ON THE FIRST THURSDAY of July, at twelve noon, Miss Celia gets up from the bed for her cooking lesson. She’s dressed in a white sweater so tight it’d make a hooker look holy. I swear her clothes get tighter every week.
We settle in our places, me at the stovetop, her on her stool. I’ve hardly spoken word one to her since I found those bottles last week. I’m not mad. I’m irate. But I have sworn every day for the past six days that I would follow Mama’s Rule Number One. To say something would mean I cared about her and I don’t. It’s not my business or my concern if she’s a lazy, drunk fool.
We lay the battered raw chicken on the rack. Then I have to remind the ding-dong for the bobillionth time to wash her hands before she kills us both.
I watch the chicken sizzle, try to forget she’s there. Frying chicken always makes me feel a little better about life. I almost forget I’m working for a drunk. When the batch is done, I put most of it in the refrigerator for supper that night. The rest goes on a plate for our lunch. She sits down across from me at the kitchen table, as usual.
“Take the breast,” she says, her blue eyes bugging out at me. “Go ahead.”
“I eat the leg and the thigh,” I say, taking them from the plate. I thumb through the Jackson Journal to the Metro section. I pop up the spine of my newspaper in front of my face so I don’t have to look at her.
“But they don’t have hardly any meat on them.”
“They good. Greasy.” I keep reading, trying to ignore her.
“Well,” she says, taking the breast, “I guess that makes us perfect chicken partners then.” And after a minute she says, “You know, I’m lucky to have you as a friend, Minny.”
I feel thick, hot disgust rise up in my chest. I lower my paper and just look at her. “No ma’am. We ain’t friends.”
“Well . . . sure we are.” She smiles, like she’s doing me a big favor.
“No, Miss Celia. We ain’t.”
She blinks at me with her fake eyelashes. Stop it, Minny, my insides tell me. But I already know I can’t. I know by the fists in my hands that I can’t hold this in another minute.
“Is it . . .” She looks down at her chicken. “Because you’re colored? Or because you don’t . . . want to be friends with me?”
“So many reasons, you white and me colored just fall somewhere in between.”
She’s not smiling at all now. “But . . . why?”
“Because when I tell you I’m late on my light bill, I ain’t asking you for money,” I say.
“Oh Minny—”
“Because you don’t even give me the courtesy a telling your husband I’m working here. Because you in this house twenty-four hours a day driving me insane.”
“You don’t understand, I can’t. I can’t leave.”
“But all that is nothing compared to what I know now.”
Her face goes a shade paler under her makeup.
“All this time, there I was thinking you were dying a the cancer or sick in the head. Poor Miss Celia, all day long.”
“I know it’s been hard . . .”
“Oh, I know you ain’t sick. I seen you with them bottles upstairs. And you ain’t fooling me another second.”
“Bottles? Oh God, Minny, I—”
“I ought to pour them things down the drain. I ought to tell Mister Johnny right now—”
She stands up, knocking her chair over. “Don’t you dare tell—”
“You act like you want kids but you drinking enough to poison a elephant!”
“If you tell him, I’ll fire you, Minny!” She’s got tears in her eyes. “If you touch those bottles, I’ll fire you right now!”
But the blood’s running too hot in my head to stop now. “Fire me? Who else gone come out here and work in secret while you hang around the house drunk all day?”
“You think I can’t fire you? You finish your work today, Minny!” She’s boo-hooing and pointing her finger at me. “You eat your chicken and then you go home!”
She picks up her plate with the white meat and charges through the swinging door. I hear it clatter down on the long fancy dining room table, the chair legs scraping against the floor. I sink down in my seat because my knees are shaking, and stare down at my chicken.
I just lost another damn job.
I WAKE UP SATURDAY MORNING at seven a.m. to a clanging headache and a raw tongue. I must’ve bitten down on it all night long.
Leroy looks at me through one eye because he knows something’s up. He knew it last night at supper and smelled it when he walked in at five o’clock this morning.
“What’s eating you? Ain’t got trouble at work, do you?” he asks for the third time.
“Nothing eating me except five kids and a husband. Y’all driving me up a wall.”
The last thing I need him to know is that I’ve told off another white lady and lost another job. I put on my purple housedress and stomp to the kitchen. I clean it like it’s never been cleaned.
“Mama, where you going?” yells Kindra. “I’m hungry.”
“I’m going to Aibileen’s. Mama need to be with somebody not pulling on her for five minutes.” I pass Sugar sitting on the front steps. “Sugar, go get Kindra some breakfast.”
“She already ate. Just a half hour ago.”
“Well, she hungry again.”
I walk the two blocks to Aibileen’s house, across Tick Road onto Farish Street. Even though it’s hot as sin and steam’s already rising off the blacktop, kids are throwing balls, kicking cans, skipping rope. “Hey there, Minny,” someone says to me about every fifty feet. I nod, but I don’t get friendly. Not today.
I cut through Ida Peek’s garden. Aibileen’s kitchen door is open. Aibileen’s sitting at her table reading one of those books Miss Skeeter got her from the white library. She looks up when she hears the screen door whine. I guess she can tell I’m angry.
“Lord have mercy, who done what to you?”
“Celia Rae Foote, that’s who.” I sit down across from her. Aibileen gets up and pours me some coffee.
“What she do?”
I tell her about the bottles I found. I don’t know why I hadn’t told her a week and a half ago when I found them. Maybe I didn’t want her to know something so awful about Miss Celia. Maybe I felt bad because Aibileen was the one who got me the job. But now I’m so mad I let it all spill out.
“And then she fired me.”
“Oh, Law, Minny.”
“Say she gone find another maid. But who gone work for that lady? Some nappy-headed country maid already living out there, won’t know squat about serving from the left, clearing from the right.”
“You thought about apologizing? Maybe you go in Monday morning, talk to—”
“I ain’t apologizing to no drunk. I never apologized to my daddy and I sure ain’t apologizing to her.”
We’re both quiet. I throw back my coffee, watch a horsefly buzz against Aibileen’s screen door, knocking with its hard ugly head, whap, whap, whap, until it falls down on the step. Spins around like a crazy fool.
“Can’t sleep. Can’t eat,” I say.
“I tell you, that Celia must be the worst one you ever had to tend to.”
“They all bad. But she the worst of all.”
“Ain’t they? You remember that time Miss Walter make you pay for the crystal glass you broke? Ten dollars out a your pay? Then you find out them glasses only cost three dollars apiece down at Carter’s?”
“Mm-hmm.”
“Oh, and you remember that crazy Mister Charlie, the one who always call you nigger to your face like he think it’s funny. And his wife, the one who make you eat lunch outside, even in the middle a January? Even when it snowed that time?”
“Make me cold just thinking bout it.”
“And what—” Aibileen is chuckling, trying to talk at the same time. “What about that Miss Roberta? Way she make you sit at the kitchen table while she try out her new hair dye solution on you?” Aibileen wipes at her eyes. “Lord, I never seen blue hair on a black woman before or since. Leroy say you look like a cracker from outer space.”
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