Craig Davidson - Cataract City

I can only imagine it was a scary place to have gone. It asked everything of you and could break you to pieces so easily. I guess Dolly figured the juice wasn’t worth the squeeze.

Maybe it’s the same with Owe. In all the years since his knee was shattered, I don’t think he’s picked up a basketball more than a few times. He didn’t even teach kids at the summer skills camps, despite the frequent invitations.

I only remember seeing him on the court again once, a few months after he’d returned from Mexico. I was driving home after a late shift at the Bisk. It was just past midnight, and as I skirted Lions Club Park I saw a solitary figure shooting hoops. His gait was a bit wonky — there was a hitch in his giddy-up, as they say around here — but that form was unmistakable. The ball travelled through the sparkling midnight mist trapped under a lone spotlight, effortlessly beautiful.

Swish .

I idled in darkness under the trees, watching. Sweat gleamed on Owe’s brow. His shot dropped through that net as if guided by pure mathematics or pure grace: the ball mapping God’s own perfect angle.

In that light, in that moment, Owe looked like a kid again. And I wished we could be kids again, just for a while. Revoke for just one day our breaking bodies, our tortured minds. I would have given anything to spend one more day as we once had, even if it was one of those piss-away afternoons reading comic books in Owe’s basement while the rain clicked in the downspout like marbles.

Owe had tucked the ball under his arm. Regret was carved into every crease of his face. I figure if I’d looked in the rear-view mirror I’d have seen it in mine, too.

He left the court. I let him go.

It was night again when I left my childhood bedroom. I slipped silently down the hall, avoiding the spots where the floor creaked, knowing my mother was probably awake anyway, her ears pricked to the sound of my socks whispering on the scuffed linoleum.

I pulled on boots and a dark hoodie, let the door click softly shut behind me. The air was cool, clean, laden with the alkaline taste of the river. I walked under the street lamps, many of them popping and fritzing — there was something permanently wrong with the city’s power grid. Brownouts, blackouts, phantom outages or surges. People would come home after a weekend away and find their fridge motors burnt out, their eggs gone rotten. My father kept the old Kenmore — nickname: the Green Meanie — going on compressors salvaged from the city dump. Nobody bothered petitioning the city hall about it: to live in Cataract City was to accept many disappointments.

I trekked down the hill to a quiet stretch of blocks off Bender Street. There was a pay phone near the Sleepy Eyes Motor Inn. I let the Plexiglas door swing shut, hunted the name out of the book and plugged quarters in the box.

Five rings later, a sleep-syrupy voice answered. “Yuh?”

“Hey, man. It’s Dunk.”

The phone line scratched with static as Owe moved around. He was sitting up in bed, maybe. A glassy knock was followed by deep swallowing sounds.

“I wake you?”

Owe yawned. “You figure?”

“Sorry. How are you?”

“I’m okay. Yeah, not bad. You?”

“Keeping on. Listen, I want to talk to you. I … It’s nothing I’m expecting of you.”

Another swallow, then Owe said, “How are you liking it so far, man? Some guys have a harder time adjusting, is why I’m asking.”

“It’s nice, yeah. The openness.”

“I figured,” Owe said. “Easier to breathe?”

I nodded, even though I knew he couldn’t see me. “Like I was saying …”

“You looking across the river right now, Dunk? Somewhere in the direction of the Tuscarora Nation, maybe? Are you thinking about who I think you’re thinking about?”

After a while I said, “I’m not putting you on the hook. I just—”

“I know what you just , man. You got blood in your eye?”

I thought about the past eight years, the nights without sleep and the constant edgeless terror; I thought about Edwina because my mind was never far from Edwina; I thought about the fact that cosmic fairness is a mysterious commodity, not something you can buy or sell, but sometimes that great wheel really ought to come around — and if it didn’t, you had to wrench it around yourself. I was a son of Cataract City, and around here we understand payback. You pay what you owe, or you’re made to pay.

“I’ve got a spot of blood in there, Owe,” I said quietly. “Yeah, I do. And it’s been screwing with the way I see for a while now.”

The next afternoon I sat in a booth at the Double Diamond with Sam Bovine, a good-ol’ shitkicker jingle playing on the Rock-Ola. It felt so roomy with no bull-necked guard looming on my blindside.

Bovine looked not bad, considering. His nose was threaded with busted veins and he had a sun-starved look about him, but that was sort of how I’d always pictured him at this age. I laid out my idea. Bovine set to poking holes in it.

“ Three guys?”

“Or four,” I said. “ If I get the first couple down fast and don’t take too much on the chin doing it. Three’s probably the max. He’s got to have at least three scratch fighters he can call, right?”

Bovine reached across the table to push up the fringe of hair over my forehead. I flicked his hand away.

“What are you doing?”

“Looking for the lobotomy scars, Dunk! Jesus, Lemmy Drinkwater ? And why three? Why not, y’know, one ?”

“That’s small beer, Sam. This’ll be a trifecta — triple the risk, triple the reward.”

“But it’s not triple the risk, is it? Triple the risk is fighting three guys over three nights, months apart, with time to heal. You’re talking about fighting three guys in a row, bang-bang-bang , the same night.”

I sipped beer and savoured it. Held the glass up to the light to watch the cascading bubbles.

“I guess you’re right,” I said. “Math isn’t my strong suit.”

“You seem remarkably put together for a man who could end up crunching on his own teeth like breath mints.”

Bovine had been with me for every fight at Lem Drinkwater’s place before I went to prison; I used to cross the river for a match every few months. Bovine had been a mortuary attendant by then, same as his pops, so he’d been comfortable around busted flesh.

The door banged open, throwing a shaft of late-afternoon sunlight across the floor. Owe slid into the booth. Bovine’s hands curled into fists.

“Relax,” I said. “I asked him to come.”

Owe put up with Bovine’s stink-eye; given our shared history, maybe he figured Bovine was allowed to be just a little bit pissed.

“What was it you wanted to talk about?” he said to me.

I told him the plan.

“The fights still go down over there,” Owe confirmed. “Every month or so.”

I said, “You still keeping an eye on him?”

“Me personally? No. Drinkwater’s a smuggler, and that cottage industry is down with the dollar’s hovering at about par. The whispers are he’s gone soft, lost his touch. I don’t believe it — Drinkwater could find the angle in a circle. Why are you even mixing yourself up in this? It’s none of my business—”

“That’s right,” Bovine said. “It’s not.”

Ignoring Bovine, Owe turned to me. “I got the impression you were going straight.”

“The road, she is a-bendy.”

“Only if you insist on bending it.”

Something swam up in my chest, a swirl of angry colours.

“Are you standing against me, then?”