Wait, Caitlin says. Please, wait. I know you gave Penn that note at the Ramada Inn. I know you tried to disguise yourself, but he recognized you. He thought you worked at a restaurant, but I found you anyway.
I used to work at a restaurant, the girl says in a dazed voice. Frankys Pizza. I liked it there, but I kept putting on weight. I had to quit.
Caitlin nods with empathy.
But I don't know nothing about no note, Darla says, twice as loudly as shed spoken before.
Caitlin cant help but smile at this obvious lie.
But you knew exactly what I was referring to when I mentioned the Ramada and Penn Cage.
Darla licks her lips, then looks around as though suspicious someone is watching her.
I was at the Ramada, she says. So were a lot of people. And I did see the mayor there. But I don't know nothin bout no note. I haven't passed notes to men since grade school.
Caitlin takes a step forward and speaks with sisterly intimacy. I'm trying to help Linda Church. Shes in terrible danger, more even than she knows. I know you've been trying to help her, you and your friends. But she needs more help than that.
Fear glitters in Darlas eyes. I told you, I don't know nothin bout any a that. I gotta get back to work. I got customers.
I don't see any customers, Caitlin says gently. But I'll be glad to buy something if youll tell me just a little bit of the truth.
I did, Darla insists.
Have you seen Linda yourself? The reason I'm asking you is because of your eye makeup. I saw you didn't know how to put it
on, and I figured that if Linda was with you, she would have fixed it for you.
Darla looks on the verge of tears. Her neck is splotchy, and her breath is going shallow. I cant talk anymore. Please, go away. Leave me alone.
Caitlin reaches into her purse and hands Darla a card with her cell number on it. I want the same thing you do, Darla. I want Linda to be safe. Please call me later. Think about all this. Youll know its the right thing to do.
Darla accepts the card with a shaking hand, then turns and hurries down the aisle toward a collection of Chinese lawn mowers.
Caitlin knows the girl is lying, but sometimes you have to stop pushing and let the source make her own decision. With a girl as skittish as Darla McRaney, it shouldnt take long.
CHAPTER
40
Car doors close with a disturbing finality in cemeteries. Tim lies under the earth now, a few flowers on top of his coffin, dropped in by family and friends. He wasn't buried on Catholic Hill, but he does lie within sight of it. This wasn't a punishment, but a matter of limited space. Green Astroturf carpet conceals the mound of dirt that the backhoe will use to fill in the grave. The familiar green canopy of McDonoughs funeral home keeps the sun off the few people who remain: Dr. Jessup and his wife, some relations from California, Julia and the baby.
A second knot of people stands several yards away, mostly pallbearers, myself among them. These men I knew as boys flew so far to do their somber duty, and though most of us haven't seen each other much in the past twenty-five years, were as comfortable as brothers who live on separate coasts. Paul Labry stands with us, waiting, as I asked him to do at the cathedral.
After a couple of quiet jokes, well-concealed smiles, and well-meant but empty promises to stay in touch, the guys head for their rented cars. After the short line of vehicles disappears up the lane, I turn to Paul, but find myself facing Julia Jessup. Shes left Tim junior with his grandmother. Her eyes are bloodshot, the skin around them raw and swollen.
Labry takes a step back out of courtesy, but one hard glance from Julia sends him back another twenty feet.
I know I look bad, she says in a cracked voice. I'm not getting much sleep. Tim used to help me with the baby. A lot more than most men do, I think. And Tim juniors not sleeping well at all now.
I'm sorry, Julia.
Are you? Her hollow eyes probe mine. I came over here because I want you to know something. I didn't want Tim doing what he did. The thing that got him killed. But he did it anyway. I think you should know that he did it for his father, and for you.
A wave of heat goes through my face. Me?
She nods with conviction. Tim really had you up on a pedestal. A lot of people do, I think. He never forgot how close you were when you were young, and when you stopped being friends, he blamed himself. He thought hed let you down somehow. You went on to be a big success, and he wound up dealing cards on a casino boat. I told him that was honest work and nothing to be ashamed of, but it didn't help. He was ashamed. And after he found out whatever was really going on with that boat, it just ate at him until he had to do something.
I'm truly sorry, Julia. Tim was a good man, and I wish he hadn't gotten involved with any of that. I wish I hadn't let him.
I just want to know if it did any good, she says. Because my son is going to have to live the rest of his life without a father. Was it worth it, Penn? Did Tim accomplish one goddamned thing by dying?
While I try to find a suitable answer, Julia says, What about
you
? Have you done what you promised you would do?
As I try to recall exactly what I promised Tim that night, his widow turns and walks back to his grave without waiting for an answer.
What was that about? Labry asks, coming up behind me.
Did you hear any of it?
He shakes his head. She made it pretty clear that was a private conversation.
I take deep breath and blow out a long rush of air, trying to flush the guilt from my system. Lets go over there, away from the family.
We walk a little way up the lane, then climb some steps to a hill shaded by cedar trees. Like most of the names in this cemetery, the one engraved on the stones in this plot is familiar to me. A cool but gentle breeze blows over the hill, and the sun shines bright enough to warm the bricks of the wall around the plot. Leaning back against the wall, I regard Paul Labry.
Where most of the Catholics in Natchez are Irish or Italian, Paul is of French descent. By marriage, hes related to the Acadians forced by the Spanish to live near what would become the infamous Morville Plantation. Labry has dark eyes and skin and hes still handsome despite losing some hair and putting on weight. He looks more like an aging poet than the manager of an office-supply business, but I never cease to be amazed by how poorly some people fit the stereotype of their occupation.
Paul, I want to tell you something that I haven't told anyone else.
I thought you wanted to ask me something.
That too. I've decided to step down as mayor.
What?
He looks me from head to toe. Youre not sick, are you?
Tim asked me the same thing the night we met here. No, its not that. My reasons are personal, mostly to do with Annie and Caitlin.
Pauls watching me like a man who still cant believe what hes hearing. Are you guys getting back together? You and Caitlin?
If shell have me.
Are you kidding? You know she loves you.
Not enough to live here with me.
He purses his lips while he mulls this over. Is that it, then? You want to stay in Natchez, but you feel you cant?
No. Its time for me to go. The reason I'm talking to you is that I want you to stand for mayor in the special election after I'm gone.
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