Lisa Smith: The Struggle

And she couldn’t breathe. She was lost in this hellish tumult, and there was no air. She had to breathe . She had to get out of here…

“Stefan, help me!” she screamed.

But her scream made no sound. Instead, the icy water rushed into her lungs, invading her. She thrashed against it, but it was too strong for her. Her struggles became wilder, more uncoordinated, and then they stopped.

Then everything was still.

Bonnie and Meredith were hunting around the perimeter of the school impatiently. They’d seen Stefan go this way, more or less coerced by Tyler and his new friends. They’d started to follow him, but then that business with Elena had started. And then Matt had informed them that she’d taken off. So they’d set out after Stefan again, but nobody was out here. There weren’t even any buildings except one lonely Quonset hut.

“And now there’s a storm coming!” Meredith said. “Listen to that wind! I think it’s going to rain.”

“Or snow!” Bonnie shuddered. “Where did they go?”

“I don’t care; I just want to get under a roof. Here it comes!” Meredith gasped as the first sheet of icy rain hit her, and she and Bonnie ran for the nearest shelter—the Quonset hut.

And it was there that they found Stefan. The door was ajar, and when Bonnie looked in she recoiled.

“Tyler’s goon squad!” she hissed. “Look out!”

Stefan had a semicircle of guys between him and the door. Caroline was in the corner.

“He must have it! He took it somehow; I know he did!” she was saying.

“Took what?” said Meredith, loudly. Everyone turned their way.

Caroline’s face contorted as she saw them in the doorway and Tyler snarled. “Get out.” he said. “You don’t want to be involved in this.”

Meredith ignored him. “Stefan, can I talk to you?”

“In a minute. Are you going to answer her question? Took what?” Stefan was concentrating on Tyler, totally focused.

“Sure, I’ll answer her question. Right after I answer yours.” Tyler’s beefy hand thumped into his fist and he stepped forward. “You’re going to be dog meat, Salvatore.”

Several of the tough guys snickered.

Bonnie opened her mouth to say, “Let’s get out of here.” But what she actually said was, “The bridge.”

It was weird enough to make everyone look at her.

“What?” said Stefan.

“The bridge,” said Bonnie again, without meaning to say it. Her eyes bulged, alarmed. She could hear the voice coming from her throat, but she had no control over it. And then she felt her eyes go wider and her mouth drop open and she had her own voice back. “The bridge, oh, my God, the bridge! That’s where Elena is! Stefan, we’ve got to save her… Oh, hurry!”

“Bonnie, are you sure?”

“Yes, oh, God… that’s where she’s gone. She’s drowning! Hurry !” Waves of thick blackness broke over Bonnie. But she couldn’t faint now; they had to get to Elena.

Stefan and Meredith hesitated one minute, and then Stefan was through the goon squad, brushing them aside like tissue paper. They sprinted through the field toward the parking lot, dragging Bonnie behind. Tyler started after them, but stopped when the full force of the wind hit him.

“Why would she go out in this storm?” Stefan shouted as they sprang into Meredith’s car.

“She was upset; Matt said she took off in his car,” Meredith gasped back in the comparative quiet of the interior. She pulled out fast and turned into the wind, speeding dangerously. “She said she was going to the boarding house.”

“No, she’s at the bridge! Meredith, drive faster! Oh, God, we’re going to be too late!” Tears were running down Bonnie’s face.

Meredith floored it. The car swayed, buffeted by wind and sleet. All through that nightmare ride Bonnie sobbed, her fingers clutching the seat in front of her.

Stefan’s sharp warning kept Meredith from running into the tree. They piled out and were immediately lashed and punished by the wind.

“It’s too big to move! We’ll have to walk,” Stefan shouted.

Of course it was too big to move, Bonnie thought, already scrambling through the branches. It was a full-grown oak tree. But once on the other side, the icy gale whipped all thought out of her head.

Within minutes she was numb, and the road seemed to go on for hours. They tried to run but the wind beat them back. They could scarcely see; if it hadn’t been for Stefan, they would have gone over the riverbank. Bonnie began to weave drunkenly. She was ready to fall to the ground when she heard Stefan shouting up ahead.

Meredith’s arm around her tightened, and they broke again into a stumbling run. But as they neared the bridge what they saw brought them to a halt.

“Oh, my God… Elena!” screamed Bonnie. Wickery Bridge was a mass of splintered rubble. The guardrail on one side was gone and the planking had given way as if a giant fist had smashed it. Beneath, the dark water churned over a sickening pile of debris. Part of the debris, entirely underwater except the headlights, was Matt’s car.

Meredith was screaming, too, but she was screaming at Stefan. “No! You can’t go down there!”

He never even glanced back. He dived from the bank, and the water closed over his head.

Later, Bonnie’s memory of the next hour would be mercifully dim. She remembered waiting for Stefan while the storm raged endlessly on. She remembered that she was almost beyond caring by the time a hunched figure lurched out of the water. She remembered feeling no disappointment, only a vast and yawning grief, as she saw the limp thing Stefan laid out on the road.

And she remembered Stefan’s face.

She remembered how he looked as they tried to do something for Elena. Only that wasn’t really Elena lying there, that was a wax doll with Elena’s features. It was nothing that had ever been alive and it certainly wasn’t alive now. Bonnie thought it seemed silly to go on poking and prodding at it like this, trying to get water out of its lungs and so on. Wax dolls didn’t breathe.

She remembered Stefan’s face when he finally gave up. When Meredith wrestled with him and yelled at him, saying something about over an hour without air, and brain damage. The words filtered in to Bonnie, but their meaning didn’t. She just thought it odd that while Meredith and Stefan were screaming at each other they were both crying.

Stefan stopped crying after that. He just sat there holding the Elena-doll. Meredith yelled some more, but he didn’t listen to her. He just sat. And Bonnie would never forget his expression.

And then something seared through Bonnie, bringing her to life, waking her to terror. She clutched at Meredith and stared around for the source. Something bad… something terrible was coming. Was almost here.

Stefan seemed to feel it, too. He was alert, stiff, like a wolf picking up a scent.

“What is it?” shouted Meredith. “What’s wrong with you?”

“You’ve got to go!” Stefan rose, still holding the limp form in his arms. “Get out of here!”

“What do you mean? We can’t leave you—

“Yes, you can! Get out of here! Bonnie, get her out!”

No one had ever told Bonnie to take care of someone else before. People were always taking care of her . But now she seized Meredith’s arm and began pulling. Stefan was right. There was nothing they could do for Elena, and if they stayed whatever had gotten her would get them.

“Stefan!” Meredith shouted as she was unaccountably dragged away.

“I’ll put her under the trees. The willows, not the oaks,” he called after them.

Why would he tell us that now? Bonnie wondered in some deep part of her mind that was not taken up with fear and the storm.