Bruce Wagner - I Met Someone

Helen Mirren visited as well. It was nice to return the favor, as Dusty and Allegra had had such wonderful times at Helen and Taylor’s house in New Orleans. (They’d never worked together and had a running joke about the fates being against it.) “Popper” was a hoot — she claimed to have zero maternal instincts, and said the thought of childbirth “disgusted” her — the mordant stories she told about her bitch mother always reminded Dusty of Reina. But she was so tender with Aurora when she came to Bruton, like the most perfect fairy godmother, putting Dusty in mind of that mushroom story Marilyn told about the “battalion of women who’d never had children,” and how it really was impossible for a woman to be childless.

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Everything was abuzz with plans for Aurora’s fortieth.

In her head, Dusty had been planning a “Renaissance Faire” extravaganza, replete with jousting knights, jugglers, falconers, and commedia dell’arte, but when she let Helen in on her brilliance, the dame replied (with acutely English sangfroid), “I’m afraid that will not do .” She suggested A Midsummer Night’s Dream motif, which felt instantly right, and Dusty set about making preparations.

She invited Jeremy, who was in London working on a film. He was traveling with his son and it would be the first time she met the boy. They’d kept in touch but seen each other only once since she left L.A. — in Rome a few years ago when she took her daughter there to see a specialist. Still, they managed to Skype every few weeks or so and Aurora thoroughly enjoyed raucous screen time with “Uncle Jar Jar,” who refreshingly remained his usual, uncensored self. Each time after they spoke, the household was forced to endure days of Aurora parroting every inappropriate thing that came out of his mouth — and even more sampled horrors from the hip-hop mixes he emailed, that she maddeningly rapped along to. Dusty discouraged him, with a wink, because she really did feel it important for Aurora to have that outlet. Someone who wasn’t so careful with her and acted more like a peer, who could be silly and disrespectful and let it all hang out.

But Dusty was still nervous about his coming.

With the care of a scientist, she’d created a hermetic world, and the experiment had been a resounding success; and so it would remain, as long as the pleasure dome was intact. Yet as the visit drew nearer, her life as a recluse and de facto “fugitive” struck hard. This citizen and former ambassador of the world, now living in Shangri-la under country house arrest, suddenly worried the intrusion of a key player from the past might introduce a virus that would be the death of the organism. Some of those concerns had to do with the fear that such a homecoming could blur the line she’d so firmly drawn (for Aurora) between mother and daughter/lover and wife, bringing with it certain associations that would sow confusion and trigger a host of anxieties whose abeyance had been hard-fought and half-won. The irksome daydream of their old friend (and donor) strolling the hallowed grounds of “Mind Your Manor” ( his name for the cottage; he called the village Et Tu, Bruton ) like Rochester to Dusty’s Jane, with the locked-away madwoman Aurora planning fire and mass murder, filled her with shame — and the sleaze of that old, familiar feeling too, the one so familiar when Reina was alive: the recognition of an ever-present low-frequency hum signaling something was amiss. That she was living a lie.

And she’d been doing so well! Swimmingly so, considering the hand she’d been dealt. There was more candor, honesty, and joy in her life than ever. Still, the nagging sensation descended like a flu.

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It was wonderful to see him again. He looked lean; he’d never been more present . Wyatt was almost two and a half, one of those towheads who look alarmingly like their dads. He’d brought the au pair along.

Aurora hugged him and wouldn’t let go. (Allegra’s new name had been easily explained when they ran into him that time on the Spanish Steps: the actress said that from the minute they arrived in Somerset, she’d insisted on being called Aurora, like the princess in Sleeping Beauty . To which Jeremy said, “Does that make you Maleficent?”) He was startled by her physical transformation. Her nose was pierced, a recent concession of Dusty’s that restored peace to the house after months of pleading and occasional outright horror movie screams that ended in safe-room quiet time. (So far, so good — Aurora took great pride and care, and it hadn’t got infected. Yet.) Her hair was dyed in streaks of magenta and silvery blue. Acne brazenly snowcapped her cheeks, ill-concealed by a clownish frosting of foundation and Clearasil. She was forty pounds heavier; Jeremy had of course noticed the gain when they Skyped, but in person it was jarring and too real. Everything was too real. She had on an “I’m a Belieber” T-shirt, and Dusty jokingly apologized. “I tried to get her to wear the Kanye you sent. What can I say?” When Aurora heard the reference, she sang-shouted, “How long you niggas ball? All day, nigga! How much time you spent at the mall? All day, nigga!”

Wyatt thought she was hilarious.

(The au pair didn’t know what to think.)

After dinner, Aurora begged to watch Frozen , which she’d only seen about seven thousand times. Halfway through, she wanted to play games, so they did for a while, some kind of gonzo variation of charades (the look on Wyatt’s face vacillating between utter fear and utter delight). Then she wanted to go to the karaoke club that her mother built on the far end of the paddock. (Whenever she called Dusty “Mama,” no explanations were needed; neurological damage conveniently covered all bases and regressions.) At first Dusty said no, because Jeremy and Wyatt were tired from their trip, but Jeremy said it was fine and off they went. Dusty sang a Taylor Swift and Jeremy the Sinatra freak did a more than serviceable “One for My Baby,” then Dusty said all righty that’s enough , time for bed, and Aurora started yelling and Jeremy told the au pair to take Wyatt back to the guesthouse and Dusty wouldn’t back down on bedtime so Aurora gave her a shove and that’s when Dusty got in her face , barking That is not okay! Not okay! Aurora backed down a little and started to cry. Jeremy knew to stay out of it, Dusty poor thing had full control of the situation, probably happened all the time Jesus! and Aurora calmed down totally when Dusty threatened, “Should I call Edwina? Do you want me to call Edwina?”—Edwina being the one charged with enforcing safe-room quiet time. Dusty sniffed Aurora’s mouth and said she smelled chocolate. She told her to open wide and the girl shamefacedly submitted while Dusty did some deep sniffing. She insisted Aurora tell her where the Kit Kats were hidden — turning to Jeremy to let him know it was a house rule that sweets were a no-no after four p.m., which was why Aurora was so hyper (plus excited of course to see him and Wyatt) — and Aurora cried some more, but in drib-drabs, and Dusty intercom’d one of the night nurses ( not Edwina) to come take her to bed. When the woman arrived, Dusty informed her of the Kit Kats caper and also to make sure Aurora took double the melatonin on top of her usual bedtime pharmacopoeia. She said Now say goodnight to Jeremy and Aurora sulkily hugged him again, and was embarrassed too, and wouldn’t look at him when he kissed her cheeks. In the quiet that descended after her leave-taking, Jeremy said, “Wow,” and Dusty said, “I know. I need a drink.”

They sat by the fire in the living room of the main house and caught up. She asked about his London film; he asked when she planned on working again. “I don’t really have anything on the slate. ” She said she’d actually been thinking about producing. He loved that and said they should be partners. They got excited about it for a little before he circled back to Aurora and said (with love), “I don’t know how you do it.” “Well, it has to be done!” Her smile came out brittle, not at all how she’d meant it to. Jeremy didn’t want her to get the wrong idea, i.e., that he thought it a thankless task, so he backpedaled, complimenting her on the new and nurturing life she’d built for them and how happy Allegra seemed. She turned the focus to Wyatt and asked what fatherhood was like. “Amazing. If I talk about it, I’ll just sound corny.” “Better corny than horny. You have changed.” (She was drunk.) She asked him to describe a typical day with the boy and he started with Wyatt clambering into bed in the morning, making him pancakes and bacon, bla, and how much fun it was to take the boy to Trader Joe’s or wherever because “he’s a total twink magnet.” Dusty laughed and he was glad because she didn’t seem to be doing enough of that. There was a moment, there were a few, really, during his stay, when she’d flirted with telling him the truth about her daughter-wife, just unloading , for the fuck of it. She wondered how that would make her feel — if there’d be any kind of relief. But an invisible hand took her by the scruff of the neck and told her not to, because Shangri-la, and Thornfield Hall, would burn.