Paul Cleave - Joe Victim

“The police will be visiting your mother,” Melissa says, turning toward me.

“Huh?”

“They’ll be waiting for us there.”

I’m not following her train of thought. Hopefully our relationship isn’t going to be based on her not making sense and me trying to figure her out. “Why? They’ll know I was shot. My mother would be the last place they’d think I’d go.”

“I’m not so sure. I think it’ll be one of the first places, not because the police think you’ll go there, but because they have to start sending people somewhere rather than nowhere. They have more manpower than they do ideas, so they can afford to send them all on wild-goose chases. They’ll send people there just for the act of something to do.”

I shake my head. “Normally I’d agree, but today is different. Mom isn’t home. That’s what makes breaking in there and getting the money so much easier for us.”

“Where is she?”

“She’s getting married today.”

“Do the police know that?”

“No,” I say. “Shit, but of course the police don’t know that, so they have no reason not to go to her house. Maybe they’ve been already and found out she wasn’t home.”

Melissa shakes her head. “Or maybe they’ve been and left people there. We can’t go there, Joe. We can’t take the risk.”

She’s right. I know she’s right. But fifty thousand dollars is too much money to just not think about. There has to be another way.

“Plus we don’t even know that she drew the money out,” she adds.

“She will have,” I say. Over the years I’ve dipped into my mom’s savings hidden under her bed. If I had done that when I was a teenager instead of going to my aunt’s house, I wonder how different life would have turned out. Only I didn’t know it back then.

“We should just head back home.”

“Home,” I say, thinking about what home is now. It’s not jail. It’s not my mother’s. It’s not my apartment. It’s Melissa’s house. Home is with her and a baby.

“Unless you’ve got somewhere better to be?” she asks, and she says it in an accusing way that makes me think of my mother.

“Of course not,” I tell her, and then because I think she needs to hear it, I say, “I love you.”

She smiles. “I would hope so,” she says. “After what I’ve gone through to get you here.”

She turns the car around. We start heading back the way we came. I divide my time between staring out the window, and staring at her. She looks different from that weekend we spent together. Part of it is the wig. She looks puffier in the face and neck and her eyes are a different color too, meaning she’s either wearing contacts or she was wearing contacts when I met her last year.

“What?” she asks, looking at me.

“Just remembering how beautiful you are,” I tell her.

She smiles. “You know what I’m thinking about?”

I nod. I know. But like I thought earlier people are apt to start making phone calls.

“I’m thinking about that money,” she says. “There has to be a way to get to it.”

“You’re right, though. We can’t risk going to my mother’s. Not now anyway.”

“You’re sure the police don’t know about your mother’s wedding plans?”

I think about it. My mother wanted me to be at the wedding. She wanted me to get the warden to let me out for the day. Will she have followed that up? Will she have gone to the police to try and talk them into releasing me just for that?

“If there’s a wedding,” she says, “often there’s a honeymoon. If the police know she’s gone away, they’ll stop watching the house, which means. . Joe, hey, are you okay?”

I’m not okay. I’m thinking about the honeymoon. I had forgotten about that. I don’t know where they’ll be going. Somewhere awful. I’m thinking about the fifty thousand dollars my mother will have drawn out in cash.

“Joe?”

I’m thinking that money may not be at the house at all, but with her, that their honeymoon starts right after the wedding and the trip will consist of her and Walt and all that cash. She doesn’t think I’m ever getting out of jail. She doesn’t see any reason not to spend it.

“Joe? What’s wrong?”

“We need to go to the wedding. We need to find my mother now.”

“Why?”

Because I know my mother. I tell Melissa this and she keeps on driving, her hands tightening on the wheel.

“We should just let it go,” she says.

“It’s not in my nature to let things go,” I tell her.

“It’s not in mine either. Do you know where the wedding is?”

“I can’t. . Oh, wait,” I say, and I lean sideways and reach into my pants and find the invitation I’d folded in half this morning, the invitation I was hoping would bring me some luck. It seems it’s done just that. I hand it to her. She glances at it then back at the road.

“We should let it go,” she says. “We can see her in a few months and if there’s anything left-”

“I went through a lot to earn that money,” I tell her.

“And I went through a lot to get us to this point.”

“The police have no reason to go there,” I say.

She seems to agree, because we stop talking about it and we start driving in the direction of my mother’s big day.

Schroder is sitting down at the kitchen table. There’s nobody else in the room. His hands are still cuffed behind him and he’s doing his best to stay as still as possible because any movement brings him close to passing out. His mind is still buzzing. The sling is still hanging from his neck. The third syringe he took from the ambulance is sitting on the table in front of him, and the second shot he took earlier isn’t helping in this position. A minute ago Hutton came in to check on him, and then to abuse him too-by the end of the day there was a good chance Hutton would be losing his job. Or at the very least he would be suspended. Perhaps demoted. It was a world of possibility.

“Where’s the gun?” Hutton asks, keeping his voice low.

“I lost it.”

“They patted you down. Where’d you hide it?”

“I can’t remember,” Schroder says, and he knows Hutton can’t mention it to anybody else. Not only is Hutton in a world of trouble for letting Schroder come here, but if they found out he came here armed, then getting suspended or fired would be the least of his problems.

“Goddamn it, Carl, you promised me.”

“Nobody knows I have it,” he says, “and I promise I’ll never say you knew I had it.”

“You don’t make great promises,” Hutton says.

“I intend to keep the one I made Kent.”

Hutton walks out. Superintendent Dominic Stevens walks in. Stevens is the man who covered Schroder’s crime four weeks ago. He’s the man that fired him.

“What the fuck is wrong with you?” Stevens asks. “Don’t you see what you’ve become? What you’re becoming? I could have you arrested for this. You could have cost people their lives.”

“Kent-”

“I don’t give a fuck about any of your excuses,” Stevens says, “or your reasons. You’re more trouble than you’re worth. You used to be a great cop, and now. . now I don’t know.” He sighs, then leans against the kitchen counter. He takes a few seconds to calm down. “Listen, Carl, I know how much you’re hurting these days, and I know you’re probably blaming yourself for some of what’s happened, but you can’t be here. You just can’t. And the man I used to know would have known that.”

Schroder doesn’t have an answer.

“Do I need to carry on?”

“No,” Schroder says.

“I’m tempted to leave you in cuffs for the next twenty-four hours. What’s wrong with your arm? Is it broken?”