Amity Gaige - Schroder

When Meadow was small, she’d gone through a phase of being fascinated with the human body, especially the innards. She wanted to know where pee and poop came from, and how the heart worked, and all that. We went to the library to browse the collection of anatomical drawings, murmuring over the bladders and bones and organs and meat-red muscle. When we got to a drawing of the brain, she became solemn.

“That’s the brain,” I said.

“I already know about the brain,” she said.

“Oh yeah? Tell me about the brain. Tell me what the brain does.”

She was three and already slightly myopic. The following year, she’d be prescribed eyeglasses, but before that, she would crawl up really close to other people’s faces when she spoke to them, I guess so she could see them better, but we didn’t know that. We thought it was sweet. I remember her best like this, close-up and breathing in my face, her brown eyes wide set and serious.

“The brain,” she told me, “is the thing that makes ice.”

Requested items April brought back for us from Swanton, with receipt and exact change: carrot sticks, seedless green grapes, a stack of bologna, Progresso low-sodium Italian wedding soup, cheddar-flavored popcorn, a twelve-pack of Diet Pepsi, a sweatshirt, and a sand pail. My plan was to regroup. I would figure out an exit strategy. We would get out of this cleanly. We would have fun in the meantime. We would figure it out.

“So, John .” April poked the coals in the grill with a stick. “What brings you and Chrissy this way?”

I shrugged. “Just a trip. A field trip. A trip through fields. Collect some butterflies. Befriend some tall women.”

She snorted. “Tell some tall tales.”

I sighed, held it, and breathed out. “You? What are you doing out this way?”

“Passing through, just like you.”

She smiled at me through the smoke. I felt my face get hot. She talked like someone who knew me a lot better than she did. She made me jumpy, and at the same time, I was not in a position to refuse a friend. I glanced over at Meadow, who was wearing her new sweatshirt with the tags still on and filling up her new sand pail. The spoils from Swanton had won Meadow over. She’d also been allowed into April’s cabin, where she’d been spritzed with some heavy fragrance that I could still smell over the creosote. I hate to say it; it felt nice — seductively nice — to be three again. To have a female influence around.

“You’re lucky to me meet me, you know,” April said. “I’m actually pretty famous.”

I grinned and took a pull from my Diet Pepsi. “Bullshit.”

“Am too. You don’t recognize my name?”

“I don’t know your name.”

“April Almond.”

“Doesn’t ring a bell.”

She placed the top back on the grill. “April A.?”

“Stumped,” I said.

She leaned in. “Don’t you know the song, by the Minor Miracles? ‘Oh yeah / Spring again, cares are gone away-hay. Hey now / Like a flower / Here comes April A.’ ” She stepped back, gesturing at her chest with a spatula. “That’s me.”

“No shit.” The rest of the song came to me unbidden, a B-side hit I had memorized in my impressionable first years as an English speaker. “ ‘Ayyyy-pril Ayyyy,’ ” I sang. “ ‘Whose-a gonna be your lover next time…’ Wow. When was that? Nineteen eighty-three? Eighty-four?”

“American Top Forty for three weeks in 1981.”

She turned and settled into one of the plastic chairs we’d pulled up to the grill.

“So tell me the story,” I said. “How you got a song written about you.”

“I was nineteen,” she said. “It’s a long story.”

A quick calculation put her deep in her forties. In truth, she looked older. Her hair drizzled down her back in gelled curls. The hair color itself was blond in the majority, but was also shot through with streaks of red and brown, giving it a kind of camo effect. Her face was diamond shaped, two generous cheeks tapering down to an expressive chin, and a brow that lacked worry. She did indeed seem like a person who’d had a lot of fun over the years. A person who might have possibly inspired a rock song. Even the way she sat invited you to look at her, one slightly sunburned thigh thrown across the other, her foot twisting in its gladiator-style sandal. She had changed into denim shorts so brief that the white squares of the inner pockets hung below the ragged hem. Her short, busty torso was covered in a blousy tunic. She had good, youthful legs. It was her legs, I decided, that must have inspired the Minor Miracles. My eyes reluctantly wandered away from them. But she had already caught me watching.

“Let’s make us a drink,” she said, smiling.

She came back with two old jelly jars full of a glowing greenish yellowish liquid.

“Mountain Dew and vodka,” she said.

The way she said vokka was familiar to me. “You’re not really from Los Angeles, are you?”

“I didn’t say I was. I was born and raised in Plattsburgh.”

“No kidding. We just came through there. What’s the story in Plattsburgh? Why’s everybody living in barracks?”

“Those,” she said, raising her bright green drink, “are the remains of the Plattsburgh military base. The base got closed in the eighties and I guess they decided to keep the barracks. Just move right on in. Instant ghetto. How’s your drink?”

“It’s very — I’m very grateful for it.”

“Huh? Do you like it or not?”

“Yes.” I took an acid sip. “Do you have some extra, for my daughter? I mean, without the vodka. She loves Mountain Dew, for some reason. Her mother would die. She’s a health nut, her mother.”

“Sure.” April went into the hut and came back with another glass. She walked a couple of yards down the gravel path and gave a husky shout: “Hey, Chrissy !”

Naturally, Meadow did not respond. She was crouched over her bucket, her back to us. From where we sat, she looked like two knees and a spine.

“Sweetheart,” I called. “Want some Mountain Dew with your dinner?”

“Sure!” Meadow did not turn around. “I found a frog!”

“Great,” I said. “What kind?”

“Well, it’s huge . Huge and warty.”

“Is it a toad?” April asked.

Meadow looked sadly over her shoulder at April. “There is no scientific difference between a frog and a toad.”

“Well, good, because I always get them confused.”

“Come on and show him to us!”

“He’s kind of brown on the back but has a green mouth.”

“Sounds like a bullfrog.”

“I’m going to keep him,” Meadow shouted. “Just like I kept the mouse.”

Then the image blazed in the evening: the mouse that I’d caught beneath the kitchen sink in Pine Hills and none of us had the heart to kill. We’d bought it a plastic box and a wheel and a whole world of wood chips. And where I saw the mouse in the box I also saw you, Laura, reaching in, your sleeve rolled up, cupping the thing in one hand, speaking to it in tender tones.

Silence.

“Why so quiet, John? You seem lost in thought.”

I looked over at my companion. “I was thinking about your legs.”

“Ha! Sure you were.”

“You have very nice legs, April A.”

“Go on.”

“You know, I always wondered where you girls went.”

“What girls?”

“The subjects of love songs.”

“You’re joking, but actually, I tried getting a group of us together about ten years ago. Lola. Sharona. Roxanne. Roseanna. Don’t forget Layla .”