Joseph McElroy - Women and Men

Yet the interrogator however internalized by us has said next to nothing so far about any Princess (nee born to be Mayn’s grandmother) winging back home East where the Inventor of New York her cranky, ingenious protector (though what was she to him?) turned her into a sun-drenched cloud so that she might escape for a time into the very statue the unassembled pieces of which she had once eight years previous in 1885 at the age of twelve or thirteen viewed with her father and an unknown photographer while behind her this older man she was about to meet who later sent her Longfellow’s Dante inscribed by the poet for her birthday muttered as they stared into the concave insides of the Statue’s face as tragic as it was dumb, "Look her in the eye, you’ll see what she never will," having also given advice which eight years later she took, "Go west, young girl young woman."

So the torturer-interrogator betrayed himself. He forgot we had said nothing of the grandmother’s return adventures with the Hermit-Inventor of New York before she was restored both to her father the editor of a then thriving weekly newspaper in New Jersey and to an old friend and sometime beau Alexander to whom she soon gave her hand in marriage and indeed friendship and with it an authentic Colt revolver she herself by conflicting accounts had taken as a gift or stolen to use as a deterrent possibly with its possible former possessor in mind, the Navajo Prince who was never so much the obstacle she put behind her to coast the future wind’s inevitable road home as he was the love in her she passed on in her self and her stories to the one of her two grandsons who, then as later raised to the power of future, was in two places at once but not at one.

And one of these twos that he found himself so bound to he found them in himself like obstacles to be sought again and again was on one hand his grandparents’ house and on the other that other home down the street of Windrow, where a mother sent two sons away, at least one to live human and go on being animal, which, since these two were not just two but one, meant you might have it both ways, why Grace Kimball said so somewhere in the ongoing structure of her good works which accommodated a multiplicity of small-scale units, Redesign your life, cleanse that transverse colon you’ll feel like you’re flying on coke, while you’re at it, at it, at it.

But, Pawnee though she was one-thirty-second, other Indians meant something more actual by having it both ways of being human and animal, both your totem, hence you’re an eagle or you’re a coyote, say, and if the both of you are coyotes or you’re both eagles, you two can’t marry.

This the Ojibway medicine man with the diamond squint might still accept in this day and age matriculating thanks to the diva’s doctor with four of the diva’s own natal compatriots in a forward-looking aeronautics college within range of Lake Superior.

Can’t make a living shipping tapeworms to the opera stars even should she be reduced to the great Minnesota tapeworm as her personal totem softly singing in the entrails of a drifting, ever drifting Mille Lacs pike, "Fly me, fly me." But it was no joke to the diva’s doctor; words have weight; the past has weight, and so, as we have seen, have the diva’s multilingual dictates; just so, the doctor straggled for years to transplant his heart from the mother who called his true love Archaeology his "Hiawatha studies"; and he might relieve himself double-checking the god Morning Star though never at first hand confirm the published report that Navajo women think if you depart from the missionary position which gives you at least the vantage to see up through the teepee’s funneled smoke-hole (since they haven’t evolved ceiling mirrors beyond the mere sky in this culture as yet) your baby will come out feet first. Sediment info from a long-gone sea.

Like Mayn, who’s some of what by now we all have in us, we’re out here in the future but at the same time we’re not. This here is already past or gone and something of an illusion and as he lightly told his much-loved daughter he thought he was at times in future no kidding and was imagining our present as past; crazy, eh?

And why this should be he wouldn’t blame on anybody else which would be like seeking Power, or like seeing History as Seasons, or Upward (Yes!) Mobility, or Greed, or Consciousness Determines Being or Being Determines Consciousness, or some damn story to scrawl on a sheet of graph paper. Yet he knew he chose or "gravitated toward" unspectacular nuts-and-bolts subjects. He was curious how the nation made its living.

But that he was in future and, as we remember, covering a space or place known as a libration point, there’s little doubt, it’s ringed with gravity valleys and gravity wells, and it’s a place where you can stay put because the pulls of Earth and Moon equalize with another force they didn’t tell him what it was. And if he really went there along some declining curve, he did not imagine with enough vividness asking what dreams might come to citizen-settlers there after the thousandfold shock of being transmitted one for two.

But the point is that pairs of persons are lined up waiting to enter the bubble. They even eye one another smiling speaking in their travel excitement of that reckless rumor that they’ll become one person — but when? — and if so, who then? It’s like one of the old modern elevator-capsules and each pair when it’s their turn stand Indian-file on a plate inside this bubble composed of a million million chip-templates of perhaps electro-magnetism which, at the right moment, throng — we already remember, we’re repeating what was given us verbatim — throng two waiting bodies with non-visible radiance that brings out the cells in all their glaring boundaries like graphed skin. Till the point when the million million collapse into one idea. And the two persons standing on the plate at Locus T are apparently dissolved to frequency here in order to be reconstituted elsewhere so as not to slog from here to there in an operational displacement of volume, but no they are instead subject to another change which Mayn finds in the altered meaning of T which was for "Transfer" but is now for "Transform," two to become one, a clean economy which may accommodate three, four, even five as soon as they improve the plate.

And he isn’t clear what the two transformed to one are transferred to, where do they wind up besides together?

His questions bury their own shadows and he is there in the past which being the century in question he’s got to get with, lest it seem unreal; he’s a decent guy (he sometimes thinks just in those words), and words have weight though sometimes giving light and sometimes not (and between him and others we have given ourselves those who are already angels flesh of ourselves so that entering a delivery room and looking at the faces of a woman and a man there, we might be light enough or too much to go around, for light as we become it has weight) and while he just as soon not know light weighs, Mayn’s going to see that disposable past (our present) as well as can be. Which helps us because we’re in it. Though then he’s in up to his ears, years deep, back to grandmother, who went ahead herself — odd — ordering a small granite grave-marker from Red Bank and saw that it was laid exactly where she said in the cemetery with, in retrospect, breath-taking soonness, so that for the grandson Jim (he wouldn’t know about his younger brother Brad whom he imagines he never knew very well) all these things are equal to each other long or brief, and falling far into the warped horizon of what he declined to foresee or made himself not think of, he drew with him like his grandmother’s stories also a throng of voices — call them Relations — such as his father, the cousin outsider from Pennsy who took over the Windrow Democrat when it was about to fail because no news was not good business — about to fail because it was still sort of old-fashioned political and small-town thoughtful and "passing parade-ish" — saying out loud to his wife, Jim’s mother, through walls and years slowly in the middle of the night, "Two sons of a bitch," which wasn’t as easy to say as his grandmother Margaret’s recitation of Henry Aldrich Long fellow’s "Seaweed," ending, God help us,