Elisabeth Jones - Gold Beach

‘I’d better take you home,’ he said, walking to the door with his head down.

‘But why?’ I asked hopelessly, not understanding the reason for that change.

‘I don’t want to force you into something you don’t want to do and much less into something that would lead to consequences.’

‘I am where I want to be, do you hear me? And no possible consequence will make me change my mind.’

I’d be lying if I said that I wasn’t a little embarrassed, but who isn’t for their first time? I unbuttoned my coat and dropped it on the chair with my eyes fixed on him. With great effort, finally I buried the modesty in my mind and started to undress in front of him. I unzipped my dress and let it fall to my feet to show him the slip I’ve been saving for so long for a special moment like this. I took off my shoes. I unclipped my suspender belt and took it off along with my stockings while he began to undress. I slowly pulled down the shoulder strap of my slip until it fell to my feet. The expression in his eyes as he saw my body naked made me blush so much that I crossed my arms to cover my breasts. Elwyn decided to switch off the light and left the room in shadow so I could feel more at ease. He came close to me, held out his hand and as I took it we began to walk slowly to the bed. While he pulled back the blankets for us to lie down, I took off the last piece of underwear I still wore.

I remember that when I got to that point, I slammed shut my mother’s diary. I was ashamed to read on. I made an attempt to return it to the trunk and forget all about it because I felt I was usurping her privacy, but then I reconsidered. I was fourteen already. I was no longer a child. If my mother discovered that I had read it, I would say I skipped that part unread. I didn’t want for the world that my mother should feel ashamed, so I opened it again, turned the pages slowly until I got to where I had left it and went on reading.

When he turned around to let me lie down first, he found me facing him completely naked and covering the part of my body that he most desired at that moment with my hands. Without thinking twice, I settled on the bed to seek refuge under the sheets, not knowing for certain if the heat that was suffocating me was from blushing or desire. When I saw how he was taking off his underwear, I turned my face. I think he appreciated that, as he grew uncomfortable for the first time seeing how he couldn’t control his excitement. Sheltered under the sheets, we looked at each other, both unable to take the first step.

‘Are you scared?’ Elwyn asked almost in a whisper.

‘Only of you not coming back.’

‘I’ll come back. I promise.’

‘I know. I love you.’

As he heard my last words he sat up slightly to look at me but before he could take the initiative, I put my arm around him and kissed him. The shy and chaste Elisabeth that I had been had just surrendered to her body’s desire to discover, for the first time, what it meant to make love. My lips started to kiss him, marking the beginning of a journey intended to be slow and pleasurable. A journey of discovery chosen by fate to join us forever. Elwyn put his arm around me, kissing me, while he caressed me all over with his other arm. My whole skin constricted at the first touch I felt on my breast. When he went lower to kiss it I thought the heat growing inside my body had reached the top. My legs, which had remained stiffly together, began to loosen and spread slowly, sliding smoothly over the sheet. To him, that move represented an open door allowing him to enter a so far forbidden region. His hand rolled down my belly towards my groin in a soft caress. As he touched the hair announcing the arrival at his destination I closed my legs at once. Without going back the slightest bit of the covered distance, Elwyn looked at me with a smile that inspired me with confidence.

‘I’m sorry,’ I apologised, abashed.

‘Don’t apologise and don’t be afraid,’ he said, getting closer to kiss me.

With no haste and a controlled patience, he waited for me to relax. His kisses didn’t take long to work. I gradually slid my legs open again to give myself to him for good. He resumed his path until his fingers slipped inside my body. I shuddered out of control. I wanted to moan in pleasure but his mouth, kissing me passionately, drowned out my moans with his. We had just stepped beyond the point of no return. Now the only thing I wanted was to let him get inside me but he didn’t seem to be in a hurry. His fingers started to move rhythmically while my breathing raced until I had to stop kissing him to catch enough air. His mouth went back to my breast without wasting a second. He seemed to be tremendously excited but he still didn’t want to take the final step. His fingers made me lose control. My hips began to move driven by a natural wisdom. I thought it was impossible to feel any more heat but with every new sensation I realised that I hadn’t reached the end. The rocking of my immature hips provoked in Elwyn the lustful need to get lost in my sex before entering it. With a sudden movement guided by an uncontrollable excitation, he threw away the blankets that covered us and kneeled facing my groin, putting his arms around my thighs. I sat up immediately to prevent him from carrying out that act which embarrassed me so much but his firm grip wouldn’t let me withdraw the slightest bit. The motions of his tongue made me gradually forget the prejudices that haunted me. I closed my eyes and dropped down on the bed to give myself completely to that forbidden discovery. My whole body was at the edge of an abyss of pleasure into which I craved to fall. I clung to my hair as if I trusted I wouldn’t lose my head this way. My panting and groaning were just the encouragement he needed to go on. Up to when? My whole body was discovering new experiences unknown to me that were driving me to an exciting madness. I wanted to shout, I wanted to beg him not to stop. I was getting to something new that wouldn’t stop growing. My legs became tense; I dropped my hands to the sheets to twist them tightly until an immense pleasure flooded inside me and made me shake over and over again.

I didn’t dare to look at him. I was so embarrassed that I covered my face with my hands. My legs flopped onto the bed and gradually my breathing started to find some peace. Elwyn didn’t let me rest. He threw himself on top of me with feline agility. I embraced him and spread my legs as much as I could. His look revealed so much excitation that I was scared of being hurt. I know he wanted to go slowly but he couldn’t control himself either, so with no time for a truce he ploughed inside me breaking the barrier that separated us to feel each other time after time. I found it impossible to restrain a scream of passionate pain, which I managed to subside by digging my nails into his back. After that first moment, I received the consecutive thrusts with total devotion, as if it were a prelude to my eternal union with him. Elwyn’s pleasure was expressed through constant moans that made me forget the pain inflicted upon me. He shoved harder and harder, as if he wanted to reach my innermost recesses. I bit my lip to keep quiet and submissive. I tried to think what I could do to give him more pleasure but I could barely move under the weight of his body. My legs couldn’t spread any wider but I could lift them instead. My hands released his back to get hold of my thighs and lift them as much as possible. He seemed to like this change because he began to move faster. The new position hurt and stung but nevertheless I liked it. I seemed to be beyond reason. He searched for my mouth desperately to get lost in a wet, salty kiss of sheer lust. He squeezed me, thrust into me, broke me but I was determined to give myself to him totally until he finally spilt himself inside me.