Orson Card - Maps in a Mirror - The Short Fiction of Orson Scott Card

“I know.”

“Just so you understand.”

“I understand.”

Alvin sat down at the keyboard. From the kitchen came a sound like the whine a cringing hound makes, back in its throat. It was Connie, and she was terrified. Her fear, whatever caused it, was contagious. Alvin shuddered and then ridiculed himself for letting this upset him. He was in control, and it was absurd to be afraid. He wouldn’t be snowed by his own son.

“What do I do?”

“Just type things in.”

“What things?”

“Whatever comes to mind.”

“Words? Numbers? How do I know what to write if you don’t tell me?”

“It doesn’t matter what you write. Just so you write whatever you feel like writing.”

I don’t feel like writing anything. Alvin thought. I don’t feel like humoring this nonsense another moment. But he could not say so, not to Joe; he had to be the patient father, giving this absurdity a fair chance. He began to come up with numbers, with words. But after a few moments there was no randomness, no free association in his choice. It was not in Alvin’s nature to let chance guide his choices. Instead he began reciting on the keyboard the long strings of genetic-code information on his most recent bacterial subjects, fragments of names, fragments of numeric data, progressing in order through the DNA. He knew as he did it that he was cheating his son, that Joe wanted something of himself. But he told himself, What could be more a part of me than something I made?

“Enough?” he asked Joe.

Joe shrugged. “Do you think it is?”

“I could have done five words and you would have been satisfied?”

“If you think you’re through, you’re through,” Joe said quietly.

“Oh, you’re very good at this,” Alvin said. “Even the hocus-pocus.”

“You’re through then?”

“Yes.”

Joe started the program running. He leaned back and waited. He could sense his father’s impatience, and he found himself relishing the wait. The whirring and clicking of the disk drive. And then the cards began appearing on the screen. This is you. This covers you. This crosses you. This is above you, below you, before you, behind you. Your foundation and your house, your death and your name. Joe waited for what had come before, what had come so predictably, the stories that had flooded in upon him when he read for his mother and for himself a dozen times before. But the stories did not come. Because the cards were the same. Over and over again, the King of Swords.

Joe looked at it and understood at once. Father had lied. Father had consciously controlled his input, had ordered it in some way that told the cards that they were being forced. The program had not failed. Father simply would not be read. The King of Swords, by himself, was power, as all the Kings were power. The King of Pentacles was the power of money, the power of the bribe. The King of Wands was the power of life, the power to make new. The King of Cups was the power of negation and obliteration, the power of murder and sleep. And the King of Swords was the power of words that others would believe. Swords could say, “I will kill you,” and be believed, and so be obeyed. Swords could say, “I love you,” and be believed, and so be adored. Swords could lie. And all his father had given him was lies. What Alvin didn’t know was that even the choice of lies told the truth.

“Edmund,” said Joe. Edmund was the lying bastard in King Lear.

“What?” asked Father.

“We are only what nature makes us. And nothing more.”

“You’re getting this from the cards?”

Joe looked at his father, expressing nothing.

“It’s all the same card,” said Alvin.

“I know,” said Joe.

“What’s this supposed to be?”

“A waste of time,” said Joe. Then he got up and walked out of the room.

Alvin sat there, looking at the little tarot cards laid out on the screen. As he watched, the display changed, each card in turn being surrounded by a thin line and then blown up large, nearly filling the screen. The King of Swords every time. With the point of his sword coming out of his mouth, and his hands clutching at his groin. Surely, Alvin thought, that was not what was drawn on the Waite deck.

Connie stood near the kitchen doorway, leaning on the refrigerator. “And that’s all?” she asked.

“Should there be more?” Alvin asked.

“God,” she said.

“What happened with you?”

“Nothing,” she said, walking calmly out of the room. Alvin heard her rush up the stairs. And he wondered how things got out of control like this.

Alvin could not make up his mind how to feel about his son’s project. It was silly, and Alvin wanted nothing to do with it, wished he’d never bought the cards for him. For days on end Alvin would stay at the laboratory until late at night and rush back again in the morning without so much as eating breakfast with his family. Then, exhausted from lack of sleep, he would get up late, come downstairs, and pretend for the whole day that nothing unusual was going on. On such days he discussed Joe’s readings with him, or his own genetic experiments; sometimes, when the artificial cheer had been maintained long enough to be believed, Alvin would even discuss Joe’s tarot program. It was at such times that Alvin offered to provide Joe with introductions, to get him better computers to work with, to advise him on the strategy of development and publication. Afterward Alvin always regretted having helped Joe, because what Joe was doing was a shameful waste of a brilliant mind. It also did not make Joe love him any more.

Yet as time passed, Alvin realized that other people were taking Joe seriously. A group of psychologists administered batteries of tests to hundreds of subjects—who had also put random data into Joe’s program. When Joe interpreted the tarot readouts for these people, the correlation was statistically significant. Joe himself rejected those results, because the psychological tests were probably invalid measurements themselves. More important to him was the months of work in clinics, doing readings with people the doctors knew intimately. Even the most skeptical of the participating psychologists had to admit that Joe knew things about people that he could not possibly know. And most of the psychologists said openly that Joe not only confirmed much that they already knew but also provided brilliant new insights. “It’s like stepping into my patient’s mind,” one of them told Alvin.

“My son is brilliant, Dr. Fryer, and I want him to succeed, but surely this mumbo jumbo can’t be more than luck.”

Dr. Fryer only smiled and took a sip of wine. “Joe tells me that you have never submitted to the test yourself.”

Alvin almost argued, but it was true. He never had submitted, even though he went through the motions. “I’ve seen it in action.” Alvin said.

“Have you? Have you seen his results with someone you know well?”

Alvin shook his head, then smiled. “I figured that since I didn’t believe in it, it wouldn’t work around me,”

“It isn’t magic.”

“It isn’t science, either,” said Alvin.

“No, you’re right. Not science at all. But just because it isn’t science doesn’t mean it isn’t true.”

“Either it’s science or it isn’t.”

“What a clear world you live in,” said Dr. Fryer. “All the lines neatly drawn. We’ve run double-blind tests on his program, Dr. Bevis. Without knowing it, he has analyzed data taken from the same patient on different days, under different circumstances: the patient has even been given different instructions in some of the samples so that it wasn’t random. And you know what happened?”