Clive Barker - Mister B. Gone

Is it full enough now? Demonation knows, I've told you plenty. Sure, there are some details I've neglected. Most of the rest of the stuff is self-evident, isn't it? Obviously I didn't die, even with two wounds to my heart. Just as Quitoon had prophesied, every knife wound and cracked bone had healed eventually, leaving me with a constellation of small scars to accompany the Great Burn.

Speaking of burns, when we, that would be Quitoon and me, wandered back to the fringes of the forest and looked down over Joshua's Field, we discovered that while most of the condemned had long since gone up in smoke, the three sinners who were nailed upside down on the crosses in the middle of the half-circle of fires had yet to be put to the flame. The Archbishop was addressing them, enumerating their sins against the Laws of Heaven. Two of the condemned were men, the third a very young and very pregnant woman, her swollen belly, its skin shiny-tight, hanging down, decorated with rivulets of blood that ran from her crudely nailed feet. It was only when the Archbishop had finished his speech, and the three executioners carefully lit the base of each of the tinder piles that the crosses began to slowly rotate.

"That's clever," I remarked.

Quitoon shrugged. "I've seen better."

"Where?"

"Anywhere they're causing harm to one another. That's where you really see human genius at work; war machines, torture instruments, execution devices. It's incredible what they create. They had the spinning crosses last October, for the execution of the previous Archbishop."

"His women were nailed upon crosses, too?"

"No. Just the Archbishop, on the circling device. Anyway, it didn't work. It started to move, a bit jerkily, and then halfway round it stopped. But look at the skill of these people, they've solved the problem in just a few months. Those crosses are going 'round so smoothly." He smiled. "Look at them."

"I'm looking."

"It's a machine. Botch, a device for doing what Humankind can't do for itself! I swear, it will make a machine to fly, if it lives long enough."

"It has enemies?"

"Only one. Itself. But the machines it makes are usually free of the stupidities of its inventors. I love machines, whatever they're for. I never get tired of watching them. Oh Demonation, listen to that screaming." His smile grew broader still.

"It's the girl."

"I suppose it's understandable. She's screaming for two." He chuckled. "Still, it's making my teeth ache. I think I'm going to take my leave. It's been quite a day, Mister B. Thank you."

"Where are you going?"

"Right now, away from here."

"But after that?"

"No particular plans. If I hear something interesting is being invented somewhere — whether it's a better rat trap or a machine that beats women who talk back to their husbands, I don't care — I'll just go. I've got plenty of time. Like I heard rumors yesterday that an angel had been caught in the Low Countries, helping someone invent a flower."

"Do you know what an angel looks like?"

"I have no idea. What about you? Have you ever seen one?"

I shook my head.

"You want to see this angel?" Quitoon asked.

"What do you mean?"

"Demonation, you are dense! I'm asking if you want to come with me. It's a nomadic existence but every now and then you see somebody working on a project, usually in secret."

The word sounded strange when he said it. He seemed to realize this fact, because he said:

"It's not really important, The Secret Thing. Things! I mean Things ."

"No, you don't." I said. "You mean a Thing. A single Thing. You can't fool me."

Quitoon was plainly impressed. "Yes!" he said. "It is a single thing I'm hearing rumors about. Somebody's working to invent this secret thing that will…" He left the sentence unfinished.

"That will?" I said.

"Are you coming or staying? I need an answer, Botch!"

"That will what ?"

"That will change the nature of Humankind forever."

Now I was intrigued. Quitoon had a secret. A big secret.

"This is the biggest Secret since that thing about Christ," Quitoon went on. "I mean it."

I glanced back across the Field to the woods on the far side. I knew it wouldn't be difficult to find my way back through the trees to the crack in the rocks where Cawley and his mob had hauled me up. Nor would it be that hard to make the descent. In a matter of hours I could be back in the comforting familiarity of the World Below.

"Well, Botch?"

"You really think there's an angel in the Low Countries?"

"Who knows? That's half the fun of it, not knowing."

"I think maybe I need to chew it over for a little while."

"Then I'll leave you to your chewing, Jakabok Botch. Did I tell you what a mouthful that name of yours is, by the way?"

He didn't wait long enough for me to tell him I heard that observation often. He just turned his back on the field, saying that he couldn't take another second of the girl's screams.

"Her hair's on fire."

"That's no excuse," he replied, and strode off into the forest.

This was an important moment, I knew. If I chose wrongly I could end up regretting the decision I made now, and here, for the rest of my life. I looked down at the Field again, and then back towards the trees. Bright though the designs on Quitoon's scales were, the shadows were already obscuring them. Just a few more steps and he'd be out of sight, and my opportunity for some adventure would have disappeared.

"Wait!" I yelled to him. "I'm coming with you."

So now you know how I went traveling with Quitoon. We had a fine time in the years that followed, moving from place to place, playing what he liked to call the Old Games: causing the dead to talk, and babies to turn to dust as they suckled; tempting holy men and women (usually with sex); even getting into the Vatican through the sewers and smearing excrement on some new frescoes that had been painted using a device that allowed the artist to achieve the illusion of depth. Quitoon was irritated not to have been there when the invention had been used, his bad temper making him fling the dung around with particular gusto.

I learned a lot from Quitoon. Not just how to play the Old Games, but how he always said the sport of invention chasing was keener if the human you were playing who really had a chance — just a little one, maybe, but nevertheless a real chance — of outwitting him.

"You didn't give the mob in the forest much of a chance of winning," I reminded him. "In fact, you didn't give them any."

"That's because we were outnumbered. I had no choice. If we'd been able to go up against them one by one it would have been an entirely different story."

That was the one time I ever really pressed him on any matter of significance. After that we were a much neater match than I would ever have believed. Like long-parted brothers who'd been finally reunited.

Well, that's the end. Not of my life, obviously, but certainly the end of my confessions to you. I never intended to tell you so much. But now that it's done, I don't regret it. I feel lighter, unburdened I suppose you'd say.

Perhaps, in some misbegotten fashion, I owe you my thanks. If you hadn't kept staring at me with those puzzled expressions on your face, I would never have told you one of my guilty little secrets. Not The Secret, of course. That Secret I got from adventuring with Quitoon and, if I gave it away, it would be like giving him away. At least, the good bits.

So, no Secret. Don't even bother to hope. I never promised it to you, and it wouldn't even have come up if I hadn't been telling you what Quitoon said.

All right? Are we clear?

No Secret.

Just burn the book.

Please.