Lisa Smith: The Awakening

She stood there and looked at him quietly, her chin raised slightly. It seemed to enrage him.

“Haven’t you seen enough yet? Or do I have to show you more? Can’t you picture what I might do to you?” He strode over to the cold fireplace and snatched out a long piece of wood, thicker than both Elena’s wrists together. With one motion, he snapped it in two like a match stick. “ Your fragile bones,” he said.

Across the room was a pillow from the bed; he caught it up and with a slash of his nails left the silk cover in ribbons. “ Your soft skin.” Then he moved toward Elena with preternatural quickness; he was there and had hold of her shoulders before she knew what was happening. He scared into her face a moment, then, with a savage hiss that raised the hairs at the nape of her neck, drew his lips back.

It was the same snarl she’d seen on the roof, those white teeth bared, the canines grown to unbelievable length and sharpness. They were the fangs of a predator, a hunter. “Your white neck,” he said in a distorted voice.

Elena stood paralyzed another instant, gazing as if compelled into that chilling visage, and then something deep in her unconscious took over. She reached up within the restraining circle of his arms and caught his face between her two hands. His cheeks were cool against her palms. She held him that way, softly, so softly, as if to reprove his hard grip on her bare shoulders. And she saw the confusion slowly come to his face, as he realized she was not doing it to fight him or to shove him away.

Elena waited until that confusion reached his eyes, shattering his gaze, becoming almost a look of pleading. She knew that her own face was fearless, soft yet intense, her lips slightly parted. They were both breathing quickly now, together, in rhythm. Elena could feel it when he started to shake, trembling as he had when the memories of Katherine had become too much to bear. Then, very gently and deliberately, she drew that snarling mouth down to her own.

He tried to oppose her. But her gentleness was stronger than all his inhuman strength. She shut her eyes and thought only of Stefan, not of the dreadful things she had learned tonight but of Stefan, who had stroked her hair as lightly as if she might break in his hands. She thought of that, and she kissed the predatory mouth that had threatened her a few minutes ago.

She felt the change, the transformation in his mouth as he yielded, responding helplessly to her, meeting her soft kisses with equal softness. She felt the shudder go through Stefan’s body as the hard grip on her shoulders softened, too, becoming an embrace. And she knew she’d won.

“You will never hurt me,” she whispered.

It was as if they were kissing away all the fear and desolation and loneliness inside them. Elena felt passion surge through her like summer lightning, and she could sense the answering passion in Stefan. But infusing everything else was a gentleness almost frightening in its intensity. There was no need for haste or roughness, Elena thought as Stefan gently guided her to sit down.

Gradually, the kisses grew more urgent, and Elena felt the summer lightning flicker all through her body, charging it, making her heart pound and her breath catch. It made her feel strangely soft and dizzy, made her shut her eyes and let her head fall back in abandon.

It’s time, Stefan, she thought. And, very gently, she drew his mouth down again, this time to her throat. She felt his lips graze her skin, felt his breath warm and cool at once. Then she felt the sharp sting.

But the pain faded almost instantly. It was replaced by a feeling of pleasure that made her tremble. A great rushing sweetness filled her, flowing through her to Stefan.

At last she found herself gazing into his face, into a face that at last had no barriers against her, no walls. And the look she saw there made her feel weak.

“Do you trust me?” he whispered. And when she simply nodded, he held her eyes and reached for something beside the bed. It was the dagger. She regarded it without fear, and then fixed her eyes again on his face.

He never looked away from her as he unsheathed it and made a small cut at the base of his throat. Elena looked at it wide-eyed, at the blood as bright as holly berries, but when he urged her forward she did not try to resist him.

Afterward he just held her a long time, while the crickets outside made their music. Finally, he stirred.

“I wish you could stay here,” he whispered. “I wish you could stay forever. But you can’t.”

“I know,” she said, equally quiet. Their eyes met again in silent communion. There was so much to say, so many reasons to be together. “Tomorrow,” she said. Then, leaning against his shoulder, she whispered, “Whatever happens, Stefan, I’ll be with you. Tell me you believe that.”

His voice was hushed, muffled in her hair. “Oh, Elena, I believe it. Whatever happens, we’ll be together.”

As soon as he left Elena at her house, Stefan went to the woods.

He took Old Creek Road, driving under the sullen clouds-through which no patch of sky could be seen, to the place where he had parked on the first day of school.

Leaving the car, he tried to retrace his steps exactly to the clearing where he had seen the crow. His hunter’s instincts helped him, recalling the shape of this bush and that knotted root, until he stood in the open place ringed with ancient oak trees.

Here. Under this blanket of dingy-brown leaves, some of the rabbit’s bones might even remain.

Taking a long breath to still himself, to gather his Powers, he cast out a probing, demanding thought.

And for the first time since he’d come to Fell’s Church, he felt the flicker of a reply. But it seemed faint and wavering, and he could not locate it in space.

He sighed and turned around — and stopped dead.

Damon stood before him, arms crossed over his chest, lounging against the largest oak tree. He looked as if he might have been there for hours.

“So,” said Stefan heavily, “it is true. It’s been a long time, brother.”

“Not as long as you think, brother .” Stefan remembered that voice, that velvety, ironical voice. “I’ve kept track of you over the years,” Damon said calmly. He flicked a bit of bark from the sleeve of his leather jacket as casually as he had once arranged his brocade cuffs. “But then, you wouldn’t know that, would you? Ah, no, your Powers are as weak as ever.”

“Be careful, Damon,” Stefan said softly, dangerously. “Be very careful tonight. I’m not in a tolerant mood.”

“St. Stefan in a pique? Imagine. You’re distressed, I suppose, because of my little excursions into your territory. I only did it because I wanted to be close to you. Brothers should be close.”

“You killed tonight. And you tried to make me think I’d done it.”

“Are you quite sure you didn’t? Perhaps we did it together. Careful!” he said as Stefan stepped toward him. “My mood is not the most tolerant tonight, either. I only had a wizened little history teacher; you had a pretty girl.”

The fury inside Stefan coalesced, seeming to focus in one bright burning spot, like a sun inside him. “Keep away from Elena,” he whispered with such menace that Damon actually tilted his head back slightly. “Keep away from her, Damon. I know you’ve been spying on her, watching her. But no more. Go near her again and you’ll regret it.”

“You always were selfish. Your one fault. Not willing to share anything, are you?” Suddenly, Damon’s lips curved in a singularly beautiful smile. “But fortunately the lovely Elena is more generous. Didn’t she tell you about our little liaisons? Why, the first time we met she almost gave herself to me on the spot.”