Tera Patrick - Sinner Takes All

“Great. Sign me up!” I said.

I showed up on the set the next night at seven p.m. and was taken aback when I first laid eyes on my costar. Brick came out of the trailer and he looked like a Ken doll come to life. He was really tan and muscular with bleached, spiky hair. My first thought was, “Oh my God. This guy wears more makeup than me and he’s tanner than I am. He’s even in better shape than me. What the hell am I going to do?”

He walked over to me and shook my hand. “Hi, Tera. I’m Brick. I’m happy that we’re going to be working together.” He was so nice and professional, but I began to feel some butterflies in my stomach. This was a big leap. Posing nude is one thing. Doing girl-on-girl porn is another. But this was the real deal—I was about to make a hardcore adult film with a man. I remember thinking to myself, “OK. Here’s where the switch comes in. I just have to turn that switch on, and I just have to have sex. This is easy. I can do this.” But really, I had no idea what I was doing or how to prepare for a scene. I brushed my teeth before my first scene with Brick, and the director yelled at me. “No. No. You’re supposed to use mouthwash. If you use a toothbrush, you might get microscopic cuts in your mouth, and that’s not safe.”I had no idea what the positions were either. I was really winging it. I got my script and it said “reverse cowgirl,” and I was like a deer caught in headlights. “Huh? Reverse what?” I asked.

“It’s like cowgirl, but backwards,” said the director, Nicholas Steele, who was a blond, Californian surfer-looking guy.

“Cowgirl backwards? So my back faces him?! Oh my God! How do I prop myself up?”

The cameraman had to walk me through every position. I told him, “Listen, this is my first movie. I don’t know what any of these positions are.”

He told me, “Don’t worry. I’ll show you before we get to each scene.”

Once I got famous, I refused to do reverse cowgirl again. I just don’t have the leg strength for that. It’s a hard position for a girl. It’s quite the workout, and I hated to work out. I became known as a “pillow queen.” A pillow queen is a porn girl who just gets fucked and looks beautiful and doesn’t do as much of the hardcore work. I was fine with that.

PORN SEX POSITIONS:

• COWGIRL: The woman sits on top of the guy, facing him.

• REVERSE COWGIRL: The woman sits on top of the guy with her back to him. This is a director’s dream, but an actress’s worst nightmare.

• PILE DRIVER:The woman lies on her back with her legs over her head, and the guy is on top and over her.

• MISSIONARY: Same as your regular missionary, but to get a good angle on a porn shoot, the girl usually has to put her leg up on his shoulder and the other leg is open wide to the camera.

• DOGGY-STYLE: Doggy-style in porn can be any number of ways where the guy takes you from behind. You can be on all fours. You can be standing. You can be kneeling. You can even be leaning up on a wall.

• SPOON: He lies behind you and you’re lying side-by-side. It’s like spooning when you cuddle, but with a penis inside you.

• SCISSORS: This is usually associated with lesbian sex where two girls are touching pussy-to-pussy with their legs in an open scissor position. For a guy and girl, the girl lies on her side with her legs open and the guy is either kneeling or standing and inserts himself inside her.

Even though he looked like a Ken doll and that wasn’t exactly my type, I found it easy to get aroused by Brick. It felt oddly natural to me. I wasn’t very sexually active at this time in my life, so I was pretty excited to just be having sex. Even while I was doing magazines, I decided that I was going to be single so that I didn’t have the distraction of a boyfriend. Instead, I wanted to devote my time to building my career. As I did more movies, I would get so excited before going to work. “Woo-hoo! I’m getting laid today! Plus I’m getting $1,000! Yeah!” Money really is a powerful aphrodisiac.

When the time came for our scene, I didn’t need any lube because I was naturally wet from being so excited to fuck on camera. I moved onto my hands and knees on this little stage area to get into the first position: doggy-style. But when I reached around the back to get more traction by grabbing onto his leg, I immediately pulled my hand away. His leg felt like wax and it kind of freaked me out. I hadn’t noticed that he was completely hairless, and that waxed leg felt like a mannequin’s. I had never been with a guy who had shaved his legs before. It was the weirdest feeling that I had ever felt in my life. I thought, “What is this? This guy is smooth like a baby! He’s smoother than me!”

Between getting used to a porn guy’s shaved legs (I later found out that was pretty common for porn guys) and learning how to do all of these sex positions, I was pretty out of my element. Luckily, there wasn’t much acting. The only direction I got was the director saying, “We need to hear more from you. Say more!” I didn’t know what to say, so I remembered the direction I got on my Playboy shoot, so I started going “Oooh” and “Ahhh.” That seemed to do the trick. The director was happy.

Getting penetrated on film for the first time was a bit shocking to me. I was super excited by it and really into the scene, but at the same time I felt vulnerable at having all of these people watching me. Some people can’t even be seen in public in a bathing suit, but here I am getting fucked by a Ken doll on camera. I knew that I was not like the average girl. Things like this turned me on. I wasn’t ashamed. I wanted more. At the same time, I was blown away by my own decision to do this. I kept thinking to myself, “This is crazy. This is crazy. This is crazy.”

We finished, shook hands, and my day’s work was completed. It was all very cordial. Leaving the set that night, I was pretty excited. Working with Brick had been a real pleasure. Everyone involved in the production was very nice to me. Patty Rhodes and I became friends. I ended up working for her a lot.

“So, what do you think?” Patty asked me post-shoot.

“It was fun. But you know, Brick isn’t really my type. I like it a bit rougher,” I said.

“Don’t worry, girl. I’ve got plenty of guys that will be your type,” Patty said.

At about two a.m., I headed home and went to bed. It had all been pretty exhausting, but it was worth it. The money was great and I had fun. I tossed and turned all night thinking, (a) I can’t believe I just did that and (b) I can’t wait to do it all over again.

People say porn is degrading to women. I’m no fool. Of course, porn can be degrading to women. Some pornos have scenes in which a man steps on a woman’s head, which may sound freaky to you but is pretty common in the industry. It’s not one I’ve ever done because, to me, it is degrading. In other movies the men spit on women, but I won’t let anyone spit on me. Double and triple anal isn’t for me either. Putting two or three cocks in a woman’s ass is solely about degrading her. One is enough for me. Some girls don’t like getting a facial (that’s when a guy cums all over your face). But that’s a big turn-on for me. It’s so dirty that it’s hot, and I didn’t care if it ruined my makeup. There was only one rule: don’t shoot me in the eye. But it’s happened by accident and I didn’t have any hard feelings. I just said, “Get me a baby wipe, please,” and continued on. I have my rules, I play by them, I make others follow them, and the consequence is that I don’t get hurt. It’s really been as simple as “A, B, C, don’t fuck with me.”