Martin Fieber - He Who Returned

Tai Shiin smiled, for his grandfather had been a courageous space farer who had discovered a new galaxy with his crew and had made a divine peace contract with the inhabitants of a planet.

He himself was not such a courageous space voyager, however he had other abilities. This consciousness, with which the Santinians honored their life, filled Tai Shiin. The Santinians blessed everything that they did with thankfulness and love. This consciousness was also practiced here in the space station, in living together with the many other space farers. Compared to this the earth was a no-mans land. The people on earth whiled away their lives, did things that they sometimes did not want to do at all, and had conversations without really listening. In short: they eked out a miserable existence. But this was not so important right now. He sent his sister a loving thought greeting and returned his attention to the present. Both of the sleepers reappeared on the screens.

As Tai Shiin thought about the previous day, when Jesus und Joshua had gotten to know each other a little better for the first time, he had to smile. It had gone well. Joshua had unconsciously remembered the task which he had set himself. And Jesus, who was to meet some mature souls on his life’s journey, now had also found a soul in Galilee that could share a certain familiarity with him for a while. After all a friend with whom one had a good understanding was something important and not to be compared to a mother, even if she loved him more than anything else.

Tai Shiin knew about the enormous importance of the coming years. Again and again he was happy that like all Santinians he could recall the past lives of which some had taken place more than 8,000 years, but also recall the times that were between those lives. He was allowed to see himself as a student of Jesus when he had lived on Metharia. It hade been a holy time, a moving time, which still kept him in awe, for he had been intensively trained by Jesus. And being trained by Jesus meant to keep spirit and soul in harmony in each second and not to flag in ones concentration. It also required focusing ones thoughts toward the task without losing love and lightness in the process. This had been an enormous challenge even for an experienced space farer like him who controlled all directions and processes of an interstellar voyage mentally.

Some time after this time with Jesus Tai Shiin had in turn been entrusted with younger Santinian as students who were interested in the upcoming mission on earth. Thousands of Santinians had been trained and then jointly took on the task of supporting the mission of Jesus. Nearly all of them acted out their duty in the spaceships which orbited earth. Only very few had the courage to incarnate on earth and by doing so follow a path in which they would come into direct contact with the spiritual darkness. One of them was in Nazareth just now and was the son of a strict Rabbi. Yes, Joshua was courageous; one had to give him that. Tai Shiin nodded appreciatively to himself. Not every Santinian wanted to expose himself to the difficult conditions on earth. Joshua was still blessed with a certain naivety due to only having incarnated a few times so far on earth. Normally this was not the worst of qualities, however on earth one also had to experience negative things and eventually learn how the negative force in its destructiveness worked against the human soul, and especially how one could keep this force away from oneself. Through this naiveté Joshua displayed a tendency to not recognize or to underestimate this negative force that cavorted on the cathartic planet earth.

Each incarnation was associated with a certain risk. To be honest, with an enormous risk. He could not show these courageous souls enough respect. One of these souls was Joshua. Before his incarnation Tai Shiin had taken on the task of inspiring and protecting him as well as possible. After all they had once been brothers on Metharia.

Joshua was sitting at the morning meal with his family. Samuel was still in a bad mood which his son had to endure once again this morning.

“Joshua“, Samuel began, “just so you know, you will be coming to school again tomorrow. You have been lazing about long enough. And tell the son of Joseph that I expect to see him in school tomorrow too. That kid has also not been in school for a while.” Then the rabbi got up and made his way to the synagogue.

Joshua gave his mother a quick glance, who smiled at him lovingly.

“Joshua, he does not mean it that way.”

“You bet he does!” Ever since the evening of the celebration he was afraid of his father. He was happy that did not see Samuel often at the moment.

“Joshua, before our meal I saw Miriam in the alley. She told me that Jesus can not come today after all since he is feeling very weak. “Then I will go to him. I still have time this morning.”

Joshua was happy to see his friend again. Even though Joshua had not known Jesus for a long time yet, he had already grown on him so much that he was really astonished about it. Joshua walked along the main road toward Sepphoris. Jesus lived only about three hundred feet away from his home. Jesus’ house was pretty. Like all of the few houses in Nazareth it was built of limestone. Next to it there was a huge cave barn that served as workshop. Joseph worked there with his elder sons. The construction company was located exactly in the middle of Nazareth. Joshua knocked on the door and looked at the truly beautiful estate expectantly. He had not known that Jesus had such wealthy parents.

Miriam stood before him full of joy. “Jesus will be very happy to see you. He already told me this morning that he hoped you would come by. Jesus is back there in his sleeping area.”

Joshua walked across the small inner courtyard and toward an open door. “Joshua, it is so nice that you have come“, Jesus greeted him directly, although he was still a step away from the entrance.

Jesus looked very weak; nonetheless, a smile appeared on his face.

“I am alas not a very good carver or craftsman. However I brought you a small flower from the wayside.” Joshua handed him a small narcissus.

“A flower bears great wisdom in itself. Joshua, I thank you for your kind gift.”

“I heard that you are not doing well. What is wrong?”

“Nothing too bad, but I often feel very drained and weak. An Egyptian doctor once told me that I would be able to deal with such periods of weakness better once I am older. “

Jesus became very quiet all at once. “May I ask you something, Joshua?”

“Yes, sure.”

“Do you also see those scary ghosts and demons?”

“What do you mean by that? What demons am I supposed to be seeing?”

“There are all of these ugly faces around me that stick out their tongues at me, try to grab me, curse me and invade my thoughts. This costs me so much energy that I always collapses into bed from exhaustion each evening. If I am then able to fall asleep quickly it is good. However most of the time I also see them when my eyes are closed and thus have a hard time switching off. Then I have to pray. By doing so it becomes a bit brighter around me and then those horrible figures disappear.”

“I don’t see them so clearly, Jesus. At times I dream of black dogs and other dark creatures that chase me. But I don’t see them during daytime. What you speak of sounds horrible.”

“Yes, it is horrible. I know that I have difficult life ahead of me and that I have an important task to fulfil here. It must have to do with that.”

“Jesus, I believe that you are a very special boy.”

“Joshua, it is nice of you to say that, but I think that every person is a special person. With your father you don’t have an easy lot either. I on the other hand can’t complain about my father.”