J. Cooper - Everlasting Sin

“He was next, but he’s not going.”

“He’s not?” She looked in me in confusion. “Then who’s going?”

I took a deep breath and grabbed ahold of her hand. “I have something to tell you.”

“What?” Her face went pale. “Oh my God, no, Hudson. You can’t do this. You nearly died. You have to stop letting your guilt take over your life. It’s not your fault that Clara died. Your dying isn’t going to solve anything.”

“Riley, listen to me. Please.” I squeezed her hands, my heart breaking at her obvious pain.

“Why? So you can tell me that you’re going back for round two? Do you think I want to go through this again? I can’t go through this again, Hudson. I don’t like it. It’s not right.”

“Riley, I wanted to talk to you about the night that Clara died.” I took a deep breath. “Please listen to me.”

“What?” She glared at me. “I’m getting so fed up of going over that night. I know that makes me a horrible person, but will we ever get to move past that night?”

“I saw you delete the texts.” I bit my lip, and her eyes flew to mine in shock. “I’m not the saint you thought I was, Riley. I know Clara wanted my help. I saw you delete them. I didn’t want to leave you that night. In fact, I was happy you were jealous. I thought it proved to me that you really did care for me like I cared for you.”

“I didn’t know.” She kissed my forehead. “That’s why you feel guilty? That’s why you thought I’d hate you?”

I nodded, and tears filled my eyes. “We both made mistakes that night. I knew she had an alcohol problem and I gave her more alcohol before we left. I just wanted us to be together.”

“Oh, Hudson.” She stroked my cheek. “I’m sorry. I understand why you feel a responsibility to her mom.”

“About that.” I took another deep breath. “About the fight.”

“I don’t know if I can go through this again.” Her eyes were bleak, and my heart broke at the scared look in her eyes. “What if they kill you this time?”

“I signed up for the fight because I felt guilty about that night, but there’s something else you need to know.” I took a deep breath and was about to continue when the door opened.

“Can I come in?” Luke walked into the room and I nodded, still unsure as to how I felt about our friendship.

“Luke, you need to talk some sense into Hudson. He said he’s going to continue with the fight.” Riley’s voice rose. “How is he going to continue with a fight? He has no shot at winning.” Her voice cracked, and I saw Luke give me a questioning look. I shook my head as he sighed.

“I’d hoped Hudson would have told you already.” He sat down and stared at Riley.

She looked at him in confusion. “Told me what?”

“I’m the one going to the championships, Riley.”

“What?” Her jaw dropped and she looked at me in shock. “What are you talking about?”

“I spoke to Nick and he’s sending me.” His voice sounded sad. “I never should have convinced Hudson to sign up. I should have been man enough in the beginning. I should have signed up myself.”

“No, Luke.” She walked over to him. “You don’t need to do this either.”

“Yes.” He jumped up. “Yes, I do.”

“Why?”

“I need to win the million dollars. I need to give some it to Clara’s mom.” He looked at me and gave me another apologetic smile. “I’m the reason she’s dead, Riley.” Tears started rolling from his eyes as he spoke. “She wasn’t driving home from the bar when she crashed. She was driving to meet me.”

“But that doesn’t make sense. Her text message said she needed a ride home from the bar.” Riley looked confused. “She needed Hudson to take her home.”

“I think she was testing him to see if he would leave you.” Luke’s voice was distraught. “I asked her to leave Hudson. I asked her to date me. She knew he had feelings for you, but she wanted to see if he was really going to choose you over her. And when he never responded to her texts, she realized it was over. She called me and asked me to come to the house, but I didn’t want you guys to know I was in town. I didn’t want Hudson to suspect I was chatting up his girlfriend. So I told her to come and meet me.” His voice cracked as he started crying. “Only she never made it.”

“Oh, Luke.” Riley’s voice was filled with shock, and I could see in her eyes that she was as taken aback as I had been when I heard the news a few days prior. I watched as she took him in her arms and hugged him, and my heart filled with renewed love for her. The fact that her first thought was to comfort him at this time meant the world to me. “Luke, this isn’t your fault.”

“Every time I think about that night, I hate myself. I haven’t been able to function.” He sobbed. “I loved her, you know.”

“Is that why you became friendly with her mom?”

“Yes.” He nodded. “She’s a wonderful woman. She knows about that night and she forgives me. I couldn’t believe it, but she forgives me. That’s why I’m entering the fight. She’s going to lose her house. I need to get some money to help her.”

“Oh, Luke.” She held him tighter to her. “I wish you wouldn’t do this.”

“You can’t talk me out of it.” His voice was firm as he pulled away from her. “Ask your boyfriend. he’s already tried.”

“That I have.” I sighed and shook my head. “He won’t listen to reason.”

“But can you even fight?” Riley made a face. “Sorry, but I’ve never seen you—”

“Riley, shh.” I laughed as Luke looked hurt. “Now’s not the time to be asking if he can fight.”

“But isn’t that important?” Riley looked annoyed and then sighed. “I guess you know what you’re doing.”

“Yes, I do.” He nodded and gave me a smile. “Hudson’s going to train me.”

“What?” Riley’s jaw dropped. “Are you kidding me?”

“Nope.” I gave her a look. “He’s going to give me a hundred thousand for training him.”

“A hundred thousand from where?”

“His winnings.” I grinned. “I have someone who needs that money.”

“Oh?” She looked at me curiously.

“A friend of mine, Jamilah. You’ll meet her soon.”

“Okay.” She nodded, smiled, and walked over to kiss me on the cheek. “Just as long as she’s not an ex-girlfriend or something.”

I laughed. “She’s a kid.”

“What?” She looked confused again.

“Don’t worry. She’s not my kid.” I laughed again. “I’ll tell you more later.”

“Yes, dear.” She kissed me again, and I pulled her down so I could feel her warmth next to me.

“Okay, I think that’s my cue to leave.” Luke laughed and walked to the door. “So, I’ll see you next week?”

“Yup,” I nodded. “Start running. I want you running at least ten miles by the time we start training next week.”

“Okay.” He made a face, and I laughed.

“Now, get out of here. I want to kiss my girlfriend in private.”

“See you guys.” He left the room, and Riley just stared at me.

“I can’t believe any of that.” She shook her head. “When were you going to tell me?”

I groaned and closed my eyes. “Can we talk about something else?”

“What do you want to talk about?”

“How much you love me?” I opened my eyes and grinned up at her. “And how much I want to make love to you.”

“There’s no way I’m going to make love to you in your hospital bed.” She giggled.

“Why not? We’re sinners anyway.” I raised an eyebrow at her.

“Yeah, but not sinners who have sex in a hospital.”

“That’s what makes it so exciting.”

“You’re so bad, Hudson.” She shook her head. “And no, I’m not having sex with you here. There is no way in hell that is going to happen.”