William Gaddis - The Recognitions

— That's quite complicated, the series of bandages. And leave the brain in, they didn't take the brain out until very late. And the heart, don't forget the heart, leave the heart in.

— What about the bandages, do you know them?

Stephan said nothing, but nodded vaguely.

— And the paint, what kind of paint do you paint it up with.

— I don't know. Red ochre I suppose, he answered wearily, as though the recitation had exhausted him. He turned to his empty glass.

— All right, all right for now, Mr. Yak said in a sudden hurry. — But later you and me, we can work it out. You and me. . He stopped speaking. The burning green eyes were fixed on him.

— You and me. . what?

— Never mind, never mind now, Stephan. We'll work it out, you and. .

— Good God. . will you. . aren't you going?

— Yes, but later…

— Wait.

— What's the matter?

— Here, do me a favor will you? Get one of those. . get me a fresh clean one-peseta note if he has one, will you?

— You haven't got any money? You want some money?

— Yes, damn it, I have some money. I just want a look at a fresh one-peseta note, I want to look at the picture on it.

— Listen, I'll lend you. .

— Damn it, never mind. Never mind. Go away.

Mr. Yak examined the dirty wad from his own pocket, then called the bartender and explained what his friend wanted, — por e) dibujo sabe?. . quiere ver eJ dibujo.

The bartender's expression did not change. He found the freshest one-peseta note he had, and put it before the man at the bar, watched the one with the blown rose pat his arm, heard him say, — Goodbye Stephan, I'll be back, I won't be long, be careful. . and when that one had clattered out the door, pressing his mustache with one finger, smoothing the shock of black hair with the other hand, the bartender managed to look a little relieved, not having understood the parting threat. He crossed his arms and sighed, as though a party of twenty had just gone out the door, leaving one numb member behind, standing now, gazing, not at the bad engraving of the Dama de Elche, but returning the vacant stare of the sardines.

In that quiet village, stacked three thousand feet above the sea against the southwestern slopes of the Sierra de Guadarrama, the province of Madrid, and the kingdom of New Castile laid out barren at its feet, there are thirty-seven bars, where, as in most of that country, the visitor is free to enjoy that privilege which distinguishes him from the natives to such advantage, and get morbidly, or helplessly, riotously, or roaring, drunk. No one minds. He is looked upon as a curiosity, one who has, perhaps, worked out an ingeniously obvious solution to unnecessary problems, and is mortgaging a present which is untenable to secure a future which does not exist. All but three (and they are known but to the learned hand), before that sunny day was out, became familiar with the draggled man whose greeting, and entire store of conversation, lay in the word Manzanilla; with the tune La Tani on the local barrel organ, which at first he trailed from one to another, and then, finding a tattered duro waiting at each stop, it trailed him; and finally, with the vociferous shock-haired figure whose boutonnière, by the time he found his comrade in Mis Niños, was no more than a twist of wire flying a shred of spotted pink paper, and his mustache awry as though stuck on in a hurry, for he adjusted it before each threshold he crossed. He also sported, by now, a cord of yellow and purple intertwined, knotted under the plexiglas collar where his tie had been, a manifest, as he hastened to explain to his glazed friend after his first recriminatory greetings, of a pledge made to Saint Anthony in return for the Saint's assistance in this impending project.

— No. No. Good God.

— Where have you been? I've looked all over the town for you, all afternoon. You said you were going to wait for me back. .

— I thought you'd wrapped yourself up… in a mummy.

— What?

— No.

— Listen. . what's the matter, you hiding from somebody?

— Yes.

— Who? Where? Where are they? Mr. Yak looked wildly round. — Hmmn? Come on. Stephan? Stephan, come on. Hmmn? At the door, La Tani played in thunderous broken chords. Mr. Yak finally brought his eyes round to find the two faintly green ones fixed on him. — All right. You all right? There was a withering crash as La Tani finished, something dodged between them, plucked a green duro from the hand hanging off the bar, got out, — Dios se lo pague señor… in one word, and was gone.

— Listen now, it's almost dark, and we…

There was a shimmering crash at the door: it was the opening chord of La Tani.

— Listen. . Jesus! Mr. Yak brought his fist down, got to the door in two steps, and started to shout above the music, which continued, skipping notes it had lost during the day, but parading what remained with frenzied exultation. Mr. Yak finally managed to halt the spinning handle, and returned a minute later looking even more done in, after an argument which had become as deranged as the music it had sent packing.

— Una y ima. . tres. What do you want now?

— Listen, it's almost dark by now, did you know that? What are you doing here, anyway?

— I tried to leave. No trains.

— No, I mean in this dump. Mr. Yak looked around. It was a modest place, to be sure. There were barrels, bottles, and dirty glasses recklessly arranged behind the bartender, who put a dish of olives before them, and awaited Mr. Yak's order. When he realized that someone was eavesdropping, Mr. Yak spun round with, — Nothing! Nothing!. . niente! Nada!. . He was quite agitated, and returned to his comrade, propped before him. — I ought to just leave you here like you are.

— That's the spirit.

— Now listen, said Mr. Yak, taking a step closer, and he put a hand on the reposing arm on the bar. A crafty look came to his face as the sharp eyes narrowed over the expression which was almost a smile before him. — How would you like to make sure? he asked in his low confidential tone.

— Sure?. .

— Sure listen. . how would you like to go up with me, up the hill, see?. . And look in and make sure that. . that that's your mother's. . resting place. Some recrudescence mounted to the face before him: the smile fell away, at any rate, leaving evidence of sharp consciousness scattered in fragments of complete confusion, which the muscles of the face seemed to try to draw together into some single question.

— Listen, see?… I have to go up there anyway, on business. You can come up with me. 1 hen you and me can. .

— Damn it just. . stop saying that. That you and me. Will you? Damn it. What do they want me for? What do you want me for? Damn it, what do they all want me for?! he burst out.

— Listen. .

— Damn it. Damn them. And you. . you. .

— Come on out, we'll get some fresh air outside.

— They all… they all… want me, they want. . damn it! What do they want? he cried.

— Come on. Come on. Mr. Yak put an arm round his shoulders, and led him toward the door. The bartender called, but not loudly, — Señor. . se olvida. . He held up a fresh one-peseta note, and Mr, Yak waved it back in a munificent gesture with his free hand.

Clusters of lights stood out on the mountain slopes like the lights of ports driven uphill by the sea, for it was yet light enough that the barren plateau stretched away levelly blue under the haze. They made their way up behind the town, and as they climbed the stone streets shocks of consciousness, and consequent revulsion, ran through the figure Mr. Yak supported, and pulled away from him, to come back the more heavily. Meanwhile, Mr. Yak talked. He explained the purple and yellow cord hanging from his shiny collar, and the debt incumbent upon Saint Anthony. He said he had made full confession, but in Rumanian, so the old párroco, who had not understood a word of it, had given him a light penance, — not like Rome, at Saint Peter's they can confess you in half a dozen languages, they got you going and coming. He said he had turned in three per cent of his money to the church, — to be devoted to pious uses, like it says, see? And he said the párroco was real old, — it won't take much to bring him around where we want him, I've got some ideas right now, see?. . because I already gave him an idea I've got an in on the sacred mysteries, see? But there's this one guy I got to watch, we got to watch, I met him the last minute there. . and as they trudged toward the rock-studded road up behind the town, Mr. Yak went on to describe Señor Hermoso Hermoso, who — had this real holy attitude about everything, see? Because they're getting this patron saint and he acts like he arranged everything, and he's not even a priest or anything, he runs a drugstore sort of, and that's one reason we got to watch out for him, see? And he speaks English, so he told me all about this patron saint they're getting. When they took her out of the graveyard here to put her somewhere else when she was beatified they thought she looks kind of big for an eleven-year-old girl, but the way the body was preserved after forty years almost, so that made them sure it's a saint. But that long, even no matter how well it's preserved they probably make a new head out of wax. Anyway that's not so long, you don't eat anything but beans all your life like these people around here they haven't got enough money to eat anything but beans all their life, then you don't decay so fast. Mr. Yak paused, but took up again almost immediately as though harried by the silence of his companion.