Orson Card - Maps in a Mirror - The Short Fiction of Orson Scott Card

They were lying, of course. And Jerry stopped his speech and jammed his hands into his pockets, only to discover that the suit they had provided for him had no pockets (Save money by avoiding nonessentials, said the slogan), and his hands slid uselessly down his hips.

The prosecutor looked up in surprise when the judge cleared his throat. “Oh, I beg your pardon,” he said. “The speeches usually go on much longer. I congratulate you, Mr. Crove, on your brevity.”

Jerry nodded in mock acknowledgment, but he felt no mockery.

“We always have a dry run,” said the prosecutor, “just to catch you last-chancers.”

“Everyone knew that?”

“Well, everyone but you, of course, Mr. Crove. All right, everybody, you can go home now.”

The audience arose and quietly shuffled out.

The prosecutor and Charlie got up and walked to the bench. The judge was resting his chin on his hands, looking not at all fatherly now, just a little bored. “How much do you want?” the judge asked.

“Unlimited,” said the prosecutor.

“Is he really that important?” Jerry might as well have not been there. “After all, they’re doing the actual bombers in Brazil.”

“Mr. Crove is an American,” said the prosecutor, “who chose to let a Russian ambassador be assassinated.”

“All right, all right,” said the judge, and Jerry marveled that the man hadn’t the slightest trace of a Russian accent.

“Gerald Nathan Crove, the court finds you guilty of murder and treason against the United States of America and its ally, the Union of Soviet Socialist Republics. Do you have anything to say before sentence is pronounced?”

“I just wondered,” said Jerry, “why you all speak English.”

“Because,” said the prosecutor icily, “we are in America.”

“Why do you even bother with trials?”

“To stop other imbeciles from trying what you did. He just wants to argue, Your Honor.”

The judge slammed down his gavel. “The court sentences Gerald Nathan Crove to be put to death by every available method until such time as he convincingly apologizes for his action to the American people. Court stands adjourned. Lord in heaven, do I have a headache.”

They wasted no time. At five o’clock in the morning, Jerry had barely fallen asleep. Perhaps they monitored this, because they promptly woke him up with a brutal electric shock across the metal floor where Jerry was lying. Two guards—this time Russians—came in and stripped him and then dragged him to the execution chamber even though, had they let him, he would have walked.

The prosecutor was waiting. “I have been assigned your case,” he said, “because you promise to be a challenge. Your psychological profile is interesting, Mr. Crove. You long to be a hero.”

“I wasn’t aware of that.”

“You displayed it in the courtroom, Mr. Crove. You are no doubt aware—your middle name implies it—of the last words of the American Revolutionary War espionage agent named Nathan Hale. ‘I regret that I have but one life to give for my country,’ he said. You shall discover that he was mistaken. He should be very glad he had but one life.

“Since you were arrested several weeks ago in Rio de Janeiro, we have been growing a series of clones for you. Development is quite accelerated, but they have been kept in zero-sensation environments until the present. Their minds are blank.

“You are surely aware of somec, yes, Mr. Crove?”

Jerry nodded. The starship sleep drug.

“We don’t need it in this case, of course. But the mind-taping technique we use on interstellar flights—that is quite useful. When we execute you, Mr. Crove, we shall be continuously taping your brain. All your memories will be rather indecorously dumped into the head of the first clone, who will immediately become you. However, he will clearly remember all your life up to and including the moment of death.”

“It was so easy to be a hero in the old days, Mr. Crove. Then you never knew for sure what death was like. It was compared to sleep, to great emotional pain, to quick departure of the soul from the body. None of these, of course, is particularly accurate.”

Jerry was frightened. He had heard of multiple death before, of course—it was rumored to exist because of its deterrent value. “They resurrect you and kill you again and again,” said the horror story, and now he knew that it was true. Or they wanted him to believe it was true.

What frightened Jerry was the way they planned to kill him. A noose hung from a hook in the ceiling. It could be raised and lowered, but there didn’t seem to be the slightest provision for a quick, sharp drop to break his neck. Jerry had once almost choked to death on a salmon bone. The sensation of not being able to breathe terrified him.

“How can I get out of this?” Jerry asked, his palms sweating.

“The first one, not at all,” said the prosecutor. “So you might as well be brave and use up your heroism this time around. Afterward we’ll give you a screen test and see how convincing your repentance is. We’re fair, you know. We try to avoid putting anyone through this unnecessarily. Please sit.”

Jerry sat. A man in a lab coat put a metal helmet on his head. A few needles pricked into Jerry’s scalp.

“Already,” said the prosecutor, “your first clone is becoming aware. He already has all your memories. He is right now living through your panic—or shall we say your attempts at courage. Make sure you concentrate carefully on what is about to happen to you, Jerry. You want to make sure you remember every detail.”

“Please,” Jerry said.

“Buck up, my man,” said the prosecutor with a grin. “You were wonderful in the courtroom. Let’s have some of that noble resistance now.”

Then the guards led him to the noose and put it around his neck, being careful not to dislodge the helmet. They pulled it tight and then tied his hands behind his back. The rope was rough on his neck. He waited, his neck tingling, for the sensation of being lifted in the air. He flexed his neck muscles, trying to keep them rigid, though he knew the effort would be useless. His knees grew weak, waiting for them to raise the rope.

The room was plain. There was nothing to see, and the prosecutor had left the room. There was, however, a mirror on a wall beside him. He could barely see into it without turning his entire body. He was sure it was an observation window. They would watch, of course.

Jerry needed to go to the bathroom.

Remember, he told himself, I won’t really die. I’ll be awake in the other room in just a moment.

But his body was not convinced. It didn’t matter a bit that a new Jerry Crove would be ready to get up and walk away when this was over. This Jerry Crove would die.

“What are you waiting for?” he demanded, and as if that had been their cue the guards pulled the rope and lifted him into the air.

From the beginning it was worse than he had thought. The rope had an agonizingly tight grip on his neck; there was no question of resisting at all. The suffocation was nothing, at first. Like being under water holding your breath. But the rope itself was painful, and his neck hurt, and he wanted to cry out with the pain; but nothing could escape his throat.

Not at first.

There was some fumbling with the rope, and it jumped up and down as the guards tied it to the hook on the wall. Once Jerry’s feet even touched the floor.

By the time the rope held still, however, the effects of the strangling were taking over and the pain was forgotten. The blood was pounding inside Jerry’s head. His tongue felt thick. He could not shut his eyes. And now he wanted to breathe. He had to breathe. His body demanded a breath.