Elizabeth George: Careless in Red

“And why would you want to do that, Cadan?”

Cadan shrugged. “You’re my dad,” he said. “Blood’s thicker than…well, you know.”

“What about Adventures Unlimited?”

“That didn’t work out.” Cadan saw his father’s expression alter to one of resignation. He hastened to add, “I know what you’re thinking but they didn’t sack me. It’s just that I’d rather work for you. We’ve got something here and we shouldn’t let it…die.”

Die. There was the frightening word. Cadan hadn’t realised just how frightening die actually was until this moment because he’d spent his life so focused on another word entirely and that word was leave. Yet trying to stay one step ahead of loss didn’t prevent loss from happening, did it? The Bounder still bounded and other people still walked away. As Cadan himself had done time and again before it could be done to him, as Cadan’s father had done for much the same reasons.

But some things endured in spite of one’s dread, and one of them was the blessing of blood.

“I want to help you,” Cadan said. “I’ve been playing it stupid. You’re the expert, after all, and I reckon you know how I can learn this business.”

“And that’s what you want to do? Learn this business?”

“Right,” Cadan said.

“What about the bike? The X Games or whatever they are?”

“At the moment, this is more important. I’ll do what I can to keep it important.” Cadan peered at his father closely then. “That good enough for you, Dad?”

“I don’t understand. Why would you want to do it, Cade?”

“Because of what I just called you, you nutter.”

“What was that?”

“Dad,” Cadan said.

SELEVAN HAD WATCHED JAGO drive off, and he wondered about all the time he’d spent with the bloke. He could come up with no answers to the questions that were filling his head. No matter how he looked at things, he couldn’t suss out what the other man had meant and something told him that the entire subject didn’t bear too much consideration anyway. He’d phoned LiquidEarth nonetheless in the hope that Jago’s employer might shed some light on the situation. But what he’d learned told him that whatever Jago had meant by finished, it wasn’t connected to surfboards. Beyond that, he realised he didn’t want to know. Perhaps he was being an out-and-out coward, but some things, he decided, were none of his business.

Tammy wasn’t one of them. He got into the car with all her possessions packed, and he drove to Clean Barrel Surf Shop. He didn’t go in at once to fetch her as there was time to dispense with before she closed the shop for the day. So he parked down on the wharf and he walked from there to Jill’s Juices where he purchased a takeaway coffee-extra strong.

Then he returned to the wharf where he walked the length of it on its north side, edging along the canal. Several fishing boats nudged the dock here, barely bobbing in the water. Mallards floated placidly near them-an entire family of them with mum and dad and, unbelievably, a dozen babies-and a kayaker paddled silently in the direction of Launceston, taking exercise in the late afternoon.

Selevan realised that it felt like spring. It had been spring for more than six weeks now, of course, but that had been a spring of the calendar until this point. This was a spring of weather. True, there was brisk wind off the sea, but it felt different, as the wind does when the weather shifts. On it the scent of newly turned earth came to him from someone’s garden, and he saw that in the window boxes of the town’s library, winter pansies had been replaced with petunias.

He walked to the end of the wharf, where the old canal lock was closed, holding back the water till someone wanted to go out to sea in one of the fishing boats. From this vantage point, he could see the town rising above him to the north, with the old Promontory King George Hotel-a place for adventurous tourists now-acting as doorman to a different world.

Things change, Selevan thought. That had proved the case in his life, even when it had seemed to him that nothing was ever going to change at all. He’d wanted a career in the Royal Navy to escape what he’d seen as a life of unfaltering drudgery, but the fact of the matter was that the details of that life had altered in minute ways, which led to big ways, which led to life not being drudgery at all if one just paid attention . His kids grew; he and the wife turned older; a bull was brought by to service the cows; calves were born; the sky was bright one day and threatening the next; David moved off to join the army; Nan ran off to marry…One could call it good or bad or one could just call it life. And life continued. A bloke didn’t get what he wanted all the time, and that’s just how it was. One could thrash about and hate that fact or one could cope. He’d seen that daft poster in the library one time and he’d scoffed at it: When life gives you lemons, make lemonade. Bloody stupid, he’d thought. But not really, he saw now. Not altogether.

He took a deep breath. One could taste the salt air in this spot. More than at Sea Dreams because Sea Dreams was way up on the cliff and here the sea was close, yards away, and it beat against the reefs and wore them down, patiently, drawn by the course of nature and physics or magnetic forces or whatever it was because he didn’t know and it didn’t matter.

He finished his takeaway coffee and crushed the cup in his hand. He carried this back to a bin and paused there to light a fag, which he smoked on the way to Clean Barrel. There, Tammy was working at the till. The cash drawer was open and she was counting up the day’s take, alone in the shop. She hadn’t heard him come in.

He observed her in silence. He saw Dot in her, which was odd, as he’d never seen the similarity before. But there it was, in the way she cocked her head and exposed an ear. And the shape of that ear…that little dip in the earlobe…it was Dot all right and he remembered that because…oh this was the worst of it, but he’d seen that earlobe time and again as he’d mounted her and done his loveless business on her and there couldn’t have been a scrap of pleasure in it for the poor woman, which he regretted now. He hadn’t loved her, but that hadn’t been a fault of hers, had it, although he’d blamed her for not being whatever it was he’d thought she should be in order for him to love her.

He harrumphed because things were dead tight inside him and a good harrumph had always loosened them up a bit. The noise made Tammy raise her head, and when she saw him, she looked a bit wary and who could blame her. They’d been having rather a dicey time of it. She’d not spoken to him other than in polite response to what he said to her since he’d found that letter under her mattress and waved it in her face.

“Shouldn’t be in here alone,” he told her.

“Why not?” She put her hands on either side of the cash drawer, and for a moment Selevan thought she was doing it because she expected him to leap on the funds and shove them down the front of his flannel shirt. But then she pulled it out altogether and carried it to the back room, where extra inventory and cleaning supplies and the like were kept along with an overlarge antique safe. She stowed the cash drawer inside this safe, slammed its door home, and twirled the combination lock. Then she shut the back room door, locked this as well, and put the key in a hidey spot that had been created for it on the underside of the telephone.

Selevan said to her, “Best ring up your guv, girl.” He was aware that his voice was gruff, but it was always gruff when he spoke to her, and he couldn’t make it any different.