Peter Matthiessen - Shadow Country

Mister Watson coughs and hacks. He says, I am sorry for the way I acted, Erskine. You are my partner, are you not? Yessir, say I, very serious and proud. Then he tells me he is leaving in the morning and all about what he wants done in his absence. He nods his head awhile, and after that, starts in confiding about his bygone life.

As a young feller in Columbia County, Mister Watson had a good farm leased, made a fine crop, but lost his first wife that was Rob’s mama in childbirth, broke his knees in a bad fall, was bedridden while his land went all to hell, drank himself senseless, got in bad trouble. Never said what the trouble was and I never asked him. “Matter of honor,” Mister Watson said. So him and his new wife head west with the kids. Left by night and lit out northward for the Georgia border.

The next spring-this was 1887-they sharecropped a farm in Franklin County, Arkansas. Got his crop in and went on west into the Injun Nations, Oklahoma Territory-the first place he felt real safe, he said, because Injuns figured that any white in trouble with other whites must have some good in him. Plenty of renegade Injuns, too, and the worst of ’em, Mister Watson said, was Old Tom Starr, head of a Cherokee clan on the South Canadian River where the Creek, Choctaw, and Cherokee Nations come together.

“Tom Starr was a huge man and he killed too many. Got a taste for it, know what I mean, boy?” Mister Watson nodded, kind of sarcastic, when I piped up real eager, “I sure do!” In one feud Tom Starr and his boys set fire to a cabin and a little boy five years old run out and Tom Starr picked him up and tossed him back into the flames. “I don’t know that I could do a deed like that, how about you, Erskine?” Mister Watson was frowning like he’d thought hard on this question before deciding.

“Nosir,” I said.

“ ‘Nosir,’ he says.”

So Old Tom Starr asked a white Christian acquaintance if the white man’s God would ever forgive him for that black deed he done, and this Christian said, “Nosir, Chief, I don’t reckon He would.” Mister Watson’s queer laugh come all the way up from his boots, and that laugh taught me once and for all this man’s hard lesson, that our human free-for-all on God’s sweet earth never meant no more’n a hatch of insects in the thin smoke of their millions rising and falling in the river twilight.

Right away he was looking grim again. “I’m not so sure I’d want to give that answer to a black-hearted devil like Tom Starr. What’s your opinion on that question, Erskine?”

“Nosir,” I said.

“Nosir is right.” He was peering into my face, shaking his head. “Looks like I will have to do the laughing for us both,” he muttered.

A woman named Myra Maybelle Reed lived with Tom Starr’s son. Mister Watson was there only a year when somebody put a load of buckshot into Maybelle, shot her out of the saddle on a raw cold day of February ’89 and give her another charge of turkey shot in the face and neck right where she was laying in the muddy road.

At her funeral, Jim Starr accused Mister Watson of murdering his woman. They tied his hands and rode him over to federal court in Arkansas but after two weeks he was released for want of evidence. Went on home, got framed by friends of Belle, jailed for a horse thief but escaped from prison, headed back east. That’s how he wound up in southwest Florida, which was about the last place left where a man could farm in peace and quiet, and no questions asked. Only thing, going through Arcadia, a killer named Quinn Bass pulled a knife in a saloon. “Gave me no choice. I had to stop him.”

Mister Watson cocked his head to see how I was taking his life story. He never said who killed Belle Starr nor what “stopped” meant for Bass.

“Any questions, boy?” Them blue eyes dared me.

“I was only wonderin if that Quinn Bass feller died.”

“Well, death was the coroner’s conclusion.”

Mister Watson never talked no more that evening. For a long while, he sat leaning forward with his hands on his knees like he aimed to jump right up and leave only couldn’t remember where he had to go. But what he’d told gave me plenty to think about while me n’ him set at his table in the lamplight, waiting for Rob to come and get his supper. He never come.

I went outside for a moonlight leak, feeling small and lost under cold stars like I had awoke in that night country where I will go alone like Mister Watson, knowin him and me won’t get no help from God.

I stared again. The schooner was gone, drifted away, like I had forgot to tie her up. I backed away, wanting to run, but there was nowhere but them blackened fields to run to. The earth was ringing in a silver light, the stars gone wild.

In the first days of 1901, a young feller from the telegraph came by my office with a request from the Monroe County sheriff that Lee County detain an E. A. or E. J. Watson as the leading suspect in the murder of two Key West runaways at Lost Man’s River.

In order to locate Mr. Watson, the first place I would have to go was his own house. To console myself after Carrie’s marriage-to pick the scab, said sly Jim Cole, who saw right through me-I’d continued paying calls on Mrs. Watson after she and the boys moved to Anderson Avenue because Carrie came to visit every day. Ashamed of myself, I observed young Mrs. Langford for signs of discontent with Walter while listening carefully for any stray word that might feed my nagging curiosity about her father. At that time, I had glimpsed that man just once and from behind, a broadbacked figure in a black Western hat and well-cut suit, walking down First Street to the dock one early morning.

Ordinarily I walked unarmed around Fort Myers. That day I strapped a pistol underneath my coat. With Miss Carrie’s mother failing fast, it seemed wrong to intrude on that sad family, and halfway there, I decided it made more sense to find Walt Langford and see what information he could give me, accepting the risk that he might warn his father-in-law. Circling back toward Langford & Hendry, I wondered if I was afraid, then caught myself brooding yet again about how a bad drinker like Walt Langford might abuse a girl-a woman-who was no more than a child. This rumination made me shift my wad and spit my old regret into the dust, making old Mrs. Summerlin- Good morning, ma’am! -hop sideways on the boardwalk, pretending I was out to soil her shoe.

Like all of our town’s small emporiums, Langford & Hendry down on First Street was a frame building, slapped up quick on a mud street in a weedy line of ramshackle storefronts, livery stables, and blacksmith sheds-downtown in a cow town, as Cole said. Outside the door which led to the upstairs offices hunched Billie Conapatchie, a Mikasuki Creek raised up and educated by the Hendry family. Billie wore a bowler hat instead of the traditional bright turban; his puff-sleeve calico Injun shirt with bright red and yellow ribbons had been stuffed into old britches which stopped well short of his scarred ankles and scuffed feet. Squatting at favored lookout points, he spied on white-man life while awaiting the next public meeting or church service, or funeral or theatrical or wedding. Despite faithful attendance at these functions, he understood scarcely a word-or so he pretended, having come close to execution by his people for learning his mite of English at Fort Myers School. What passed through Billie Conapatchie’s head was a great mystery, but I suspected that, even as an outcast, he served his people as sentinel crow, alert for some dangerous shift in course these white men might be making. At the same time, he had never lost his deep indifference to our ways and so he only grunted at my greeting, keeping an eye on the thickset curly man now crossing the mud street who was fixing us in place with a pointed finger.