Robert Wilson - Vortex

He sat in the midday warmth as if waiting for her to speak. Today, unusually, Sandra wasn’t sure where to begin.

She started by telling him about Jefferson Bose. Who he was and how much she liked him. “I think you’d like him, too. He’s a policeman.” She paused. “But he’s something else, too.”

She lowered her voice, though there was no one else in the mott to hear her.

“You always liked stories about Mars from the Spin days. How the human colonies turned into whole civilizations while Earth was wrapped up in the Spin barrier. How they had a fourth stage of life, where people could live longer if they took on certain obligations and duties. Remember that? The stories Wun Ngo Wen told the world, before he was killed?

“Well, Mars doesn’t talk to us anymore, and some pretty unscrupulous people have turned those Martian pharmaceuticals into something uglier, something they can sell for profit on the black market. But there were people around Wun Ngo Wen, people like Jason Lawton and his friends, who took Martian ethics seriously. I used to hear rumors, and there were always stories online, about that. About clandestine groups who took the longevity treatment the way the Martians did. Keeping it pure and not selling it, but sharing it, the way it was made to be shared, all strings attached. Using it wisely.”

She was nearly whispering now. Kyle’s eyes still followed the motion of her lips.

“I didn’t used to believe those stories. But now I think they’re true.”

This morning Bose had told her he wasn’t just a cop. He told her he had connections with people who followed the Martian customs. His friends hated the black market trade, he said. The police could be bribed, but Bose’s friends couldn’t, because they already had taken the longevity treatment—the original version. And what he was doing, he was doing in their interests.

She said this, very quietly, to Kyle.

“Now, the question you probably want to ask,” the question, as an older brother, he surely would have asked, “is, do I trust him?”

Kyle blinked, meaninglessly.

“I do,” she said, and she felt better for confirming it aloud. “It’s what I don’t know that worries me.”

Like the meaning, if any, of Orrin Mather’s sci-fi story. Like the bandage on Jack Geddes’s arm, and what it might imply about Orrin’s capacity for violence. Like the scar Bose had tried to conceal from her, and which he had still not explained.

Time passed. Eventually a nurse came down the pathway to the grove of live oaks, moving slowly in the heat. “Time to get this fella back to bed,” she announced. Kyle’s hat had fallen off, though that didn’t matter so much in the shade of the trees. His hair was thinning prematurely. Sandra could see his scalp, pink as a baby’s skin, through wisps of pale blond hair. She picked up the Astros cap and put it on him, gently.

Ah.

“Okay,” she said. “Rest easy, Kyle. See you soon,” she told him.

Sandra had studied psychiatry in order to understand the nature of despair, but all she had really learned was the pharmacology of it. The human mind was easier to medicate than to comprehend. There were more and better antidepressant medications now than when her father had endured his long decline, and that was a good thing, but despair itself remained mysterious, clinically and personally, as much a visitation as a disease.

The long drive back to Houston took her past a State Care internment facility, one of the places her patients went after they were assigned custodial status. Passing the State camp inevitably tweaked her conscience. Usually Sandra avoided looking at it—it was comfortingly easy to overlook. The entrance was marked only with a small and dignified sign; the facility itself was hidden beyond a grassy ridge (yellow and sere); very little of it showed from the highway, though she glimpsed the tops of the guard towers. But she had been up that road a couple of times and knew what lay beyond it: a huge two-story cinderblock residence surrounded by makeshift expansion housing, mostly sheet-metal trailers donated by FEMA from surplus stock, encircled by wire fencing. It was a community of men (mostly men) and women (a few), carefully segregated from one another and endlessly waiting. Because that was what you did in such a place: you waited. Waited for your turn in an occupational rehab program, waited for the slim possibility of transfer to a State Care halfway house, waited for letters from distant and indifferent relatives. Waited with slowly hemorrhaging optimism for the miraculous advent of a new life.

It was a town made of wire and corrugated aluminum and chronic despair. Medicated despair—she herself had probably written some of the prescriptions that were perennially renewed at the camp dispensary. And sometimes even that wasn’t enough—Sandra had heard that the biggest security problem at the compound was the flow of intoxicants (liquor, pot, opiates, meth) smuggled in from outside.

There was a bill before the Texas legislature to privatize the residential camps. Attached to the bill was a proviso that “work therapy” could be construed as permission to hire out healthy inmates for roadwork or seasonal farm labor, to defray the public expense of their internment. If it passed, Sandra thought, the legislation would mean the end of any tattered idealism still attached to the State Care project. What had been intended as a way of providing comfort and protection to the chronically indigent would have become a cosmetically acceptable source of indentured labor—slavery with a haircut and a clean shirt.

The watchtowers disappeared in her rearview mirror, hidden among the baking yellow hills. She thought about how angry she had been at Congreve, who had taken her off Orrin Mather’s case to prevent her from rendering an inconvenient diagnosis. But how clean were her own hands? How many souls had she committed to internment just because they matched a profile in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual? Saving them from the cruelty and violence of the streets, yes, saving them from exploitation and HIV and malnutrition and addiction, and there was enough truth in that to salve her conscience; but in the end, saving them for what?

It was almost dark when she got home. September now, the days getting shorter, though it was still hotter than high August. She checked for any fresh message from Bose. There was one, but it was only another installment of Orrin’s notebook.

Her phone buzzed while she was microwaving dinner. She picked up without looking at the display, expecting Bose, but the voice on the other end was unfamiliar. “Dr. Cole? Sandra Cole?”

“Yes?” Feeling wary, though she couldn’t say why.

“I hope you had a rewarding visit with your brother today.”

“Who is this?”

“Someone with your best interests at heart.”

She was conscious of the fear that began in her belly and traveled up her spine and seemed to lodge, somehow, in her heart. This is not good, she thought. But she didn’t put down the phone. She waited, listening.

“What is majestic about them,” Oscar was saying, “almost incomprehensibly majestic, is their physical structure—trillions upon trillions of diverse components, from the microscopic to the very large, distributed over an entire galaxy! A human body is trivial, less than microscopic by comparison. And yet we matter to them! In some way, we’re a significant part of their existence.” He wore the abstracted smile of a man contemplating a sacred vision. “And they know we’re here, and they’re coming to meet us.”