Tera Patrick - Sinner Takes All

Writing this book with Carrie was like therapy. She made me dig deep inside myself, examine why I’ve done what I’ve done and what the emotions were behind it. It brought up the good and the bad and awakened something in me. It also helped me reconnect with Mom and think about what the next chapter in my life may be. I’m excited about the future, the great unknown, but I’m no longer fearful to go it alone. By writing about some intense situations in my life and really analyzing them for the first time, getting to the “why” of it all, it made me feel stronger than I ever have. Looking back, I’ve lived and experienced some of the best and worst, and I wouldn’t change any of it. It made me who I am. It also taught me that it’s not over; it’s far from over. I don’t think it’ll ever be over. I’m excited to take on the next adventures.

The bottom line is that I know I can do anything on my own now. I plan to cover my tattoo that says “Evan’s Princess.” A princess is usually a damsel in distress who needs a Prince Charming to sweep in, save her, and make her happy. I needed that at the time, but I’m no damsel in distress anymore. And I will never be someone else’s “princess.” I am the queen of my own domain now, and I feel on top of the world for having discovered that.

Aroused (1999)

Fire and Ice (1999)

Pick-Up Lines 45 (1999)

Crossroads (1999)

Caught in the Act (1999)

Caribbean Undercover (1999)

Up and Cummers 73 (1999)

Foot Lovers Only (1999)

Farmer’s Daughters Do Beverly Hills (1999)

Gallery of Sin (1999)

Girls of Penthouse 4 (2000)

North Pole 11 (2000)

Penthouse Pets in Paradise (2001)

Collision Course (2004)

Tera Tera Tera (2004)

Reign of Tera (2005)

Test Drive (2005)

Appetite for Destruction (2006)

Reign of Tera 2 (2006)

SeXXXpose (2006)

Tera Patrick’s Fashion Underground (2006)

Teradise Island: Anal Fever (2006)

Where the Boys Aren’t 18 and 19 (2006)

Tera Patrick Is… Flawless (2007)

InTERActive (2007)

Tera Goes Gonzo (2008)

Teradise Island 2 (2008)

Sex in Dangerous Places (2009)

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2000: Hot D’Or, Best American New Starlet

2000: XRCO Awards, Best New Starlet

2001: Adult Stars magazine’s Consumer Choice Awards, Best New Starlet

2001: AVN Awards, Best New Starlet and Best Interactive DVD (Virtual Sex with Tera Patrick)

2001: Genesis magazine, Best New Cummer

2001: FOXE Awards, Video Vixen

2002: AVN Awards, Best Tease Performance (Island Fever) and Best Renting Title of the Year (Island Fever)

2003: FOXE Awards, Female Fan Favorite

2004: Genesis magazine, Porn Star of the Year

2004: FOXE Awards, Female Fan Favorite

2005: FOXE Awards, Female Fan Favorite

2005: Genesis magazine, Porn Star of the Year

2006: Genesis magazine, Porn Star of the Year

2006: Temptation Awards, Best Actress and Best New Studio (Teravision)

2007: Genesis magazine Porn Star of the Year

2007: F.A.M.E. Awards, Favorite Female Starlet

2007: eLINE Awards, Best American Actress, Best Performer and Best Businesswoman

2007: Adultcon Awards, Mainstream Crossover Star of the Year

2008: AVN Awards, Best Cinematography ( Tera Patrick’s Fashion Underground ), Best High End All Sex Release ( Teravision’s Broken ) and Best Interactive Movie ( InTERActive )

2008: F.A.M.E. Awards, Favorite Female Starlet

2008: eLINE Awards, Best Lingerie Label (Mistress Couture)

2009: AVN Awards, Hall of Fame

2009: F.A.M.E. Awards, Favorite Female Starlet and Favorite Star Website ( www.TeraPatrick.com)

2009: XBIZ Awards, Crossover Star of the Year and ASACP (Association of Sites Advocating Child Protection) Annual Service Recognition Award

I would like to thank, first and foremost, my family, who have been there for me from the beginning with unconditional love and support: Debra—my best friend, soul mate, and sister—and her husband Daniel; my mom Preeya, who I learned a lot from; my three four-legged babies—Chopper, Mr. Big Time, and Tiger; my nieces Kaila and Madison; my other siblings Matthew and Katie; my dad David; and my stepmother Kara Ostrom.

I could not have done with this without my book team, especially my writer Carrie Borzillo, who went on my entire life journey with me. You know me backward and forward, and I don’t know if that’s a good thing, but I love you forever and it just keeps getting better. Thank you to everyone at Gotham and Penguin, including my editor Patrick Mulligan, William Shinker, Lindsay Gordon, Lisa Johnson, and the entire staff who are working tirelessly to make this book a success. Thank you to my managers Chris Lighty and Amrita Sen from Violator Management, my literary agent Marc Gerard at the Agency Group, and my attorney David Adelman.

Margaret Cho, I couldn’t have asked for a more moving foreword. It touched my heart and you are a true inspiration. Dave Navarro, Carmen Electra, and Larry Flynt, thank you for the kind words. And Larry, I thank you and Hustler for your support.

To my amazing Teravision staff over the years, thank you for helping me make my dreams come true: Max Padilla, Mike Abdelnour, Robert Mora, Candace Kang, and my publicist April Storm.

I also owe a lot to the countless magazines that have put me on their covers or in their pages— Playboy , Penthouse , Hustler , Genesis (especially Dan Davis), and FHM (especially editor Sam Barclay and photographer Perry Hagopian, who shot my crossover cover). And, to the organizations that have awarded me for me work over the years. I am truly honored.

I’d also like to thank my friends, colleagues, coworkers, photographers, directors, and supporters who have believed in me and helped make my dreams come true (or just kept me sane during the insanity): Jessicka Addams; Anneli Adolfsson; Rebekka Armstrong; AVN for inducting me into the Hall of Fame, letting me host the show, and putting me on countless covers; Andrew Blake; Lisa Boyle; Darius at the Red Parrot (the most amazing club ever); DJ Hideo; Carla Drake; Lisa Boyle; Ricardo Feressi; Lee Garland; Alexandra Greenberg at the Mitch Schneider Organization; Lizzie Grubman; Helenke; Steve Hirsch at Vivid; Ivan Kane of Forty Deuce; Crystal Knight; Delia Kourvatos; Chi Chi LaRue; Lena; Liinda Garristo; Tony Lee of The Lee Network; Juliet Lowrie; Perry Margouleff; Lisa Massaro; Morning Sun’s Joe; Myuk; James McDaniel; Ann Myers; Caroline Pace; Michael Politz; Suze Randall; Jason and Raffelina Reyes; Erik Rudd; “Sandy” from AA; Kerry Simon; Charmane Star; Jim South; Tao’s Jason and Noah; Paul Thomas; Autumn Weber; my webmasters Claude and Magalie; Teri Weigel; Tovaris Wilson; and Yumi.

Last, I would like to thank Marilyn Monroe, Bettie Page, and Paulina Porizkova for inspiring me. And to my wonderful fans around the world, you humble me and you will forever be in my heart.