Jacky S - Suburban Souls, Book I

Smike is as cheeky as his master; I send him a sweet caress, and as for his proprietor, I bite him all over.

LILIAN.

LILIAN TO JACKY.

Telegram, received July 17, 1898.

Soft kiss from your Lilian.

LILIAN.

LILIAN TO JACKY.

Telegram, received July 18, 1898

Sweetest remembrance; love, kisses.

LILIAN.

LILIAN TO JACKY.

Telegram, received July 19, 1898.

Many happy returns of the day, that we may love each other a long time yet.

LILIAN.

LILIAN TO JACKY.

Telegram, received July 20, 1898.

I am very busy. Write here. Father away. Love.

LILIAN.

LILIAN TO JACKY.

Telegram, received July 21, 1898.

Naughty darling. Best love.

LILIAN.

LILIAN TO JACKY.

Received July 22, 1898.

Papa, master,

Since you desire it, your slave submits, and although it is late, and she is very tired, she writes you a simple scrawl, for the sandman has passed and I can hardly keep my eyes open.

I have a deal of work just now, but in spite of that have a great desire to be very naughty. It is so nice, say, darling little Papa?

Women are bores. No, decidedly I love them not. My weakness is always for the strongest sex. Am I not right? See, how badly I write and what mistakes I make. No, really, I must leave you, my little bed awaits me. Nevertheless, I believe that if you were in it, I should not be long waking up, and your pussy, which is yours only, would be wetter than ever.

Your slave adores you and pines for you,

LILIAN.

A kiss for Smike.

LILIAN TO JACKY.

Received July 23, 1898.

It seems to me that you are neglecting me in no slight degree. It is probably the treatment that you follow, which by fatiguing you beyond measure, makes you lose all count. That is a pity, you know, for I do not love a dirty Papa who forgets his daughter. You are a real monster.

As I told you, Father is absent and Mother goes on Tuesday to join him. I shall never have the happiness to be able to go and join you. But also you do not make a move towards me and really one would think that you do not particularly care about me. If such is the case, you would be wrong to trouble about me. A little frankness and you shall soon be rid of me. I will never hang after you against your will, I assure you. Why should I do so? Forced love is ever worthless and I am too young to know all the tricks that certain women make use of to force men to adore them.

Once more, my very loved one, I say there is no tie that binds me to you; therefore you are quite free, especially as I won't go to the rue de Leipzig any more, and if you do not think I am worth more than that, so much the worse.

You never informed me before you started that the doctor had told you to rest and stop over Sunday, and I strongly suspect that this is only a pretext to remain absent a little longer.

Lilian is vexed.

LILIAN TO JACKY.

Telegram, received July 25, 1898.

Just one kiss. Naughty.

LILIAN.

LILIAN TO JACKY.

Telegram, received morning July 26, 1898.

Are you living?

LILIAN.

LILIAN TO JACKY.

Telegram, received evening July 26, 1898.

Am ill through you.

LILIAN.

LILIAN TO JACKY.

Telegram, received evening July 26, 1898.

Am ill through you.

LILIAN.

LILIAN TO JACKY.

Villa Lilian. July 26, 1989.

Beloved, but very bad Papa,

I ask myself why you wrote to the poste restante on Sunday, when I told you you could address your letters to me here? You had not Mamma's presence to fear, or I should not have asked you to write to our house. You might know by this time that I am more than prudent.

I have not been to Paris for the last few days, and I did not suppose I should hear from you at the rue de Strasbourg. Hence my annoyance, thinking you were neglecting me in such a brutal way.

I use the typewriter today, so as to punish you a little, and if I had a little pride, I would leave you without news of me, as you do so conscientiously. But where you are concerned, I lose my wits.

Mamma went away this morning, as I told you. I am all alone here with my dogs, like a poor little wretched Cinderella. I have very frisky ideas, but I shall not tell you what they are, as you are not kind enough to me.

Soon I shall see you, I hope, my only love; and in spite of all, I send you a million caresses, each one more passionate and more voluptuous than the other.

I hang on your dear, adored lips,

LILIAN.

LILIAN TO JACKY.

Telegram, received July 28, 1898.

Am dying to see you.

LILIAN.

LILIAN TO JACKY.

Received July 29, 1898.

My only, best, sweetest love,

When a Papa does not do what his daughter asks, what happens? He receives unmerited reproaches. I begged you to write to me here and I naturally supposed that I should not have news of you at the post-office. Thus I was furious to find myself neglected and abandoned by you. That is the reason of my famous letter of Sunday which so displeased you.

I love you too much, and every little hitch puts me out. I fancied at once that you loved some other woman. There you see the jealous daughter appears again.

What a love you are to have sent me your photograph! There is only one fault; I can see too much of Smike and not enough of you.

Since yesterday, I kiss your dear face every moment and my happiness increases when I think that I shall soon be able to do it in reality. What a scrawl, you will say, adored master, but I am so unnerved that I cannot hold my pen.

Shall I come and meet you at the station when you arrive?

I am alone, I can do so easily.

I await your coming with something more than impatience, but nevertheless, do not be imprudent, and do not leave Lamalou too early if the doctor tells you to stop. I suck you violently,

LILIAN.

LILIAN TO JACKY.

Received July 31, 1898.

My own sweetest, loved Papa,

How happy I am; one more lonely day, and then I am to see you again. I am quite silly with joy. Will you just drop your daughter a line to let her know where and at what time you wish to see her on Monday?

I notice that you do not really love me quite as much as I should like to be loved, without any afterthought.

You seem to be ashamed of your Lilian. What if someone you know should see me with you at the station? They would only think what a lucky man you are to have such a nice young girl's love. You may not think so, but so it is nevertheless.

You see, darling master, there are little things I cannot fail to notice, and sometimes I am afraid you simply mean to use me as a toy.

I hope my frankness will not sadden you again. Such is not my intention, on the contrary. But I love you truly and sincerely, so much so, that I would abandon all at a sign from you and for your sole pleasure.

Yes, in one word, mother and father, and everything and everybody.

I think that such entire love deserves in return true and sincere affection.

Your daughter desires you ardently and awaits Monday with the greatest impatience.

LILIAN.

P.S. -I have done what my master ordered. From six o'clock last night until this morning, I did not pee, although I was dying to do so in the night. So I slept very badly. I also thought constantly about my dear little Papa, who was also thinking of me.

Lady Clara seemed to take a great interest in my liaison with Lilian, and she had frequently written to Lamalou asking me for news of her. She was perfectly disinterested, as she had no Lesbian tastes, but she told me that the whole story pleased her greatly, and so I now and again gave her news of my “daughter.”

I cannot do better than copy her a few notes that I jotted down about Lilian, shortly after my return to Paris, having derived full benefit and relief from my course of baths.