Irwin Shaw - Short Stories - Five Decades

Mitchell slowly opened the bag. A heavy silver medal on a chain, glittering dully in the lamplight, fell into his hand. Ruth was crouched on her knees on the couch beside him, looking anxiously at his face to see if her present would meet with favor. Mitchell turned it over. It was a Saint Christopher, old and irregular, of heavy silver, with the Saint awkward and angular and archaic and very religious in the loving workmanship of a silversmith who had died a long time before.

“It’s for voyages,” Ruth said, hurriedly. “For a navigator, I thought, it might be quite—quite useful.…” She smiled uncertainly at him. “Of course,” she said, “it is not in my religion, but I don’t think it would do any harm to give it to you. That’s why I went to Jerusalem. Something like this, something holy, might have a tendency to be more effective if it comes from Jerusalem, don’t you think?”

“Of course,” Mitchell said. “It’s bound to be.”

“Will you wear it?” Ruth glanced quickly and shyly at him, sitting there, dangling the medal on its chain.

“All the time,” Mitchell said. “Day and night, every mission, every jeep-ride, year in, year out.”

“May I put it on for you?”

Mitchell opened his collar and gave the medal to Ruth. She stood up and he bowed his head and she slipped it on, then leaned over and kissed the back of his neck where the chain lay against the flesh.

She stepped back. “Now,” she said matter-of-factly. “There we are.” She went over to the lamp. “We don’t need this any more.” She put the light out and went over to the window and threw back the blackout blinds, and a faint breeze carrying salt and the scent of gardens came into the room. She stood at the window, looking out, and Mitchell got up and crossed over to her, feeling the unfamiliar cool jewelry of the medal dangling against his chest. He stood behind her, silently, holding her lightly, looking out over the city. The white buildings shone in the heavy moonlight machined and modern and Biblical all at once, and from the west came the faint sound of the sea. Mitchell wanted to tell her that he would remember her, remember everything about her, her drowned mother and imprisoned father, her old, courageous lover, drinking champagne with her at the Nazi cafés; he wanted to tell her that he would remember the dealings with the Greek sailor and the hold of the ship that had been built in 1887 and the dying Jews buying a lemon with a gold candlestick; he wanted to tell her that flying over the Germans in Europe or watching the first snow fall at Stowe he would remember the small boat grating on the sand in the darkness outside Rehovoth and the week in the closed movie theater with the British patrols outside; he wanted to tell her that the terror and courage would not be forgotten, but he didn’t know how to say it, and besides, being honest with himself, he knew it would be difficult to remember, and finally, back in Vermont, it would blur and cloud over and seem unreal as a story in a child’s book, read many years ago and now almost forgotten: He held her more tightly, but he said nothing.

“There he is,” Ruth said, her voice casual and unimpressed. “See him standing down there next to the house with the picket gate.…”

Mitchell looked over Ruth’s shoulder. Down on the street, thirty yards from the entrance of Ruth’s house, was a small dark figure, almost completely lost in shadow.

“Ali Khazen,” Ruth said. “He comes and waits outside my window. Ah …” she sighed, “I suppose finally he’ll kill me.”

She turned away from the window and led him back to the couch across the strip of moonlight that divided the room. She looked up at him gravely, then suddenly pushed him gently down to the couch and fell beside him, holding onto him. She held him and kissed his cheek and chuckled a little. “Now, Lieutenant,” she said, “tell me about Vermont.”

H e wondered what had happened to the curtains. He lay stiffly on the bed, listening, with the old, irritated tightening of the nerves, to the wild and grating hubbub of the Cairo street outside his window, the insane wailing of newsboys, the everlasting iron drip of garry-horses’ hooves, the pained yelps of peddlers. The sun, bright and hurtful as hot nickel, cut in through the open windows. On the floor lay the curtains, torn, with bits of cord still running from them to the top of the windows, like a ruptured spider web.

“What happened to the curtains?” he asked. His voice felt dry and sandy in his throat, and the right side of his head began to ache.

Mac was shaving at the washstand. His beard made a crinkly, Spartan sound against the razor. “Last night,” Mac said, without turning. “In the excitement.”

“What excitement?”

“You pulled the curtains down.”

“Why?”

Mac shaved quietly and intently around the short, soldierly mustache. “Don’t know,” he said. “Either you wanted to throw me out, or throw yourself out, or just tear down the curtains.”

“Oh, God!”

Mac scrubbed his face with water. “Pretty drunk, Peter,” he said.

“What else did I do?”

“Two lieutenants and a major. In the lounge. Ten minutes of insults.”

“A major! Christ!” Peter closed his eyes.

“I think you hit a lieutenant.” Mac’s voice was muffled in a towel. “Anyway, you hit something. Your hand’s all cut up.”

Peter opened his eyes and looked at his hand. Across the back of it there was a wide, ugly wound, just beginning to puff up around the edges. As he looked at it, he realized that it was hurting him.

“I poured iodine over it,” Mac said. “You won’t die.”

“Thanks.” Peter let his hand drop, licked his dry lips. “What did I say to the major?”

“‘Base wallah.’ ‘Imperial vulture.’ ‘Gezira bloodsucker.’ ‘Headquarters hangman.’”

“That’s enough.” The right side of Peter’s head hurt very strongly for a moment.

“You were a little unfair,” Mac said calmly. “He was a nice type. Been in the desert three years. Just come back from Sicily with dysentery. Wounded twice. Been attached to headquarters four days.”

“Oh, Christ,” Peter said. “Oh, Christ.”

The room was silent as Mac put on his shirt and combed his hair.

“Get his name?” Peter asked finally.

“Major Robert Lewis. Might be a good idea to say good morning.”

“How about the lieutenants?”

Mac took out his notebook. “Maclntyre and Clark,” he read. “They await your pleasure.”

Peter sat up and swung his legs over the side of the bed. The room faded and glittered for a moment, and he had to hold on to the bed when he stood up.

“Some day, soon,” he said, “I have to stop drinking.”

“A little whisky,” Mac said kindly, “is good for the soul. Anything I can do for you?”

“No, thanks.”

Mac stood at the door.

“Mac …”

“Yes, Captain …?” Tiny, astringent, helpful mockery in the title.

“Mac, this is the first time anything like this ever happened to me.”

“I know,” Mac said softly. He went quietly out of the room.

Peter walked slowly over to the wash basin, looked at himself in the mirror. The familiar long, thin face, the uneven dotted crenelation of his wound across his forehead, the strange dark mark in the eye that had been blind for three weeks, all seeming to tremble slightly now in the bitter sunlight, as it had trembled for two months.

He shaved carefully and went to take a shower. He came back, feeling better, and put on fresh clothes. He switched his tabs with the three pips to his clean shirt, looking absently and automatically to see if there was any lipstick on them. Three and a half years ago, at Arras, there had been lipstick one morning, and he had walked around all day long, ignorant, wondering why smiles hid on sergeants’ lips.