Росс Макдональд - The Goodbye Look

“I love him dearly.”

“You may love him too damn dearly. I think you and your husband have been giving him a bad break in trying to over-protect him. If he actually killed anyone the facts are going to have to be brought out.”

She shook her head resignedly. “You don’t know the circumstances.”

“Then tell me.”

“I can’t.”

“You might save yourself a lot of time and money, Mrs. Chalmers. You might save your son’s sanity, or his life.”

“Dr. Smitheram says his life is not in danger.”

“Dr. Smitheram hasn’t been talking to the people I’ve been talking to. There have been three killings over a period of fifteen years–”

“Be quiet.”

Her voice was low and frantic. She looked up and down the corridor, her gesture mocked and cartooned by her shadow on the wall. In spite of her sex and her elegance I was reminded of Randy Shepherd’s furtive sidelong peerings.

“I won’t be quiet,” I said. “You’ve lived in fear so long you need a taste of reality. There have been three killings, as I said, and they all seem to be connected. I didn’t say that Nick was guilty of all three. He may not have done any of them.”

She shook her head despairingly.

I went on: “Even if he killed the man in the railroad yards, it was a far cry from murder. He was protecting himself against a kidnapper, a wanted man named Eldon Swain who was carrying a gun. As I reconstruct the shooting, he made a rough pass at your little boy. The boy got hold of his gun and shot him in the chest.”

She looked up in surprise. “How do you know all this?”

“I don’t know all of it. It’s partly reconstruction from what Nick told me himself. And I had a chance to talk today with an old con named Randy Shepherd. If I can believe him at all, he went to Pacific Point with Eldon Swain but got cold feet when Swain started planning the kidnapping.”

“Why did they pick on us?” she said intently.

“That didn’t come out. I suspect Randy Shepherd was more deeply involved than he admits. Shepherd seems to be connected with all three killings, at least as a catalyst. Sidney Harrow was a friend of Shepherd’s, and Shepherd was the one who got Jean Trask interested in looking for her father.”

“Her father?”

“Eldon Swain was her father.”

“And you say that this Swain person was carrying a gun?”

“Yes. We know it was the same gun that killed him, and the same gun that killed Sidney Harrow. All of which makes me doubt that Nick killed Harrow. He couldn’t very well have kept that gun hidden for the last fifteen years.”

“No.” Her eyes were wide and bright yet somehow abstract, like a hawk’s, looking over the entire span of those years. “I’m sure he didn’t,” she said finally.

“Did he ever mention the gun to you?”

She nodded. “When he came home – he found his own way home. He said a man picked him up on our street and took him to the railroad yards. He said he grabbed a gun and shot the man. Larry and I didn’t believe him – we thought it was little-boy talk – till we saw it in the paper next day, about the body being found in the yards.”

“Why didn’t you go to the police?”

“By that time it was too late.”

“It’s not too late even now.”

“It is for me – for all of us.”

“Why?”

“The police wouldn’t understand.”

“They’d understand very well if he killed in self-defense. Did he ever tell you why he shot the man?”

“He never did.” She paused, and her eyes were suffused with feeling.

“And what happened to the gun?”

“He left it lying there, I guess. The police said in the paper the weapon couldn’t be found, and Nicky certainly didn’t bring it home with him. Some hobo must have picked it up.”

My mind went back to Randy Shepherd. He had been on or near the spot, and he had been very eager to disconnect himself from the kidnapping. I shouldn’t have let him go, I thought: a half million dollars was a critical mass of money, enough to convert any thief into a murderer.

Mrs. Chalmers and I walked back to the visitors’ room, where Dr. Smitheram and his wife were talking to Larry Chalmers.

The doctor greeted me with a smile that failed to touch his dubious, probing eyes. “Moira tells me you took her to dinner. Thanks very much.”

“It was a pleasure. What are my chances of talking to your patient?”

“Minimal. Nonexistent, in fact.”

“Even for a minute?”

“It wouldn’t be a good idea, for both physical and psychiatric reasons.”

“How is he?”

“He has a giant hangover, of course, and he’s depressed both physically and emotionally. That’s partly the overdose of reserpine. Also he has a bit of a concussion.”

“What caused it?”

“I’d say he was hit on the back of the head with a blunt object. But forensic medicine is not my line. Anyway, he’s doing surprisingly well. I owe you a vote of thanks for getting him here in time.”

“We all do,” Chalmers said, and shook hands with me formally. “You saved my son’s life.”

“We were lucky, both of us. It would be nice if the luck continued.”

“What do you mean, exactly?”

“I think Nick’s room should be guarded.”

“You think he might get away again?” Chalmers said.

“That’s a thought. It hadn’t occurred to me. What I had in mind was protection for him.”

“He has round-the-clock nurses,” Dr. Smitheram said.

“He needs an armed guard. There have been several killings; we don’t want another.” I turned to Chalmers: “I can get you three shifts for about a hundred dollars a day.”

“By all means,” Chalmers said.

I went downstairs and made a couple of phone calls. The first was to a Los Angeles guard service with a San Diego branch. They said they would have a man named Maclennan on duty in half an hour. Then I called Conchita’s Cabins in Imperial Beach. Mrs. Williams answered in a hushed and worried voice.

“This is Archer. Has Randy Shepherd been back?”

“No, and he probably won’t be.” She lowered her voice even further. “You’re not the only one looking for him. They have the place staked out.”

I was glad to hear it, because it meant I wouldn’t have to stake it out myself.

“Thanks, Mrs. Williams. Take it easy.”

“That’s easier said than done. Why didn’t you tell me Sidney Harrow was dead?”

“It wouldn’t have done you any good to know.”

“You can say that again. I’m putting this place up for sale as soon as I get them out of my hair.”

I wished her good luck, and went out the front door for some air. After a while Moira Smitheram came out and joined me.

She lit a cigarette from a fresh pack and smoked it as if she was being timed by a stop watch. “You don’t smoke, do you?”

“I gave it up.”

“So did I. But I still smoke when I’m angry.”

“What are you angry about now?”

“Ralph again. He’s going to sleep in the hospital tonight so he can be on call. I might as well be married to a Trappist.”

Her anger sounded superficial, as if it was masking some deeper feeling. I waited for that feeling to show itself. She threw her cigarette away and said: “I hate motels. You wouldn’t be driving back to the Point tonight?”

“West Los Angeles. I can drop you off on the way.”

“You’re very kind.” Under the formal language I could sense an excitement echoing mine. “Why are you going to West Los Angeles?”

“I live there. I like to sleep in my own apartment. It’s just about the only continuity in my life.”

“I thought you abhorred continuity. You said at dinner you liked to move in and out of people’s lives.”