Irwin Shaw - Short Stories - Five Decades

“Did you tell them you were a Greek, too?” Novak asked.

“When one finally showed up who could speak English.”

“That must be funny,” Novak said reflectively. “Being a Greek, bombing Greece, not speaking the language … Can I tell my girl they had a radio and they radioed to Cairo …?”

“It’s the girl of a Technical Sergeant in Flushing, Long Island,” Whitejack chanted. “Why don’t you look facts in the face?”

“I prefer it this way,” Novak said with dignity.

“I guess you can tell about the radio,” Stais said. “It was pretty long ago. Three days later, the DC-3 came down through a break in the clouds. It’d been raining all the time and it just stopped for about thirty minutes at dusk and that plane came down throwin’ water fifteen feet in the air.… We cheered, but we couldn’t get up from where we were sitting, any of us, because we were too weak to stand.”

“I got to write that to my girl,” Novak said. “Too weak to stand.”

“Then it started to rain again and the field was hip-deep in mud and when we all got into the DC-3, we couldn’t get it started.” Stais spoke calmly and thoughtfully, as though he were alone, reciting to himself. “We were just bogged down in that Greek mud. Then the pilot got out—he was a captain—and he looked around, with the rain coming down and all those farmers just standing there, sympathizing with him, and nothing anyone could do and he just cursed for ten minutes. He was from San Francisco and he really knew how to curse. Then everybody started breaking branches off the trees in the woods around that pasture, even two of us who couldn’t stand one hour before, and we just covered that big DC-3 complete with branches and waited for the rain to stop. We just sat in the woods and prayed no German patrols would come out in weather like that. In those three days I learned five words of Greek.”

“What are they?” Novak asked.

“ Vouno ,” Stais said. “That means mountain. Vrohi: Rains. Theos: God. Avrion: Tomorrow. And Yassov: That means farewell.”

“ Yassov ,” Novak said. “Farewell.”

“Then the sun came out and the field started to steam and nobody said anything. We just sat there, watching the water dry off the grass, then the puddles started to go here and there, then the mud to cake a little. Then we got into the DC-3 and the Greeks pushed and hauled for a while and we broke loose and got out. And those farmers just standing below waving at us, as though they were seeing us off at Grand Central Station. Ten miles farther on we went right over a German camp. They fired at us a couple of times, but they didn’t come anywhere close. The best moment of my whole life was getting into that hospital bed in Cairo, Egypt. I just stood there and looked at it for a whole minute, looking at the sheets. Then I got in very slow.”

“Did you ever find out what happened to those Greeks?” Novak asked.

“No,” said Stais. “I guess they’re still there, waiting for us to come back some day.”

There was silence, broken only by the slow scratching of Novak’s pen. Stais thought of the thin, dark mountain faces of the men he had last seen, fading away, waving, standing in the scrub and short silver grass of the hill pasture near the Aegean Sea. They had been cheerful and anxious to please, and there was a look on the faces that made you feel they expected to die.

“How many missions were you on?” Novak asked.

“Twenty-one and a half,” Stais said. He smiled. “I count the last one as half.”

“How old are you?” Novak was obviously keeping the Technical Sergeant’s girl carefully posted on all points of interest.

“Nineteen.”

“You look older,” said Whitejack.

“Yes,” said Stais.

“A lot older.”

“Yes.”

“Did you shoot down any planes?” Novak peered at him shyly, his red face uncertain and embarrassed, like a little boy asking a doubtful question about girls. “Personally?”

“Two,” Stais said. “Personally.”

“What did you feel?”

“Why don’t you leave him alone?” Whitejack said. “He’s too tired to keep his eyes open, as it is.”

“I felt—relieved,” Stais said. He tried to think of what he’d really felt when the tracers went in and the Focke-Wolfe started to smoke like a crazy smudge pot and the German pilot fought wildly for half a second with the cowling and then didn’t fight wildly any more. There was no way of telling these men, no way of remembering, in words, himself. “You’ll find out,” he said. “Soon enough. The sky’s full of Germans.”

“Japs,” Whitejack said. “We’re going to India.”

“The sky’s full of Japs.”

There was silence once more, with the echo of the word “Japs” rustling thinly in the long, quiet room, over the empty rows of cots. Stais felt the old waving dizziness starting behind his eyes that the doctor in Cairo had said came from shock or starvation or exposure or all of these things, and lay back, still keeping his eyes open, as it became worse and waved more violently when he closed his eyes.

“One more question,” Novak said. “Are—are guys afraid?”

“You’ll be afraid,” Stais said.

“Do you want to send that back to your girl in Flushing?” Whitejack asked sardonically.

“No,” said Novak quietly. “I wanted that for myself.”

“If you want to sleep,” said Whitejack, “I’ll shut this farmer up.”

“Oh, no,” said Stais, “I’m pleased to talk.”

“If you’re not careful,” Whitejack said, “he’ll talk about his girl in Flushing.”

“I’d be pleased to hear it,” said Stais.

“It’s only natural I should want to talk about her,” Novak said defensively. “She was the best girl I ever knew in my whole life. I’d’ve married her if I could.”

“My motto,” said Whitejack, “is never marry a girl who goes to bed with you the first time out. The chances are she isn’t pure. The second time—that, of course, is different.” He winked at Stais.

“I was in Flushing, Long Island, taking a five-weeks course in aerial cameras,” Novak said, “and I was living at the YMCA.…”

“This is where I leave.” Whitejack got off the bed and put on his pants.

“The YMCA was very nice. There were bathrooms for every two rooms, and the food was very good,” said Novak, talking earnestly to Stais, “but I must confess, I was lonely in Flushing, Long Island.…”

“I will be back,” Whitejack was buttoning up his shirt, “for the ninth installment.”

“As long as you’re going out,” Novak said to him, “I wish you’d talk to the Lieutenant. It really makes me feel queer passing him, and him just looking through me like I was a window pane.”

“Maybe I’ll talk to the Lieutenant. And leave the Sergeant alone. Remember he’s a tired man who’s been to the war and he needs his rest.” Whitejack went out.

Novak stared after him. “There’s something wrong with him, too,” he said. “Just lying on his back here for ten days, reading and sleeping. He never did that before. He was the liveliest man in the United States Air Force. Seeing those two planes go down … It’s a funny thing, you fly with fellers all over the world, over America, Brazil, Alaska; you watch them shoot porpoises and sharks in gunnery practice over the Gulf Stream, you get drunk with them, go to their weddings, talk to them over the radio with their planes maybe a hundred feet away, in the air—and after all that flying, in one minute, for no reason, two planes go down. Fourteen fellers you’ve been livin’ with for over a year.…” Novak shook his head. “There was a particular friend of Whitejack’s in one of those planes. Frank Sloan. Just before we left Miami, they had a big fight. Frank went off and married a girl that Whitejack’s been going with off and on for a year, every time we hit Miami. Whitejack told him he was crazy, half the squadron had slept with the lady, and that was true, too, and just to teach him a lesson he’d sleep with her himself after they’d been married. And he did, too.…” Novak sighed. “A lot of funny things happen in the Army, when fellers’ve been together a long time and get to know each other real well. And then, one minute, the Mitchell goes down. I guess Whitejack must’ve felt sort of queer, watching Frankie burn.” Novak had put his writing pad down and now he screwed the top on his fountain pen. “The truth is,” he said, “I don’t feel so solid myself. That’s why I like to talk. Especially to you … You’ve been through it. You’re young, but you’ve been through it. But if it’s any bother to you, I’ll keep quiet.…”