me to come and play in their pub in the city. I’d
never played in pubs before that. Because of my
disability I could not be called up. I was too
old anyway. But I had to go into industry, everybody
had to do that. I had nothing to do at night
times only go down the shelter or hide out in the
suburbs. So I was quite pleased to have something
to do. Shortly afterwards America came into the
war, and they used to pour out of Liverpool Street
station straight into this pub right opposite.
Somehow it seemed that the way I played was just
their handwriting. The word got around the
aerodromes in East Anglia and the pub did a roaring
trade. They would come in there with their five
days’ leave and lots of lovely money in their
pockets and say ‘Sing us the songs the old man sang in
the last war.’ They used to have a good time, I
was better off than I had been for a long time.
Nothing comes from nothing, I was
taught. But what about plants? The space occupied
by the growth must have left a space behind?
A field of wheat must surely have sunk by the volume
of the growth? If not, why not? These questions
should be answered. House
mother up on the dais again. Surely she’s not going
to tell us all those jokes again?
Yes, she is.
Groan, not laugh.
Heard it before. Shan’t listen. The
places I can’t reach. They must be getting very
dirty. Can’t scratch them properly, either. They
might be festering. They get wet when I bath, but
not washed. I am not allowed to be as fastidious
as I was. Or rather I am unable — Laugh! On the
word Laugh! you will laugh as ordered. Ha Ha Ha!
I went too far after the
rift with Betty. I just walked out on a job the
day after, and walked and walked all over, not knowing
— Groan, groan! I didn’t
care whether I lived or died. As it happened, I
lived. I don’t know how, at first. We had met too
many well-to-do people on our tours, and the girl
became dissatisfied. I can understand that now. At
the time it seemed bound to happen and very painful.
I went hungry once or twice, but soon found how to
ask for things with a fair chance of — HA HA HA!
I also offered to do
little jobs to help people out in return for the
odd meal or place to sleep for the night, and I
usually managed — Now what’s Ivy done?
Poor old girl. Just reading
her book quietly.
Who
wants to see hers? I’ve seen plenty of them in my
time, enough to last me a lifetime, thank you very
much. As for that great hairy dog….
One day I thought to myself
I can do better than this, so I went into a shop
and bought myself a penny whistle. It was a brass
one because they told me a tin one was illegal.
And as the fingering was the same as on the little
fife I learnt to play at school, it was quite easy
for me to pick out a few tunes. So from then on I
used to go drifting about all over the country playing
my little whistle and picking up enough coppers
to keep me going. But there were times when it was
hard. People wouldn’t give money to a young chap
of thirty-three or four or five who looked so hale
and hearty. They thought I should get a job, not
go begging around the streets with a penny whistle.
Some of them told me so, too. One man went so far
as to knock me down in the gutter, saying he hadn’t
fought the war for beggars, or something like that.
So I showed him my disability, and then he — Oh,
filth, utter filth! Even in France in the first
War I never saw such filth. In front of everyone, too.
Filth. Though she looked as
though she enjoyed it.
Not me, no feels.
Listen to her!
No, doesn’t matter
Ivy Nichollsage 79 marital status widow sight 65 % hearing 55 % touch 65 % taste 80 % smell 70 % movement 75 % CQ count 10 pathology contractures; asthma; osteoporosis, mainly of limbs; inguinal hernia; bronchitis; osteo-arthritis; among others.
… we had then, good friends, who used to come and see us,
just drop in there and then, never mind what was happening,
once they nearly caught me and Ted on the job, oh, that was
comical! We had to shout to them Hang on! while
he got his trousers up, but I went out and talked to them
without my drawers on, I just didn’t put them on, and all
the while we were talking there was Ted sitting across from
me, knowing I had no drawers on, on tenterhooks as to whether
I should uncross my legs too boldly, but Len and Enid knew
what we’d been doing, I’m sure, though not that I’d left my
drawers off, and we all laughed and had a good time, oh, we
enjoyed ourselves in those days! The
cocktails we used to get through! Every week there’d
be a new recipe for a cocktail in my women’s book and we’d
try it, invite the friends round to try the new one, oh those
were good times, the friends made up for not being able to
have children, and soon I began to prefer them, all the
trouble that children can be, I saw, and at least the
friends didn’t have dirty nappies, though they were sick
in the bathroom sometimes, the friends, that was a mess to
clear up, wonder I’m not sick like that after food like
this, then she’d have another sort of mess to clear up
after me, then she’d have something to complain about, the
old bitch!
I’ve a good
mind to make complaints about her and this food she gives
us, to my friend on the Council, I still have friends –
all the treats of our Social Evening, indeed, just like
any night is what it’ll be, as usual, give me a good book
any time, I just want to read.
There she is
again! Hurrying us up, I’d leave some of this if I wasn’t
so hungry. Never mind, Ivy, Doctor’s coming
tomorrow, how I love him touching me! Let
me try to work out a way so he has to touch me a lot when
he comes.
Difficult.
I’ll think of something, come the morning.
Last scrapings, horrible plates, not like the good china I used to keep for best, not even like the everyday stuff, either.
There, finished.
I’m finished, clear up, must help Sarah to clear away and
then I — oooh, my arm, the creaking, it gets set one way
and is so painful to move any distance at all after that,
aaaah picking up these plates
She’s left more than usual.
All right, Sarah, don’t wet your
knickers!
As soon as I’ve cleared up I’ll get my book out and have
a good read, I do enjoy a good read, we are allowed books
here. If that Sarah will let me read, that is, chatter,
she does chatter, all emptiness, on and on. Not like my
old friends, all of them, dead now, as soon as we’ve cleared
I can get down to a — Now she’s dropped it! Now she’ll
be in trouble, I’m glad. That’s it, give it to
her, silly old thing thinks she can move, ha ha ha ha ha!
the idea!
That dog. She’s dotty over that dog.
Right, last things, clear
up, let’s get started on the washing up, three volunteers
are better than an army of pressed tongue, as they used to
say, off we go, how’s your father.
spoon, spoon,
fork fork spoon,
knife, fork,
knife here’s a sticky one, who’s been
doing what with this one? The joys of
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