“I am greatly changed. I wonder you know me.”
The freshness of her beauty was indeed gone, but its indescribable majesty and its indescribable charm remained. Those attractions in it, I had seen before; what I had never seen before, was the saddened, softened light of the once proud eyes; what I had never felt before was the friendly touch of the once insensible hand.
We sat down on a bench that was near, and I said, “After so many years, it is strange that we should thus meet again, Estella, here where our first meeting was! Do you often come back?”
“I have never been here since.”
“Nor I.”
The moon began to rise, and I thought of the placid look at the white ceiling, which had passed away. The moon began to rise, and I thought of the pressure on my hand when I had spoken the last words he had heard on earth.
Estella was the next to break the silence that ensued between us.
“I have very often hoped and intended to come back, but have been prevented by many circumstances. Poor, poor old place!”
The silvery mist was touched with the first rays of the moonlight, and the same rays touched the tears that dropped from her eyes. Not knowing that I saw them, and setting herself to get the better of them, she said quietly, —
“Were you wondering, as you walked along, how it came to be left in this condition?”
“Yes, Estella.”
“The ground belongs to me. It is the only possession I have not relinquished. Everything else has gone from me, little by little, but I have kept this. It was the subject of the only determined resistance I made in all the wretched years.”
“Is it to be built on?”
“At last, it is. I came here to take leave of it before its change. And you,” she said, in a voice of touching interest to a wanderer, — ”you live abroad still?”
“Still.”
“And do well, I am sure?”
“I work pretty hard for a sufficient living, and therefore — yes, I do well.”
“I have often thought of you,” said Estella.
“Have you?”
“Of late, very often. There was a long hard time when I kept far from me the remembrance of what I had thrown away when I was quite ignorant of its worth. But since my duty has not been incompatible with the admission of that remembrance, I have given it a place in my heart.”
“You have always held your place in my heart,” I answered.
And we were silent again until she spoke.
“I little thought,” said Estella, “that I should take leave of you in taking leave of this spot. I am very glad to do so.”
“Glad to part again, Estella? To me, parting is a painful thing. To me, the remembrance of our last parting has been ever mournful and painful.”
“But you said to me,” returned Estella, very earnestly, “‘God bless you, God forgive you!’ And if you could say that to me then, you will not hesitate to say that to me now, — now, when suffering has been stronger than all other teaching, and has taught me to understand what your heart used to be. I have been bent and broken, but — I hope — into a better shape. Be as considerate and good to me as you were, and tell me we are friends.”
“We are friends,” said I, rising and bending over her, as she rose from the bench.
“And will continue friends apart,” said Estella.
I took her hand in mine, and we went out of the ruined place; and, as the morning mists had risen long ago when I first left the forge, so the evening mists were rising now, and in all the broad expanse of tranquil light they showed to me, I saw no shadow of another parting from her.
Table of Contents Table of Contents GREAT EXPECTATIONS GREAT EXPECTATIONS Table of Contents OUR MUTUAL FRIEND OUR MUTUAL FRIEND Table of Contents DAVID COPPERFIELD THE PICKWICK PAPERS OLIVER TWIST A CHRISTMAS CAROL HARD TIMES A TALE OF TWO CITIES LITTLE DORRIT BLEAK HOUSE COLLECTED LETTERS THE LIFE OF CHARLES DICKENS by John Forster
Table of Contents Table of Contents GREAT EXPECTATIONS GREAT EXPECTATIONS Table of Contents OUR MUTUAL FRIEND OUR MUTUAL FRIEND Table of Contents DAVID COPPERFIELD THE PICKWICK PAPERS OLIVER TWIST A CHRISTMAS CAROL HARD TIMES A TALE OF TWO CITIES LITTLE DORRIT BLEAK HOUSE COLLECTED LETTERS THE LIFE OF CHARLES DICKENS by John Forster
Book the First. The Cup and the Lip
Chapter 1. On the Look Out
Chapter 2. The Man from Somewhere
Chapter 3. Another Man
Chapter 4. The R. Wilfer Family
Chapter 5. Boffin’s Bower
Chapter 6. Cut Adrift
Chapter 7. Mr Wegg Looks after Himself
Chapter 8. Mr Boffin in Consultation
Chapter 9. Mr and Mrs Boffin in Consultation
Chapter 10. A Marriage Contract
Chapter 11. Podsnappery
Chapter 12. The Sweat of an Honest Man’s Brow
Chapter 13. Tracking the Bird of Prey
Chapter 14. The Bird of Prey Brought Down
Chapter 15. Two New Servants
Chapter 16. Minders and Re-minders
Chapter 17. A Dismal Swamp
Book the Second. Birds of a Feather
Chapter 1. Of an Educational Character
Chapter 2. Still Educational
Chapter 3. A Piece of Work
Chapter 4. Cupid Prompted
Chapter 5. Mercury Prompting
Chapter 6. A Riddle Without an Answer
Chapter 7. In which a Friendly Move is Originated
Chapter 8. In which an Innocent Elopement Occurs
Chapter 9. In which the Orphan Makes His Will
Chapter 10. A Successor
Chapter 11. Some Affairs of the Heart
Chapter 12. More Birds of Prey
Chapter 13. A Solo and a Duett
Chapter 14. Strong of Purpose
Chapter 15. The Whole Case so Far
Chapter 16. An Anniversary Occasion
Book the Third. A Long Lane
Chapter 1. Lodgers in Queer Street
Chapter 2. A Respected Friend in a New Aspect
Chapter 3. The Same Respected Friend in more Aspects than One
Chapter 4. A Happy Return of the Day
Chapter 5. The Golden Dustman Falls into Bad Company
Chapter 6. The Golden Dustman Falls into Worse Company
Chapter 7. The Friendly Move Takes Up a Strong Position
Chapter 8. The End of a Long Journey
Chapter 9. Somebody Becomes the Subject of a Prediction
Chapter 10. Scouts Out
Chapter 11. In the Dark
Chapter 12. Meaning Mischief
Chapter 13. Give a Dog a Bad Name, and Hang Him
Chapter 14. Mr Wegg Prepares a Grindstone for Mr Boffin’s Nose
Chapter 15. The Golden Dustman at His Worst
Chapter 16. The Feast of the Three Hobgoblins
Chapter 17. A Social Chorus
Book the Fourth. A Turning
Chapter 1. Setting Traps
Chapter 2. The Golden Dustman Rises a Little
Chapter 3. The Golden Dustman Sinks Again
Chapter 4. A Runaway Match
Chapter 5. Concerning the Mendicant’s Bride
Chapter 6. A Cry for Help
Chapter 7. Better to be Abel than Cain
Chapter 8. A Few Grains of Pepper
Chapter 9. Two Places Vacated
Chapter 10. The Dolls’ Dressmaker Discovers a Word
Chapter 11. Effect is Given to the Dolls’ Dressmaker’s Discovery
Chapter 12. The Passing Shadow
Chapter 13. Showing How the Golden Dustman Helped to Scatter Dust
Chapter 14. Checkmate to the Friendly Move
Chapter 15. What was Caught in the Traps that were Set
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