Dominique Fabre - Guys Like Me

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"Fabre is a genius of these nuanced, interior moments… The story Fabre tells is that of every one of us: looking for meaning in the mundane, moving through our lives, our interactions, as if through the fabric of a dream… How do we live? it asks to consider. And: What does our existence mean?" "Guys Like Me is a short, arresting tale that…not only offers keen insights into the mind of its middle-aged protagonist, but also provides the reader with a unique tour of what everyday life in the low-key suburbs of Paris must truly be like."- "Readers will take pleasure in this well-told tale with a satisfying ending." — "The setting may be Paris, but it’s not the Paris of grand avenues and pricey cafés. In fact, Fabre’s hero is a recognizable everyman, from any country." — A smile like a soft flash of light. . travels through this moving novel and tells, in words that are muted and profoundly humane, of life as it is." — "Fabre speaks to us of luck and misfortune, of the accidents that make a man or defeat him. He talks about our ordinary disappointments and our small moments of calm. Fabre is the discreet megaphone of the man in the crowd." — "In this novel one finds the intimate geography of an author who lays bare the essence of Paris and its outskirts." — Dominique Fabre, born in Paris and a lifelong resident of the city, exposes the shadowy, anonymous lives of many who inhabit the French capital. In this quiet, subdued tale, a middle-aged office worker, divorced and alienated from his only son, meets up with two childhood friends who are similarly adrift, without passions or prospects. He's looking for a second act to his mournful life, seeking the harbor of love and a true connection with his son. Set in palpably real Paris streets that feel miles away from the City of Light,
is a stirring novel of regret and absence, yet not without a glimmer of hope.
Dominique Fabre
The Waitress Was New

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Dominique Fabre

Guys Like Me

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HIS EYES WERE BLUE, FROM WHERE I WAS. HE LOOKED tired. He looked as if he’d been waiting there for a long time, although that was impossible. Neither of us could have known in advance which way we’d be going that day. I’m a mature man, I’m fifty-four, but in some respects I’ll never be mature enough. For example, the way I sometimes get scared when I meet someone. Mostly you just run into people, and it doesn’t lead to anything. Actually, our lives are full of things that lead to other things, and it’s hard to believe that in this case it hadn’t led to anything in all those years. But he looked familiar, from where I was. From where I was, it might still have been possible, somehow, to turn around and walk away, even though obviously I would never have turned around and walked away of my own accord. But a car might have started, in which case I’d have had to get out of the way, or I might have looked the other way and not seen his reflection in a shop window. I’d have reacted by saying to myself what does that guy want with me? And I’d probably have ignored him, I’d probably have forgotten him. His face looked drawn, but his hair wasn’t gray. I’ve almost lost my hair. Sometimes I run my hand through it, and there’s nothing there. My ex-wife used to laugh when I did that, and I don’t think I took it well. I don’t like taking a wrong turn, but it’d be right to say that when we met again we’d both taken a wrong turn. Maybe our lives, too: lots of wrong turns placed end to end, you can never reconstruct the whole journey.

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His clothes were almost as all-purpose as mine. He’d been wearing them longer than I had. His shoes were polished, in spite of the wear and tear. At that moment, he’d already resumed his place in my life, and I in his. But had we ever really been friends? He was carrying a computer case, and of course I could never have imagined how important it was in his life. It was a long time since he’d last had his own things, in his life, and he kept all those papers in his case, in an ashamed kind of way. He was pretending too. He’d always pretended, I told myself later, remembering things from long ago. But I wasn’t so sure of that in the days that followed. His eyes were blue, and he was carrying that fake case. By the time we were pushing thirty, his good times were already behind him, as far as I knew. He’d already had a beautiful wife, a beautiful apartment, and we’d stopped seeing each other except from time to time, although I often felt like calling him. I didn’t know why he was where he was. He didn’t tell me, he was long past explaining things. Try to find out what happened, and you never get the answers you want. Try to figure out how the earth turns, how people live and die, notice the changes on the streets, and there’s too much missing, when you get down to it. How are you doing? Neither of us said things like that, things like, how many years has it been? What have you been doing with yourself all this time? He didn’t have time for things like that, with his case in his hand. All he said was hey, I thought it was you.

“Me too. It is Jean, isn’t it?”

“Yes, don’t you recognize me?”

“Yes, yes, of course I do.”

We shook hands, didn’t say any more, just carried on walking together. We were in the area near the station, where I almost never go, not since I moved. But for no particular reason, I sometimes make a detour and go back there, stay an hour, without talking to anyone.

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He didn’t live in the neighborhood anymore either. There was a time when he hadn’t lived anywhere in particular, to be honest. A day here, three nights there, even sometimes in hotels that didn’t have names, only street numbers, surrounded by recent Eastern European immigrants and the customary Arab, he was a bit old for that. We walked back up the street, without meaning to we found ourselves going in the same direction, the two of us. We sat down in a café on Rue d’Amsterdam, pretty much halfway along the street. A place where for a long time now, maybe forever, people have been crossing diagonally to gain a few seconds, on this side of the street, on the way toward one of the side entrances to the train station, near the big post office. It was because of his case that I realized. How could a guy like that get to this point? I’m not the only one to ask myself that question, not that he talked much about it. His hands also seemed as if they came from another time. It’s crazy, but that’s how it is. We were at the back of the café, where it was dimly lit. Above the bar were posters advertising special offers, the week’s happy-hour cocktails. That kind of thing shows me I’m from another time really. I’ll never be able to manage. Every time that idea comes into my head, I get scared, I don’t know what to do to get rid of that feeling. Although sometimes, I like it. They didn’t have happy hours in the bars we used to go to together in the old days. There was a time when I often went to England for my work, and there too, I noticed it, time must have passed everywhere, often in the same way. In the light of the booth, his face looked drawn. He was carrying a shadow with him, along with all the rest, the lines, the deep marks left by our lives. Which of us was the first to ask what the other wanted to drink? I can’t remember. I’d really like to remember everything, I might be able to trace the crack he’d slipped through, the crack through which he left again, even if I couldn’t help him. I like helping people, though, in life. I’m not a good Samaritan, or a bad one, it’s the way I was born, period. How can I explain it?

He didn’t talk at first. He looked as if he needed rest. He also seemed to be contemplating something, a kind of map of his life, a whole bunch of forks in the road, our encounter being one path, or a kind of crossroads. I don’t know how to talk about these things. We don’t like to say these things. But we see them in the faces of the people we meet. The fact is, nothing about these things changes with time. For years, they’ve been giving tents to poor people so that they don’t die of cold during the night. But we weren’t in winter anymore, so why did I think of that when I saw him? He was clasping his case to his chest, sitting on the imitation leather banquette. He’d insisted on my taking the banquette, as if that was still one of the generous gifts he could afford. But I played a stupid game with him, without even being aware of it, and said I had to go take a leak. He nodded slowly, with a big, cracked smile, and finally took his place on the banquette. When I came back upstairs, I saw him sitting there with his case clasped tightly to his chest. A steel cannabis leaf in the colors of the Jamaican flag was hanging from the zipper, and later I saw a whole bunch of guys like him and me with cannabis leaves in the colors of the Jamaican flag, but not all of them were down on their luck. I sometimes feel like telling jokes, like with him. He was waiting for me to say something, as if he really wanted me to take responsibility for the stupidity of this reunion.

“Let me look at you.”

I said that, or maybe I didn’t, but from that first time, I could never look at him enough, a bit like when you’re in love, and you’d like to have a woman’s face and body permanently in front of your eyes, so as not to offend them. Of course I thought he’d changed a lot. Maybe we both simultaneously recalled dates and events, memories we could have shared. He didn’t open up in that café, didn’t relax his smile. But I recognized him when he jutted out his lower lip and blew upwards. That was something he always used to do when we were teenagers. Maybe that stupid gesture was something he thought was seductive, the way other people use their smiles.

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