Nadifa Mohamed - Black Mamba Boy

Jama and Jibreel competed over who had walked the farthest, starved the longest, felt the most hopeless; they were athletes in the hard-luck Olympics.

“Look here, in that prison cell in Egypt, there were men who were bleeding from every hole in their body and we had to sit in that blood day and night,” Jama boasted.

Jibreel scoffed, “Paradise! Do you know how many times I have been attacked by leopards? I have their teeth marks all over my back. Lions have stalked me, white farmers have shot at me. Man! You wouldn’t believe the trouble I’ve seen, you have spent most of your time in an Eritrean girl’s arms.”

They laughed over the things they could speak about, the rest was left to rust in the locked chambers of their hearts.

Jibreel intended to make London his home. He had grown used to the fast life that sailors lived, and could not imagine returning to chaste Somaliland with his new bad habits.

“Everywhere I go I meet Somalis, always from the north, standing at a crossroads, looking up to the sky for direction, the poor souls never know where they’re going. They all say the same thing, there is nothing in our country, I’ll go back when I can afford some camels. I think that there are more Somalis at the bottom of the sea or lost in the desert than there are left in our land.”

Jama thought about what Jibreel said. “It’s because we are nomads, land is the same to us everywhere we go, we only care if there is water and food to be found. When I was farming in Gerset I felt this patch of land is mine, this tukul is mine, I planted this tree so I want to see it grow, now I think wherever my family is, that is where I belong.”

“You’re Cain and I’m Abel. Give me open skies, wide horizons, and new women. Deep down I will always think that the only thing that comes to a man who stays still is death.”

Jama could also not stay still; he wanted to pick Bethlehem up and swing her around, to pepper his quiet baby’s face with kisses and make him laugh. With the twenty-four pounds from the Canadian ship he would take Bethlehem wherever she wanted to go, share the wings that fate had given him. Jama intended to buy her jewelry in Keren, take her on the hajj to Mecca, take her to the cinema in Alexandria, make up for every day that he had left her alone.

“Is this address nearby?” asked Jama, pulling out the scrap of paper Sidney had given him.

“Yes, I think so.”

They left the riverside bench and walked up the high street. Jibreel asked a bus conductor for directions and he pointed out a side street. Jama pressed the bell and then stood well back; Sidney appeared through the green leaded glass, a huge bearded merman.

“Aye-aye, comrade,” Sidney boomed.

Jama held out his hand and Sidney grabbed it, nearly pulling Jama’s arm out of its socket.

Jama pointed to his companion. “This Jibreel.”

“Come on in, lads, I won’t bite.”

Sidney lived in a flat shared with other navvies. Newspapers, heavy boots, and unopened envelopes lay along the dark hallway. He ushered them into his room.

It was as sparse and tidy as a hermit’s cave, books were neatly stacked along the baseboard, cold air hissed through the windows, and only the sickle-and-hammer flag covered his thin mattress.

“What can I do for you, mate? You got into trouble already? Wanna a cup o’ splosh?” Sidney held up his mug demonstratively.

Jama shook his head, pointed at his biceps. “Tattoo?”

“What a persistent little sod! I didn’t realize you were so envious of mine. All right, let’s go, just don’t go telling your mum that I took you.”

The sailors took the number 14 bus to Piccadilly Circus, past the boys waiting under the electric signs for their girlfriends and into the dirty red streets of Soho. Jibreel whispered warnings into Jama’s ear, “The needles are dirty, only Ferengis do it, you’ll change your mind,” but Jama didn’t listen, it was the only way to take home everything he had seen and done.

“I’ve got another lamb for the slaughter,” Sidney called to the tattooist; he was another burly merman, his arm a picture house of fancy women and animals.

“Tell him I want a black mamba,” Jama ordered Jibreel.

The pain was excruciating, fire lapped along his veins and bit at his bones, but with relief Jama watched the bad blood welling out of him, the blood that had pumped fear and grief and pain around his body for so long. From the fire emerged a beautiful black snake. Jama, the black mamba boy, had become a man of the world, his totem etched into his skin as a mark of where he had been and what he had survived.

“Sterling job,” said Sidney admiringly.

Jama traced his fingers along the red ridge of ink, the snake pulsated under his fingertips, as if it had crawled out of the earth, through his mother’s belly button, and into his mouth, to watch the world from his arm.

Jibreel frowned. “Your wife will hate it.”

“No, I’ll explain to her what it means.”

“Come, let’s go, we have to get up early for the ship tomorrow,” said Jibreel, shaking his head.

The steerage-class ticket to Aden dampened in Jama’s clammy hand. “I should buy them something from here,” he panicked, as the barrowmen of East India Docks pushed past him. He blew white smoke over his cold hands and nervously stamped his feet on the icy crystal ground.

“Leave it, I’m sure they’ll be happy with your pocketful of dirt, but… here, take this.” Jibreel pushed five pounds into Jama’s jacket pocket. “Take it,” ordered Jibreel, “I should have known that day I saw you, careering around Omhajer with your big knees, crying out for Eidegalles, that there wasn’t any distance you wouldn’t travel for your family, but times are changing now. You might be able to bring your family back here; I have seen quite a few of our women pushing those baby carts along these streets.”

They embraced before Jama climbed aboard the P&O ship, his father’s battered suitcase somehow still holding together, even with the many new dreams and fears squeezed in between his clothes. Jibreel raised his hat to him and walked along the frozen dock with long, elegant strides, his black overcoat merging into the dark dawn light. The ship pulled away, sliding along the oily serpent back of the Thames, with Jama leaning over the rail, taking long full draughts of London before it disappeared. The great city was painted in charcoal and slate watercolors, with cooing pigeons nestling in her blackened arches and spires. The world beckoned to Jama and he wanted Bethlehem to see it all with him. They would pack up their bags and move like nomads over Africa, over Europe, discovering new worlds, renaming them Jamastan and Bethlehemia if they wanted. Rich English youths were gathered around a gramophone on deck, “Tell ol’ pharaoh to let my people go,” growled Louis Armstrong. Jama let his legs move to the swinging jazz, let his hips whine a little, his shoulders shimmy, anything to free the music trapped within his soul.

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Looking above him, the stars were hot diamonds scattered over the black earth of the universe. Jama knew that his loved ones were with him. His mother, his father, his sister, Shidane and maybe Abdi were roaming among the stars, arguing, laughing, and watching. He would join them eventually but not until he had devoured all the seeds that the pomegranate world offered. He wanted to be a flesh-and-blood father to his son, a flesh-and-blood husband to Bethlehem, and not to observe the hustle and bustle of life but to be it. A smiling Somali man in a white T-shirt was the sweetheart of the stars, the world was a beating heart around him, all fear and pain momentarily suffocated in its folds. “Hoi hoi,” he called to Bethlehem’s star. He would come home to her a different man, and he knew that she would be changed too. She would be like his mother now, flinty, brave, iron-eyed, with a child growing out of her back. He was ready for that, he was ready for anything.