Joseph McElroy - Women and Men

Two thousand miles east and north a red convertible appeared between a blighted elm and a wide green maple. Two thousand miles east and north but at a minutely altered angle from where the friend’s book with the black-and-white photo lies. Angle of six months from the photo; six months/two hundred miles. A red convertible with flared sides — pontoons like the old running boards his father in a formal coat and top hat was photographed riding on from church to hotel at the wedding of a best friend. Pontoons now, not running boards. And the red car — the red car left the dirt road, rolled down the grassy bank into a lake and, honking at a small sailing craft, a Sunfish, that his own sun-dark daughter and son in bathing suits and only one life preserver were just coming about in, the car crossed to the far point of land and slowly went behind it honking, low in the waters of a New Hampshire lake doing eight knots instead of eighty miles an hour, the state where you’re in the shadow of Mount Monadnock which is no special respecter of the increasing complexity of family moving from the sub-Ur-father’s role as mere fertilizer (to be ploughed right in), to civilization, where the father spent much more time with his family.

Six months gets him to August, but what’s his direction? But this is also maybe six years ago. Time travel isn’t all magic; it can be hard overland work, minutes into hours into worm-geared days of a long division of labor as strung-out as a string of mistakes and as specialized as the stone of which the Ship Rock ship was made to hold together.

For a great stone ship was what the Indians observed Ship Rock to be, long before concrete hulls. The Great Spirit had sent such a ship to carry them. A vessel which he has no plans to give back to the Indians, for this is their ground anyway, all twenty-five thousand square miles of authentic Navajo desert, as full of mystery for some itinerant folklorist as for a farmer told to go ahead and plough, harrow, sow, and reap here. And here the ship is, supposedly.

Well, if it’s a ship, what does it draw?

From the west it is a weathered prow made partly of the seas through which it has come: but from here, from the south side, it’s a dark berg, gray-brown, relieved by sun to a dun ochre here and there. Which is very different (as someone importantly says, very different) from the far side, the opposite or north but not necessarily dark side, from which the Rock is a detached Alp but redder than on this south side; and on that north side high up a trough of snow with distant brevity runs down like a valley tilted vertical, and it leads down to a sheer face.

He tried to come at it from that side; didn’t get closer than about three miles, steering some cross-country dream into a gully, scraping the gas tank, the muffler — he hasn’t looked, the car’s not losing fuel, just burning it unleaden into Father Sky — but yes, smoother sailing in some early daydream he had before an alarm got him up in the motel this morning; he’ll get back to it, it’s in some limitlessly fueled motion inside a familial voice; Mother Earth’s? or an Anglo grandmother’s American voyaging in her grandson’s mind, her tales of the East Far Eastern Princess who flew over the deep land and the long waters to visit the Indians of another century — but now here on the south side looking roughly north he sees Ship Rock furled and unfurled, and slumped left-to-right down from the profiled prow. And its motion if you dig it in the faint rush of a mild wind and against a jukebox song in a motel lounge thirty-odd miles away about a "hy-po-thet-i-cal" — man, he thought — (half-heard last night beyond his own voice and others telling stories, two others, two big hats as if on one face, two voices he was with) — yes, the motion, Ship Rock’s, the motion of the ship, is all the more marked by the absence of motion in the sky, no clouds.

Oh other Ship Rock stories. Handed down (he can see them doing it), sung, unsung. Fellows around a fire — probably a painting of it on the motel dining-room wall. Handed down by women too. Do women think about ships, do they make up myths, what freedoms do they take, do they believe what men say? He’s dumb. He doesn’t know. Once there was a New Jersey grandmother who gave news of an Eastern Princess, angry, without appetite, hopeful, palely proud, riding over dry land and deep water on the back of her hungry bird.

Well, on the way out here on business he must have passed her going the other way, long dead, touring some other latitude of the dead.

Stories that weren’t hers, quite, but were stuff he carried now on him. The Indians had theirs; he had his. He liked her — his grandmother — and so he took the tales she gave him. Of this Eastern Princess whose "Father-kin" as she called him had shown her all the sights and great deeds of his country which was as far away as the mountains of Manchuria and the noises rumbling at the bottom of the world, and had introduced her to all the young nobles he and his loyal wife could muster, and he’d given her, in that country of theirs far away, an age away from the western Indians, a young and growing bird of a giant kind noted for its traveling powers and its generous appetite for large, moving animals, galloping camels in Egypt, cows in its smoking beak when it came upon them, young elephants curving their trunks back like horns, and she flew past the pyramids, and the long-elbowed mammoth goats beside the hot, lofty waterfalls of Iceland, and she visited the ritual slaughter places of five continents not to mention a healer in the Dark Continent who with a painless razor-thin whisper of a knife parted the skin of a patient’s back from neck to waist to let out the smoke and fat of difficult messages her middle-aged grandson now in contemporary New Mexico daydreamed as a boy in New Jersey that he must speak aloud, not just hand over sealed, because these words and tales he knew in his sleep, how the Eastern Princess went among crystal labyrinths decreed by the chieftains of the Chicago tribes — O.K., that’s got to be the 1893 World’s Fair she visited, but what about the unheard-of flowers growing down out of haunted ceilings that for all her humor and calm may have haunted the Anglo grandmother who once evoked them — but when her stories stretched out to the western Indians, they were other than your authentic tales given from age to age about, well, Ship Rock: if not made up by an ethnologist tape recorder in Albuquerque in collusion with the Indian Agency (stumped by unemployment), handed down to a generation of geologists (some in collusion with the energy interest — though geologists and true) who concluded, who saw, under the moon of September or here under the morning sun of February, that the Rock looks like a sailing ship.

Its sheets and shrouds hauled full. Its speed a myth unclouded and un-tackled by any measure except here this hypothetical man’s shallow anchor where he stands in front of his rented car in extreme northwest New Mexico watching Ship Rock.

It’s been there since yesterday, he couldn’t get away from it, getting closer to it, going away, coming back, scale constant, size negotiable, alone, hence receding.

He’s not sure if no one knows he’s here.

Across the red slope of beach at the base of Ship Rock about two miles from where he stands, something moved a long time ago. Too fast not to be a vehicle. Then he didn’t see it — and is there a road out there across the Rock’s sandy-looking foundation?

Who goes there in the February morning? He’s heard from an economist in Farmington thirty, forty miles from here, of lovers with pitons, hammers, climbing boots, who didn’t make it. Who went up there together and came down separately. (Permission needed to climb the Rock.) Or were never seen again, together or separate — drawn into the Rock or into themselves like newlyweds who stand on the plate twenty-some miles west and a bit north where the corners of four states — Arizona, Utah, Colorado, New Mexico— meet at one point and you and your lover can celebrate a boundless troth by being in several states at once. In 1906 the people of Arizona vetoed joint statehood with New Mexico. Maybe two stories slide together, the Rock that absorbs, the Ship that transports. The stuff breaks off; it’s volcanic tuff, a lot of it — ash — it crumbles. And people do more damage than the wind. But to themselves too. The lovers got high enough to fall but not to leap. It rises while you climb. Designed to.