up, serious.

‘No?’ said Adrià, worried. He looked at the other man, who was standing. ‘But I know it. What’s his name. That guy. I can’t quite come up with the name. I don’t know yours, but there is that other one, yeah. One named … right now I can’t remember, but I know it. I take very good care of myself. Very. My name is … now I don’t remember my name, but yes, it’s him.’

And after a heartrending pause: ‘Isn’t that right, sir?’

Something vibrated in Bernat’s pocket. He pulled out his mobile phone. An SMS: ‘Where are you hiding?’ He leaned over and kissed the sick man’s forehead.

‘Goodbye, Adrià.’

‘Take care. Come back whenever you’d like …’

‘My name is Bernat.’

‘Bernat.’

‘Yes, Bernat. And forgive me.’

Bernat went out into the hallway and headed off; he wiped away a runaway tear. He looked furtively from side to side and made a phone call.

‘Where in God’s name are you?’ Xènia’s voice, a bit upset.

‘Hey, no, sorry.’

‘Where are you?’

‘Nowhere. Work.’

‘I thought you didn’t have rehearsal.’

‘No; it’s just that some things came up.’

‘Come on, come over, I want to screw.’

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