Джеймс Кейн - The Moth

All that I did so fast I’d breathe and then not breathe, but pretty soon I knew I was done and started for the window. Then I saw the cash register. All that stuff about taking only food ran through my head, and even while it was running I dumped the sack on the floor and reached for my spike. I jammed it in a crack and bore down and something popped. I yanked open the drawer. It was empty. I began growling curses like a wild man. I picked up the sack again and started out and then my eye caught the cash drawer, under the counter, that hardly anybody would see unless they’d worked around some business place like a garage. I tried it and it was locked. I jammed the spike in and nothing gave. I reached under for keys. You don’t see them when the storekeeper makes change, but they’re there just the same, four or five or six finger taps that work on springs and have to be pressed in combination before the lock releases. On this drawer there were six, and that meant probably a three-key combination. I tried 1-2-3, 1-3-4, 1-4-5, and 1-5-6, and inside of me something kept yelling to get out and get out quick, but my fingers kept working the combos and my head kept ticking them off, so I wouldn’t waste time trying one twice. I started the two-series. The drawer pulled open and I saw steel. It was a metal box, and it was locked. I set it up on its edge, held the spike on the lock, and used a box opener that was under the counter as a hammer. There was a snap and the lid was off. Inside was money. I could see ones and fives and tens, but I didn’t stop to count and didn’t take the silver. I stuffed the bills into my pocket, picked up the sack, and stepped out the window. I closed it, then looked around. I didn’t see anything, slipped into the alley, and down to the cross street. On Van Buren, Buck was still there, waiting for his bus. I waved and he ran toward me. “God, Jack, I thought you’d never come.”

“Had to find stuff.”

“Gee, you’re loaded. We better split it, so we can make time.”

“Not here. Let’s hit for the river.”

“O.K. Come on.”

The river is one of those Western jobs, ten parts sand and rock and gravel to one part water, but it wasn’t too rough, and we figured we could follow it easy enough, and we wouldn’t meet anybody. We hit it in a half hour and began looking for Hosey. He was to light up a fire, so we’d have a torch to steer by. But we walked and walked and routed up about forty things that rustled and hissed and scrabbled, and still nothing but black ahead. “Jack.”

“Yes, Buck?”

“Did he say upriver?”

“Not once but twenty-eight times.”

“Does the bastard know upriver from down?”

“Well, feel the water! You can feel how it—”

“Yeah, Jack, I can and you can. But can he?”

I’d say we went two miles, feeling like twenty. And we saw a flicker of yellow, and then we could hear him: “Yay Jack, yay Buck!”

“... Well, why didn’t you pick Alaska?”

“It’s perfect. It’s a — jungle! Look over top of you!”

Overhead was a bridge that made shelter, where the railroad went over the river. That it was worth two miles of walking, by the dark of the moon, I couldn’t see, but I didn’t argue about it. He had cans, big ones, for boiling, and little ones, to eat out of, and plenty of wood. We fed up the fire, set water on to heat, and pretty soon put the chicken, soup, peas, and other stuff in, still in the cans. Then in one can I made coffee. When I put that instant stuff in, with sugar and cream, they began gulping it without even waiting for the other stuff. Then we opened the soup and drank a can apiece. Then we had the chicken, but one can was all we were able to get away with. Then we had peas, carrots, and corn, and canned peaches. Then I broke out what I hadn’t said anything to them about. That was the beer, that I had stashed in the running water so it would get cold. They took one look at those cans and began mumbling those cusswords that are little prayers of thanks in tough guys’ language. I cut into three, and we sat there with the foam sliding all over our mouths, and the cold beer sliding down our throats. Buck began to mumble how they both owed plenty to me. Hosey said they sure did. I said thanks, pals, thanks.

By then it was daylight, so when a train came along we slid out from under to have a look at her. She was a passenger train, westbound, all curtained in, but on the observation platform, smoking a cigar, in pajamas, dressing gown, and slippers, was a fat guy. We waved, and he stared, like he couldn’t believe his eyes: Then he leaned forward, held on to the brass rail, and spit at us. “... That dirty son of a bitch.”

“O.K., Buck, tell him some more.”

“God, boys, would I get like that? First they throw you out, then they spit in your goddam eye. That fat slob! No, not one of the three of us would get like that. At least we’d give a guy a break. At least if he waved at us we’d wave back. But that fat bastard couldn’t even give us a wave. Not even a kind look.”

We went back to the fire and began talking what we’d do if we had it good and three guys off the road came in and asked for a break. We said we’d feed them and bed them down till they were ready to talk and then line it up for them to get a job. In the middle of that Buck took off his coat, crawled inside his gunny sack, stuck the coat under his head and went to sleep. Then Hosey did. Then I did, or tried to. But all the time the beer and chicken and the rest of it were taking me down I kept thinking about the money and why I hadn’t said anything about it. It seemed to me I was as close to them as brothers. And yet I was mortally afraid to open my trap about it.

Around noon we built up more fire, heated some beans, made some coffee, filled ourselves with all we could hold, and then began to boil up. I boiled everything, even my suit. What to do with the money I didn’t know but I climbed the bank, stuck it in an angle of the abutment, put a stone over it, and came on back. We worked on ourselves, first in the cold water in the river, then in the hot that we kept boiling, until we were pretty clean. The soap came in as handy as anything, and we took turns with it, scrubbing and slopping and lathering with it, until it was just a sliver and then even that was gone. Around four maybe, our clothes were dry and we got dressed. But along toward sundown dogs began barking downriver, and if there’s one thing a real hobo hates worse than work it’s dogs. Hosey began to get nervous and it was easy to see if we were going to keep him we had to move. We talked about where we’d move to, and he was scared to death to go through Phoenix again on a train, as he said they’d “be laying for us, sure.” And yet we all wanted to beat West, instead of going back East, on account of the weather. Finally we decided to break up, each one to hitchhike separately by road, and meet again in Shorty Lee’s jungle in Yuma, that Hosey said was the best in the U. S., bar none. So that’s what we did. We had to break up, because three guys together would scare any private driver to death, and on the trucks, on account of a new no-rider clause in the insurance, there was no chance at all. There had been trouble, hijacking and stuff like that, so the companies put it in the policies that if riders were aboard, all bets were off. Kind of rugged for Mr. Thumb, but it gives you an idea how things were.

Me, though, I caught a through bus. The driver looked at me funny, but I knew I didn’t stink so I looked right back, and when I got out my roll that talked. It was a day coach, not very full, so there was plenty of room on the wide seat at the rear. I stretched out, got comfortable, and counted my money. There were two or three tens, some fives, and the rest ones, altogether around ninety dollars. I shoved it in my pocket again, then sat there, staring out at the road where it was rolling out behind, working on something that had been bothering me all day: Why had I hid that money? Why hadn’t I said something about it to Buck and Hosey? Why hadn’t I cut them in? Here they were, maybe not the buddies I would have picked some night when I was all dressed up in a dinner coat three years before, but some kind of buddies, and what was pretty important too, all the buddies I had. And yet, at my first stroke of luck, I had ratted on them one hundred per cent, like any real hobo. I began thinking about something else: Why had I passed up the silver? So nobody could hear it clink, seemed to be the answer. Yeah, but who? A cop, when I was toting that sack, if he ever got near enough to hear something clink, would already have nabbed me. Once more, it spelled Buck and Hosey. And at last I admitted to myself, what had been slewing around in the back of my head: I had kept quiet, I had even passed up the silver, because I was afraid of them. On food, as Hosey had said, there’d be nothing to tell. At most it would be thirty days in jail, or more likely ten, serve your time or vag out by sundown. But money was different. Buddies or no buddies, rat or no rat, I’d never put myself in their power by letting them in on it.