Mingmei Yip - Petals from the Sky

Enclosed is an article in the newspaper I just happened to read and I think it might interest you. Are you having such a good time thinking about this gweilo American Mic Ko that you forget about your own Chinese mother?

Worriedly yours,

Mother

PS. One more thing. If you really love this Mic Ko, go ahead and marry him quick, because Hong Kong is really doing very badly. Women can starve by marrying a doctor of philosophy, but never a Western doctor of medicine!

2nd PS. I almost forgot to tell you that your Mic Ko called many times and I only understood half of his English. Sounded like he was complaining about you not calling or writing to him. Having had enough of his nagging, I told him everything-when you’ll be back in Chengdu and the name of your hotel.

3rd PS. Do you not like this Mic Ko anymore? Or have you met someone better than him, like a Chinese Western doctor?

I muttered to myself, “Mother! Why did you give my schedule to Michael? I went to China to be left alone!”

Then my gaze fell on the newspaper clipping:

BIG SPONSOR DISAPPEARS, GOLDEN LOTUS TEMPLE

IN FINANCIAL TROUBLE

Au Yeung Wei, alias Sunny Au, Hong Kong billionaire and president of The Sun Real Estate Corporation, has not been seen since he left his luxury house in Clear Water Bay last Wednesday morning. A day before his disappearance, his company filed for bankruptcy. It was rumored that he is now in Europe, where he is said to have deposits of more than three hundred million U.S. dollars.

Among the many organizations that will suffer from Au’s disappearance is Golden Lotus Temple, of which, according to sources, he is the biggest supporter. It is reputed that he has, since 1982, donated over twenty-five million Hong Kong dollars to the temple after he had learned about its Golden Body. It is also reputed that he was so impressed by the imperishability of the Golden Body that he believed it to be his guardian goddess, not only for this life, but also for his future ones. He wanted the donations kept secret so he could be the sole donor and have all the merit for himself.

With his disappearance and his company’s filing for bankruptcy, the construction and expansion of the Golden Lotus Temple have also stopped. The chief nun, the Venerable Yi Kong, is still in Xian on a trip to recruit painters for the decoration of the Temple ’s Hall of Grand Heroic Treasures, and is not available for comment.

As I read the article, I felt like a stone was pressing on my chest. Was it possible that Yi Kong, who always gave me the impression that she disliked and distrusted men, got her main support for her temple from a vulgar businessman? And had this Sunny Au become the main sponsor, or hufa -great protector of the Dharma-only because he thought the Golden Body was his guardian goddess?

Suddenly a thought hit me hard. Could the vulgar man I’d seen dragging his big bottom into Yi Kong’s office be Sunny Au?

Maybe the nuns’ world was much more complicated than I’d thought, or would want to admit. I remembered during our quarrel, Michael had said about Yi Kong:

You really believe she got all her donations to build a school, an orphanage, a nursing home, and to reconstruct the whole nunnery only from women?

Then:

If she has no idea what it’s like to be loved by a man, then how can she be so sure that that kind of love is illusory?

Feeling a headache coming, I reached out to turn off the bedside lamp, then plopped down on the bed. I flipped like a fish in a frying pan, but, exhausted as I was, sleep did not come for a long time.

The next day, since Enlightened to Emptiness would be going back to Hong Kong in the afternoon and I to Chengdu to sightsee, maybe do some research in the Sichuan museum, I invited her to have tea in my room. We took the tea bag provided by the temple and brewed ourselves tea with water from the temple thermos. Then we sipped the fragrant tea while chatting about this and that.

After a while, my friend suddenly asked, “Miss Du, your fiancé-he must be a very nice person, isn’t he?”

Although I’d told her briefly about Michael, I was still taken aback by this question from a nun. “Yes, he’s a very nice person, and very nice to me.”

“What does he do?”

“He’s a doctor.”

“Wow, a doctor, how nice.” She stared at me curiously. “What kind?”

“Neurologist.”

“You mean he fixes people’s brains?”

I chuckled and nodded. “I don’t know much about medicine, so I guess so.”

“Wow, he must be very smart to be in this specialty.”

“I think so.”

“Wow, Miss Du”-her large eyes shone intently-“you’re so lucky.”

A pause. Then I asked, “Shifu, you mind if I ask you something personal?”

She shrugged. “No, I have no secrets.”

“How old were you when you became a nun?”

Her answer came as a surprise. “I was raised in Golden Lotus Temple.”

“Were you? Then how come I’ve never seen you there?”

“Yes, you did.”

“Really? I have no memory-when?”

“One time I came into the library when you and Yi Kong Shifu were looking at some paintings. Then Shifu introduced me to you.”

“She did?”

“Yes. She said, ‘Miss Du, meet our Little Cookie.’”

Now I vaguely remembered that plump little girl who’d loved cookies and who’d often peeked in the library to stare at Yi Kong and me. “Oh, I can’t believe it-” I stared at the very slim young woman in front of me. “So you’re Little Cookie!”

She nodded and smiled shyly.

I asked, “Oh…but you weren’t an orphan, were you?”

“No. But my parents had seven kids, all boys except me. My father died young, my mother was always sick, and I was very naughty. So my grandmother, who decided everything in the family, made up her mind one day that I should be sent to live in a temple. She said this would help not only to discipline me, but also cast away bad luck, not to mention that it’d accumulate merit for the whole family.”

“But, Shifu”-I scrutinized her-“I don’t see any mischief in you, not at all.”

“But that was what my grandmother thought.”

“For example?”

“I once rubbed our cat’s fur backward and pinched his tail.”

I laughed.

My friend continued: “Another time I forgot to feed our pigeon so it died, its insides eaten away by mice, leaving a hollow shell. When my grandmother saw the dried-up bird, she hit me and screamed, ‘Bad luck, a big black hole!’”

We laughed at this, then I asked, “Did your mother miss you?”

“Oh yes, she did, very much. When I was small, she visited me in the temple all the time, sometimes even stayed with me overnight without letting the nuns know. Then two years ago when I was fifteen, with my mother’s consent, they shaved my head to become a nun.”

After she’d finished her story, we remained silent. Then a question slipped out of my lips before I could stop myself. “Shifu, did you ever have a boyfriend?”

“Of course not!”

I studied her smooth skin, oval face, and large, curious eyes. “Do you ever…regret that?”

She seemed lost for an answer.

“I’m sorry, Shifu. Maybe I shouldn’t have asked such a secular question.”

“It’s all right. You’re a nice person, Miss Du. I don’t mind.” She paused. “Well, I suppose my answer is, I…I…have no idea.”

That made sense.

“Hmmm, maybe I…” She bit her lip. “I really don’t know.” Then she added, her face flushed like a tomato, “Oh heavens, Yi Kong Shifu hoped I’d persuade you to take refuge, and now see how I failed!”

Did she? But knowing Yi Kong’s unyielding personality, I shouldn’t be surprised. Now I suddenly realized that letting me see the Golden Body and sending me here were to lure me back to the empty gate! She even wanted me to donate Michael’s engagement ring to her temple!