Joseph McElroy - Women and Men

Where you coming from? A metal plate ahead where people stood Indian file, butt to gut (or are they being held up?) waiting to be reformed into frequency and at once transited elsewhere — where when you wake up there’s one of you. Two become one: did the Hermit-Meteorologist have an equation for this little monster? Two times almost collide! Is that a new one? And again, unreportable! The miss slides one between the other. New front-like shapes in the coast-cum-upper-void weather diagrams of an elder maverick fired for speculating about new weather as well as reading his mail on camera on an off-the-Jersey-coast non-commercial pirate TV station. Meanwhile, you saw Locus T like never before. Why’s it recede, then? In this void, to call up the future is to recall it. (Like division of automobiles ordered to have their mildly poisonous air-conditioners reconditioned?)

But no. Say what is so true that it recedes. Grasp it; it recedes. Grasp what? That that scene at Locus T was not future; it was a now, only one, mind you: the gathered point with one person in position right behind another person. They two are about to go. Isn’t it sad? But didn’t we toy with this for decades? Here it is, and not an experiment where hazard yield waits unknown.

The place is a station not a lab, though an all-white operator runs the trans-frequency send-off as if the controlled element were research, and after the send-off of each two the inspection of the transparent elevator-car-like bubble where they stood and its Locus alloy-plate might seem like tracing the still unknown. But unknown traces you, you can be either a jerk or a monster, your last choice, you have a moment to decide. The weight of your very own body is falling all the time. It’s your neck, look about you.

Bubble indeed! A million templates of electro-magnetism jointed continuously to make an ovaline so clear that with the help of a base plate made of a unique mountain alloy mined in its natural state, it throngs two waiting bodies with non-visible radiance, it brings out the cells in all their glaring boundaries like graphed skin.

Till the instant when the million templates at what used to be the touch of a button collapse into one idea.

No experiment here, for this was no imaginary future; it was present. At least for you, who have not much in the way of imagination (you tell the girl beside you). But its vividness got so overdrawn on its own bearable present that you couldn’t stand what was happening to others, two by two and you were about to speak when you were cast out of that future (you won’t tell her any of this— yet, anyway) like a shadow though were you ever sufficiently dangerous and wasn’t your exit then also because you made up again an earlier time, well 1973? Where now you are for a while. While now those future scenes at Locus T are vivid — they live — because they’ve been seen before — for it’s, from Florida 1973, a future you’ve lived in, but as well because the scene at Locus T aligns itself with the arms and legs of that memory of two becoming one elsewhere in time — at a time when two becoming one did not mean this that is before one now in what can already be remembered as having once been foreseen as future. Seen, though, now with awful life because that memory helps the rememberer see that the T of Locus T isn’t just transfer — the dissolving of a person or persons here in order to be reconstituted elsewhere in order not to have to slog from here to there through spaces as a running displacement of volume — but T means another change. It is a clean economy so clean who would notice it? So awful, yes, that if one can find the right past to call up, why then this clear economy transpiring at Locus T makes one’s notice recede (T for transfer, T for transform, t for future). You’re not a dreamer; you’re at best a trace.

When you told her you lacked imagination, she said she thought you were instead a recycled man. But then she said to forget she’d said it.

Two became one. This gets unbearable. You’re hard-headed, plodding; real as need be, but you’re invaded lately. Two become one. It might be three, it might be more. Four become one if you make a good enough plate to stand on. Two-become-one seems, here in the future-become-present, to mean people made congruent to fit an aim that’s beyond them yet with which they are in tune and which if viewed wrongly and with alarm recedes, as this flawed witness unable to bear what he has seen would be bent simply (as if he’d had an attack of superfluous gravitation like a head cold) off toward Locus S, Locus G, or N, or P; Locus L.

The spoken L lets off L1, L2, L3, L4, L5, from marked memory; and you who kept subjects and faces target-distinct from one another, so as to never seem to know what you figured you did not, can’t tell how you know (but you do) that those Ls with the numerals aren’t lunar and aren’t locus, yet how you knew locus with all these letters escapes you (but into the friendly void). No. L1, L2, L3, L4, L5 are points in Earth-Moon space, quite comfortable space, yes, that’s it — libration points. What is libration? Libration points — that’s all you know and plenty more than a man like you needs to know, which is in turn a reassuring conclusion that, as soon as you divest yourself of it, feeds back in its recession some new stuff coming at you obstacle-like, the fact that at these libration points you can stay put because the pull of Earth and Moon balance out with another force you were not maybe to know. And around these libration points are gravity valleys; for every school kid knows that gravitation makes valleys in space as well as mountains, vales as well as hills — and wells, too, which is not to say Earth’s the bottom of the bucket, just the bottom of a bucket, or of the well of somewhat made-up gravitation like the Moon’s, but far greater: you forgot, you forget, for you’ve really been there — whereas this girl at your elbow (your bicep) in this infra-redneck roadhouse in Cocoa near the Space Center is sure to know, though she has not come from the future (though in turn will have been told by someone at school and/or college that she is the future): but as for you you don’t feel like the future, you feel like your future’s angling past, but this isn’t what you know to be the truth, that some future to come is what you’ve come from, and you’re not persuading yourself of this, you know it’s true and you don’t want to know.

Can’t speak of it. You have to give a simple order.

Through this present gap which is an opportunity. (Team’s fidgeting, squad’s waiting, squad’s right.)

If worse goes to worse you can make a package without knowing all that’s inside it.

Which represents a further economy. Hey, while we’ve got us here, say we make two or more places one, so we know where we are, even if in theory we sacrifice a few powers of people, there’s a limit to S.R. (standing room) when you feel you owe it to them to bring them out of frequency back into body. You saw what was happening, that the twosomes out of earshot on the metal plate waiting to be emigrated to libration-point space settlements necessitating unusual economies had not been told just how light they would travel, and you knew the (so to speak) theoretical "joke" was on them though in the interest of survival, and they really did know, somewhere in those beings of themselves that had invited mountains to come to them bearing natural alloys that made them invisible to people living in their vicinity.

Yet the basic economy was borne by those who left as two and arrived as one. So what were you to do? Warn others it could happen to them?

Give the order, give it through the vacant, noisy space between two arms.