Dodie Smith - I Capture the Castle

rocks- or a dead horse--over your curtain walls, causing much

embarrassment.

Eventually, someone thought of putting moats round curtain walls. Of

course, the moated castles had to be on level ground; Belmotte

tower-keep, up on its mound, must have been very much of a back number when Godsend Castle was built. And then all castles gradually became

back numbers and Cromwell's Roundheads battered two-and-a-half sides of our curtain walls down.

Long before that, the de Godys name had died out and the two castles

had passed to the Cottons of Scoatney, through a daughter. The house

built on the ruins was their dower house for a time, then it became

just a farm-house. And now it isn't even that; merely the home of the ruined Mortmains.

Oh, what are we to do for money his Surely there is enough intelligence among us to earn some, or marry some-Rose, that is; for I would

approach matrimony as cheerfully as I would the tomb and I cannot feel that I should give satisfaction. But how is Rose to meet anyone his We used to go to London every year to stay with Father's aunt, who has a house in Chelsea with a lily-pool and collects artists. Father met

Topaz there--Aunt Millicent never forgave him marrying her, so now we don't get asked any more;

this is bitter because it means we meet no men at all, not even

artists. Oh, me! I am feeling low in spirits. While I have been

writing I have lived in the past, the light of it has been all around me-first the golden light of autumn, then the silver light of spring

and then the strange light, gray but exciting, in which I see the

historic past. But now I have come back to earth and rain is beating

on the attic window, an icy draught is blowing up the staircase and

About has gone downstairs and left my stomach cold.

Heavens, how it is coming down! The rain is like a diagonal veil

across Belmotte. Rain or shine, Belmotte always looks lovely. I wish

it were Midsummer Eve and I were lighting my votive fire on the

mound.

There is a bubbling noise in the cistern which means that Stephen is

pumping. Oh, joyous thought, tonight is my bath night! And if Stephen is in, it must be tea-time. I shall go down and be very kind to

everyone.

Noble deeds and hot baths are the best cures for depression.

IV

Little did I think what the evening was to bring-something has actually happened to us! My imagination longs to dash ahead and plan

developments; but I have noticed that when things happen in one's

imaginings, they never happen in one's life, so I am curbing myself.

Instead of indulging in riotous hopes I shall describe the evening from the beginning, quietly gloating- for now every moment seems exciting

because of what came later.

I have sought refuge in our barn. As a result of what happened last

night, Rose and Topaz are spring-cleaning the drawing-room. They are

being wonderfully blithe--when I dwindled away from them Rose was

singing "The Isle of Capri" very high and Topaz was singing "Blow the Man Down" very low. The morning is blithe too, warmer, with the sun shining, though the countryside is still half-drowned. The barn--we

rent it to Mr. Stebbins but we owe him so much for milk and butter

that he no longer pays--is piled high with loose chaff and I have

climbed up on it and opened the square door near the roof so that I can see out. I look across stubble and ploughed fields and drenched winter wheat to the village, where the smoke from the chimneys is going

straight up in the still air. Everything is pale gold and washed

clean, and hopeful.

When I came down from the attic yesterday, I found that Rose and Topaz had dyed everything they could lay hands on, including the dishcloth

and the roller towel.

Once I had dipped my handkerchief into the big tin bath of green dye, I got fascinated too-it really makes one feel rather Godlike to turn

things a different color. I did both my nightgowns and then we all did Topaz's sheets which was such an undertaking that it exhausted our

lust. Father came down for tea and was not too pleased that Topaz had dyed his yellow cardigan--it is now the color of very old moss. And he thought our arms being green up to the elbows was revolting.

We had real butter for tea because Mr. Stebbins gave Stephen some when he went over to fix about working (he started at the farm this

morning); and Mrs.

Stebbins had sent a comb of honey. Stephen put them down in my place

so I felt like a hostess. I shouldn't think even millionaires could

eat anything nicer than new bread and real butter and honey for tea.

I have rarely heard such rain as there was during the meal. I am never happy when the elements go to extremes; I don't think I am frightened, but I imagine the poor countryside being battered until I end by

feeling battered myself. Rose is just the opposite--it is as if she is egging the weather on, wanting louder claps of thunder and positively encouraging forked lightning. She went to the door while it was

raining and reported that the garden was completely flooded.

"The lane'll be like a river," she remarked with satisfaction, not being a girl to remember that Thomas would have to ride his bicycle

down it within an hour--he was staying late at school for a lecture.

Father said:

"Let me add to your simple pleasure in Nature's violence by reminding you that there will shortly be at least six glorious new leaks in our roof."

There was one in the kitchen already; Stephen put a bucket under it. I told him the two attic leaks had started before I came down but there were buckets under them. He went to see if they were overflowing and

returned to say that there were four more leaks. We had run out of

buckets so he collected three saucepans and the soup-tureen.

"Maybe I'd best stay up there and empty them as they fill," he said.

He took a book and some candle-ends and I thought how gloomy it would be for him reading poetry in the middle of six drips.

We washed the tea-things; then Rose and Topaz went to the wash-house to shake out the dyed sheets. Father stayed by the fire, waiting for the rain to stop before going back to the gatehouse. He sat very still,

just staring in front of him. It struck me how completely out of touch with him I am. I went over and sat on the fender and talked about the weather; and then realized that I was making conversation as if to a

stranger. It depressed me so much that I couldn't think of anything

more to say. After a few minutes' silence, he said:

"So Stephen got work at Four Stones."

I just nodded and he looked at me rather queerly and asked if I liked Stephen. I said that of course I did, though the poems were

embarrassing.

"You should tell him you know he copies them," said Father.

"You'll know how to do it- encourage him to write something of his own, however bad it is. And be very matter of fact with him, my child--even a bit on the brisk side."

"But I don't think he'd like that," I said.

"I

think he'd take briskness for snubbing. And you know how fond of me

he's always been."

"Hence the need for a little briskness," said Father.

"Unless .... Of course, he's a godlike youth. I'm rather glad he's not devoted to Rose," I must have been looking very much puzzled. He smiled and went on: "Oh, don't bother your head about it.

You've so much common sense you'll probably do the right thing

instinctively. It's no use telling Topaz to advise you because she'd

think it all very splendid and natural--and for all I know, it might

be. God knows what's to become of you girls."

I suddenly knew what he was talking about.