Peter Matthiessen - Shadow Country

“ Grande Meestaire, that means ‘Big Mister,’ case you don’t speak French,” I told my Mary. As a Catholic, Mary purely hated all that heathen talk about sun and silver riffles. Even a God who moved His bowels was better than one who jumped out at a body from all over the darn place, couldn’t be trusted to stay up there in Heaven where He belonged. To keep the peace, I’d shake my head over Chevelier’s terrible French ways, but deep in my bones, I felt God’s truth in what he said about sun and silver riffles, yes, and bird shit, too.

After Will Raymond was wiped out at the Bend, his widow sold his quitclaim to a stranger, and that stranger stayed here in the rivers close to twenty years. I got friendly with this man and took some pains to keep it that way, because E. J. Watson was our closest neighbor, never much more than a rifle shot away. Good neighbor, too, but I warned my boys to keep their distance even so. In all them times we was up and down his river, we never tied up to his dock, not even once. We only seen Ed Watson when he come to see us, and we never knew when that was going to be.

Possum Key was well inland where miskeeters plagued the younger children, and their mother couldn’t hardly fight ’em off; doin her chores, she had to lug a smudge pot. Some of them gray summers in the Islands when the rain don’t never quit and the miskeeters neither, never mind the young’uns all bit up and cryin, and that heavy air wet as a blanket and thick enough to stifle a dang frog-them long empty days of mud and hunger and unholy heat made a man half wonder if Judgment Day weren’t just another name for a man’s life. So pretty quick I moved my gang to Trout Key off the river mouth where Gulf winds blew them skeeters back into the bushes: that place was named after the sea trout on the eelgrass banks off its north shore. But along about then, someone found out that Richard Harden had a common-law wife and some grown children up around Arcadia, so they called me not only a dang half-breed but a dang Mormon, too. After that, our home got known as Mormon Key, which is on the charts today.

Way back in the 1880 census, them Chok Bay folks put me down as a mulatta not because my skin was dark but because I had took a white man’s daughter to my bed. Course Mary Weeks was darker than her husband and still is, but she was daughter to the pioneer John Weeks who passed for white, so nobody paid her color no attention. When we scrap, my wife don’t never fail to tell me how she rues the day that a half-breed went and stole a white girl’s heart.

Henry Short was here one evening and winced when he heard her say that; I seen the muscle twitch along his jaw. Henry would come visiting Bill House when Bill worked for Chevelier, and later years he would stop over at Mormon Key. Fine strong young feller, color of light wood, looked more like a Indin than I did. Lighter shade than any of us Hardens except Earl, Annie, and John Owen, and his features weren’t so heavy as what Earl’s were. All the same, Bay people called him Nigger Henry, Nigger Short.

My oldest, Earl, he hated it that Henry ate with us, said if Hardens had a nigger at their table, folks was bound to say that we was niggers, too. And Webster who was pretty dark would look at Earl until Earl looked away. “I reckon I can eat with Henry,” Webster would say, “if Henry can eat with me.” Which don’t mean Earl was wrong about what folks would say. He weren’t.

Course truth don’t count for much after all these years cause folks hangs on to what it suits ’em to believe and won’t let go of it. So them Bay people can call us mulattas if they want but we are Indin. What color they see comes down from times when runaway slaves and Indins was on the run together all across north Florida, but we weren’t nothin but Indins in Mama’s heart even after she joined up with the Catholic mission. My wife, Mary Weeks, her mother was full-blood Seminole, supposed to been a granddaughter of Chief Osceola, so if this Harden bunch ain’t Indin, they ain’t no Indins left in the U.S.A. But white folks are welcome at my table, and nigras or breeds passin through is welcome, too. In Jim Crow days, these lost rivers in south Florida might been the one place a man could get away with that, which don’t mean them rednecks on Chok Bay aimed to forgive it.

According to Chevelier’s way of thinking, there ought to be a law where any man who got his offsprings on a woman of his own color would be gelded. That way ol’ Homo might stop his plain damn stupidhood about this skin business and breed his way back to the mud color of Early Man. Said us Hardens was off to a fine start, we come in almost every human shade, all we was missin was a Chinaman.

Crackers don’t know nothin about Indins and most Indins you come across don’t know much neither. Back in the First Seminole War when runaway slaves fought side by side with Creeks, them black men lived as Indins, took Indin wives, and their offsprings call theirselves Indins today. Some of them Muskogee got a big swipe of the tarbrush but you’d never know that from the way they act toward colored people.

Our Glades Indins, who are Mikasuki, still know something about Indin way. In the old days, if a Mikasuki woman trafficked with a black man or a white one, her people might take and kill ’em both, leave the child to die out in the Cypress. Made ’em feel better, I suppose, but it won’t make a spit of difference in the long run. People move around these days, get all mixed up. Like Old Man Jean Chevelier says, it don’t matter what our color is, we’re all going back to bein brown boys before this thing is finished.

If you live Indin way, then you are Indin. Skin color don’t matter. It’s how you respect our mother earth, not where you come from. I go along with Catholic somewhat, and read my Bible, cause I was raised up in a mission, Oklahoma Territory. But in my heart I am stone Indin, which is why I drifted south to Lost Man’s River, as far from mean-mouthed cracker whites as I could get. This Lost Man’s coast is Harden territory. We mind our own business and take orders from nobody.

Here’s what Houses told over the years about their nigger. I learned it mostly from overhearin by mistake whether I wanted to or not.

My natural-born mama was a white man’s daughter, born not far from the Georgia farm of this House family. She was still a young girl when she got what they called dishonored by a buffalo soldier on his way home from the Indian Wars out West. When she told him he’d got her in a family way, he marched straight to her daddy, declared he loved her, aimed to marry. From the pale look of him, her daddy thought he must be white; the only trouble was that he denied it. Nosir, I’m a buffalo soldier from the Injun Wars and proud about it!

This was still Reconstruction times so by law a buffalo soldier was a free American. Without no experience of bein a slave, this light mulatter boy was one of them smart nigras they called “the New Negro.” Never knew his place, they said, so he was bound to turn into a beast and go nighthuntin for white women to ravage, same way white men went tom-cattin around after the darkie girls. But according to Mr. D. D. House, this soldier loved his white girl truly and she loved him, too. True love in such a situation was a damn crime if there ever was one, and knowin a dirty troublemaker when they seen one, they naturally took him out and lynched him. Mr. House could not recall his name except it was Jacob and the last name wasn’t Short.

Hearin all this as a boy, I crept away and wept, just crawled off like a dog and got dog sick. But I kept my mouth shut and I done that ever since.