Dorsai - Jan

She smiled at me, and I went on "As for going too fast or too slow – if it's right for you, then it's neither. The first time we met, would you have let me touch your breast?" She grinned and shook her head. I went on "But here were are, right now, both of us naked, and you sitting on my lap. Tell me, did we go too slow, or too fast?"

She nodded her understanding, and I said "When I gave you the massage that night, you were scared at first, weren't you?"

She said "Yeah, a little."

"Then why did you let me do it?"

"Because I knew you wanted to help me feel better, and I trusted you."

"I know that you've kissed the other girls – didn't that make you nervous at first?"

"It scared the Hell out of me", she admitted.

"But you did it anyway – because you knew you loved them, and they loved you."

She nodded.

"And you keep doing it, too – I guess you found out that you liked it?

And they keep kissing you back, so they must like it."

She grinned at me, and I continued "You know that I've made love with them, and that they've made love with each other. But NONE of us has EVER bothered you about it, have we? Not ONE of us has treated you any differently, have we? We've neither excluded you, nor tried to involve you; in fact, you and I sat here on this very couch and cuddled when Kelly and Sandra got carried away and made love to each other right there on the floor, in front of us. And when they were done, both of them blushed – not because they'd made love in front of us, but for getting as carried away as they did; I never knew that two women could make so much noise making love, did you?"

She blushed a bit, and shook her head, saying "I see where you're going.

I have never felt any different than any one else when I've been here.

I guess maybe I have been worried about stuff that I didn't have to."

"Not at all. You were worried because you were still unsure, and uncertain; and it was reasonable for you to worry under those circumstances. All I've done here has been to help show you that now you can put those worries and fears aside, and do what you want to whatever that may be."

She said "What I want to do, now, is this" – and leaned forward to give me a kiss that quickly went past the friendly, affectionate kisses we'd shared before, and headed straight for lust in the dust.

When the kiss finally broke, both of us were panting slightly from the intensity of it – and I could see that Susan had most definitely decided where she wanted to go.

Smiling, she took my hands and put them on her breasts, squeezing them as a sign that she wanted the contact to be more than social and casual as it had been before. As I ran my thumbs over her erect nipples, she reached down and took hold of my penis – for the first time since the anatomy lessons the night of the sleepover. Holding it gently, she did a Braille examination of it, and my scrotum and testicles, as I did a similar exam of her breasts.

Her eyes were open, if hooded in desire, when Kelly came into the den with a cup of coffee in her hand. As she looked at us in surprise, Susan realized we weren't alone, and turned to see who it was. When she saw Kelly, quickly got off my lap to go hug her – and then give her a kiss that must have matched the one she gave me, judging from the changes of expression on Kelly's face. I stood up, too, and took the cup from Kelly, so both her hands would be free to return the kiss – and she did, with considerable enthusiasm. When their kiss finally broke, Kelly looked at Susan, and asked "You're ready?", concerned.

Susan only nodded, happily, before the three of us bunched up for a group hug.

When it broke up, Susan stood there, tears running down her face. I asked her "What's wrong?", and was quietly informed "Nothing's wrong, you lunched – I'm just so HAPPY!". Kelly and I both laughed, and the three of us headed for the couch again. Kelly sat to the side, and gestured for Susan to resume her place on my lap, which she did, smiling at both of us. She leaned forward, and I held her in my arms as she and Kelly shared a number of small, loving kisses.

We stayed like that for the next little while, as one by one, the rest of them got up to the smell of the coffee, only to be surprised at the sight that greeted them when they wandered into the den. They could see that something had changed in Susan, and sat there quietly, watching as she drank in our love and affection the way a sponge soaks up water.

Susan finally sat up, and looked around at them, finally seeing the love and happiness all of them felt for her. Jan first, then the others, got up and came over one at a time to give her a kiss and tell her that they loved her, smiling in obvious happiness for her. When they'd all kissed her, she got up long enough to turn around on my lap, leaned back against me and pulled my arms around her, holding them in place as she looked from one to another to another, and back again.

As she was looking at Jan, I felt her suddenly start in my arms, and a couple of seconds later, heard her say "You love me."

Jan looked at her, and calmly answered "Of course".

Susan turned to look at Candice, and said "You knew I would get to this, didn't you?"

"Of course.", was the reply, again, before Susan focused on Robyn.

"You waited for me, didn't you?"

"Sure. We love you, don't we?"

Susan next looked at Sandra, saying"You would have waited, though, for as long as it took."

"We love you too much to do anything else!" was the answer, before Susan shifted her attention to Kelly.

"I'm happy – and you're happy that I'm happy, because I'm happy."

"That's it."

Susan looked at each of them in turn, before saying "And if I wanted to make love with Dan, right here and right now, none of you would mind in the slightest – except to be glad for me that I was learning what it was like to make love, and be happy that*I* was happy."

They all nodded, seeing that she was getting close.

"And if I wanted to make love with one of you, the rest would still be happy for me, for the same reasons."

They nodded again.

"And if I didn't want to make love, with anyone, you would still love me, anyway."

More nods.

"And you can do all that because you love me. And you know how much I love you, even if I didn't know it before."

Jan spoke then, simply saying "Yes."

Susan suddenly moved my arms aside and stood up, turning to face me. She looked deep into my eyes as she said "And you – you had enough love and caring inside you to bring every one of them to this; and you've still got enough to do it for me, too." She stared at me, intently, for several seconds before saying "And there's still so much more inside you – there really isn't a limit to it, is there?"

I shook my head slowly, and she suddenly turned around again, looking at all of them.

With a sense of awe and wonderment in her voice, she said "As much as I love all of you for all the good that I see in you, you love ME – the _

same way!" – before almost collapsing backwards into my lap again. I took her in my arms, and she turned to sit sideways, her legs on the couch, as she pressed herself against my chest, crying in deep, wracking sobs. I held her, softly hugging her, and all the rest of them got up to come over and caress her as they murmured words of comfort and encouragement.

After a while, her crying tapered off, and the others continued to comfort her until she finally released me to sit up to look at me. When she did, they eased back to their seats, listening as she told me "You knew all of this, didn't you?"

"Yes."

"And you gave it to us – without knowing if we'd ever really *understand* it, that we'd truly 'get it'."