Ronald Malfi - Floating Staircase

“What about the fact that the kid’s body was never found?”

“My guess is it’ll show up sometime in the spring when the lake thaws. Point I’m trying to make is I’m not sitting around here with my thumb up my ass. I know how to run an investigation. I don’t need you sniffing around in my shit. Comprende?”

Rising off the desk, Strohman returned to his seat. The chair’s casters squealed. “So tell me what I have to do to put your mind at ease.”

“Aside from reopening the investigation, I assume?”

“This is a good town. The people are better served forgetting about an accidental drowning than to be the center of a homicide investigation that would never go anywhere.”

“That’s bullshit.”

“I’m patient with you because your brother’s a good cop and a good man. Anyone else and I would have let Dentman file those charges. Think about that.” He checked his wristwatch. “Officer Cordova will drive you home now.”

CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT

When we turned into the cul-de-sac and Cordova spun the cruiser around in a tight semicircle, Freers made some offhand comment about the Dentman house. Apparently he hadn’t known I lived here now.

Cordova got out of the cruiser and opened the rear door for me.

I got out, stretching my legs. My head still pounded. “You interviewed Nancy Stein the day the Dentman boy drowned in the lake, didn’t you?” I asked him.

“Huh?” It was probably the last thing he expected me to say.

I shook my head. “Never mind.” Glancing at my house, I spotted Adam standing in the front doorway. “Christ.”

“Yeah, well, you just take it easy,” Cordova said, climbing inside the car. “And you should probably go get your head checked out.”

For one insane moment, I forgot about the bump on my head and assumed Cordova was recommending I consult with a psychotherapist.

As I walked up the gravel path to the house, my brother’s formidable presence in the doorway like impending doom, I could hear the police car heading toward Main Street. Despite the cold, I was sweating. My shirt stuck to my chest, and I felt rivulets of perspiration running down the sides of my ribs from my armpits. I clutched my notebook, my fingernails cutting crescents into the cardboard cover. Reality wavered. There is clarity here. I felt like I was about to blink out of existence.

Adam stood in the doorway like a sentry. He was in jeans and a white sweatshirt with a star-shaped emblem at the breast, his muscular arms folded over his chest. On his face was the indignant countenance of a frustrated parent.

Hopeless, I paused at the bottom of the porch steps and laughed. There was nothing funny about any of this, not by a long stretch, but I had lost all control of myself. This sick, humorless chortle was all I had in me.

“Get in the house,” Adam said, turning away and preceding me through the threshold.

Beth and Jodie sat on the couch in the living room. As I entered, Beth stood. She looked more than just distraught—she looked ill, cancerous, bulimic. Jodie watched me with gaunt, dark eyes. Once again, I felt the urge to break into laughter. This time I was able to arrest the outburst before it made the situation even worse.

“Travis,” Beth said, “what the hell happened to you?”

“Long story. I’m okay. I just need to talk to Adam.”

“Goddamn right,” my brother said from behind me. There was a cancerous quality to his voice as well. He gave me a shove, which set me in motion toward my wife.

“You all right, babe?” I said.

“Your head,” Jodie said simply. On the coffee table in front of her, the wooden blocks were stacked into a pyramid, a staircase.

“It’s fine. Just a bump.” I could sense Adam and Beth communicating to each other without words.

Beth rubbed one of my shoulders, then took Jodie’s hands. “We’re going to put on some coffee and make sandwiches,” she said, leading my wife off the couch and out of the room.

I remained where I was, not too eager to face Adam.

In the belly of the house, the furnace kicked on.

“So far,” Adam said from behind me, “all I know is that you never came home last night and that Doug found you beat to shit in a cemetery outside of town this morning. You want to elaborate?”

“Good to see you’re so concerned about my well-being. I’m okay, in case you wanted to know.”

“Yes. I see that. Turn the hell around, will you?”

I faced him.

“I thought I got through to you last night,” he said.

“No. You didn’t listen. I tried to explain.” I was exhausted; there was no fight left in me. The tone of my voice was like the droning over a high school intercom.

“You came to me with nonsense, with fairy-tale bullshit. I told you what to do, but you just wouldn’t listen.”

“I did,” I said. “I listened. David Dentman was waiting for me in his truck when I left your place.”

“And I guess that’s who turned your face into pulp, right?”

“More or less.”

“No wonder. I told you to leave those people alone.”

“But who can really predict the actions of a homicidal lunatic?”

Adam’s nostrils flared. He uncrossed his arms and placed his hands on his hips. His cheeks were flushed red, and I could see cords standing out in his neck. I could tell he wanted to hit me. “This,” he said, “is your fault. No one else’s. You couldn’t leave well enough alone. I warned you.”

“You just don’t see it. How can it be that I’m the only one who sees it? It’s like the fucking Twilight Zone.”

“ There’s nothing to see.”

“There’s everything to see.”

“No. You’re making this up. It’s all in your head. You’ve convinced yourself of this goddamn make-believe story. The boy drowned. It was an accident. Get it through your head.”

A white rage quaked through me. I saw Detective Wren’s face looming like a full moon in front of my own, one hand on my shoulder, asking me to go over once again what happened to my brother.

“You’re wrong and you’re blind,” I growled at Adam.

“Goddamn it. You’ve lost your mind. You can’t tell the difference between fiction and reality.”

“The reality,” I said levelly, “is that David Dentman murdered that boy and no one is willing to hear it.”

“Then prove it.” Adam slapped his hands against his thighs. “You’re so goddamn certain. I want you to give me some actual goddamn proof.”

“The proof is in the character. The proof is in the lousy goddamn notebook.” I threw it into the air. “The proof is in this house. It’s in the sum of all the stories. It’s—” My gaze settled on the coffee table and the little wooden blocks from my childhood, though they were now Elijah’s blocks, still constructed to suggest a tiny, colorful staircase. A strangled laugh erupted from my throat. “The proof is in these blocks. See? The proof is in the staircase!”

Around me, the world seemed to freeze. Something akin to a doorway unlatched in the center of my brain, flooding my skull with brilliant white light. I hardly noticed when Beth and Jodie appeared in the hallway.

“The perfect place,” I muttered, turning to them.

“Travis,” Adam said.

“So simple. It’s the perfect place because it’s been staring at me since the first day.”

“He’s lost his mind,” said Adam.

“Oh,” Jodie moaned, starting to cry. “Oh, God . . .”

“You want your body?” I cried at him. “You want your proof?”

Like a locomotive, I stormed past Adam and flung open the front door. I heard Jodie shriek my name but I didn’t stop. I never even paused. I wasn’t here—I was floating somewhere above, watching myself in a dream. I was a boulder gathering speed as it rolls down a hillside. I was a 747, engines burned to dust, hurling toward the Earth at a million miles an hour. Frantic, I hustled around the side of the house, breaking into a sprint by the time I reached the rear. Before me stood tree trunks like fence posts, a barrier separating me from the lake.