Russell Andrews - Aphrodite

"Oh my God. Killed him?"

"No. Worse, in a way. Paralyzed him. Turned him into a quadriplegic."

"Did they ever find the guy who did it?"

"That's the thing. It seemed kind of impossible. It was random, you know? And that's the hardest kind of crime to solve because there's no rhyme or reason. Most cops would give it a shot for a while, then forget about it. But there's this cop in Providence, Billy DiPezio-he's the chief of police. A strange, funny guy. All squinty and leathery, drinks like a fish and smokes a ton. Very controversial up there-a lot of people want him out but he's got too much dirt on everyone; he's untouchable. Anyway, he took a personal interest in what happened to Albie. I'm not sure why. I think it just made him sad. So he decided to solve it. He wanted the prick who did it behind bars. Billy came and talked to a bunch of Albie's friends, to get any background information that might be useful. Fairly standard stuff. I told him a few of Albie's hangouts, his habits, stuff like that. He thanked me and got ready to leave and I asked him where he was going. He said he was going to Waggoner's-that was one of Albie's hangouts-and for some strange reason I asked if I could go with him. Even stranger was that he said yes. We went to the club and I listened while Billy asked a bunch of questions-was Albie flashing any money lately, had he gotten into any heated conversations, had anybody been paying any special attention to him, that kind of thing. He just beat it into the ground, wouldn't give up. He let me tag along, figured I couldn't really get in the way, and he liked talking to me. Billy likes an audience and the fact that my parents were who they are didn't hurt-Billy likes rich people, too. I spent two weeks with him and the son of a bitch solved the case. He found the guy. Did it with shoe leather, just kept pounding and pounding until one thing led to another and he got what he needed. It was amazing to me. I loved Billy's bravado, but most of all I loved the fact that he brought someone to justice who otherwise would have been free to fuck up a lot of other lives. So a week after Billy arrested the guy, I went and took a test and passed and I joined the police force. Went to work for Billy and became a cop. That's what I wanted to be."

"Your parents?"

"General hysteria. Which died down eventually, but my father never got past his anger over my decision. I no longer had the right image for the family. I wasn't someone he could parade around and talk about how successful I was."

"Families are complicated."

"Yeah. Well, there were other complications, too. I got married when I was a senior at Princeton. Her name was Alicia. And…um… she liked the idea of being married to a Harvard doctor too. It took a lot of adjustment to go from that to being the wife of a Providence cop."

"She left you?"

"No, no. God, no. We were incredibly in love and that was what counted. At least that's what we thought."

He fell silent, stared away from Deena, off to the side, into the darkness of the motel room.

"What happened after that, Jay?"

"Alicia and I had a kid, that's what happened. And I turned out to be a hell of a cop. I liked being a tough guy. Took the meanest calls, got a reputation on the streets. It took me three years to work my way up to Homicide. I got there because I solved a murder no one else could figure out. An academic, guy in his mid-fifties, history professor at Brown, disappeared. His wife reported him missing, said he just didn't show up one night. Everyone thought she did it; I didn't think she was the type. I spent some time with her. She was his second wife, she told me; they'd only been married a few years. Her husband had a son from his first marriage; she said he was a nice boy but had problems. She didn't tell me what the problems were. The kid was in his twenties now; he was staying with her to help her out during this difficult period. I talked to him, something didn't seem right. So I did some checking. There was no first wife. There was no son. The kid was a street kid, an orphan. This very respectable professor, he'd been molesting the boy since the kid was ten, twelve years old. The boy lived with the professor, didn't know anything else, so he let our guy support him as an adult, too. He had an apartment that the professor paid for. They were lovers right up until the night the kid killed him."

"Oh my God. Why did the guy get married if he was-"

"I don't know. It wasn't my job to psychoanalyze him. People are sick. They hurt in all sorts of ways. People do things that, until you actually see them firsthand, you think are inconceivable. I used to tell Alicia about some of it, but she didn't want to know. She didn't like that I knew it either. Didn't like that I saw the things I saw. I didn't blame her. She thought she was marrying a doctor and that she'd spend her nights going to charity dinners and dances at the country club. She didn't want to know about men fucking little boys and people getting chopped up and the garbage that I had decided to cover our lives with." He was trembling again and he knew it was time to finish the story. "So, anyway, I became a hotshot. The star of the force, if you will. And when I wasn't being a cop I was a dad. We had a little girl. Lili, we called her. That was Alicia's favorite movie, the one with that French actress and all those puppets. She was a great kid. A lot like Kendall. Smart and funny-and sweet. God, so sweet. Even my dad, who's not the warmest guy in the world, couldn't resist her. Spoiled her like crazy. He loved her so much he could almost forget what a disappointment I was. Then, right before Lili's eighth birthday, I made a big arrest. Providence has a decent-size organized-crime population. There was a guy there, been there for years, basically the number-two guy in the New England Mafia. Involved in a lot of union stuff and local politics. Louie Denbo was his name. He was a bad guy but everybody pretty much left him alone. Cops, politicians, no one wanted to deal with it and it was just about money-there wasn't much killing-so no one really cared. It's a separate world, the Mafia up there. He was a character, he talked funny, and he was quoted a lot in the papers, so people thought he was-I don't know-a cute Mafia guy or something. But then he crossed the line. He hit a banker, someone my dad knew pretty well. There was a financial scandal going on and the guy owed a lot of money and some of it he owed to Louie. So Louie took him out. Only he overdid it. He had his guys do the hit in a restaurant and they took out three others, innocent bystanders. Well, I got him. It was three months of serious police work-Louie was incredibly well protected-but I got him. And he knew I had him.

"The day before the trial started, I was home with Alicia and Lili. It was after dinner. I didn't hear anything-I don't know how, but I didn't. In my dream, I do. I hear them every single time. It's like a premonition. But that night I didn't hear a thing. I was watching TV and I looked up and there were three guys in my house. They worked for Louie Denbo. I knew them, and as soon as I saw them I knew why they were there. But the crazy thing is, what they wanted to do, it didn't matter. I mean, I was going to testify against Louie, but the prosecution didn't need me. I was the icing on the cake. So they couldn't even help him. It was just spite. I'd taken Louie down, so he was going to take me down. I was sitting in a lounge chair, with my feet up. Lili was helping Alicia do the dishes. They were going over the multiplication tables while they were cleaning up. One of the guys-his name was Jerry-he pointed the gun at Lili and he pulled the trigger and he killed her. He didn't even say anything. He just shot her. She was standing next to Alicia and-" Justin closed his eyes now, he could see it all, picture it perfectly with his eyes closed-"and my daughter's brains splattered all over my wife's pants and shirt. I tried to get out of the chair, but they shot me. Once above the knee, once in the chest, once in the back. I went down. Stayed on the floor. They thought I was dead."