Martin Amis - The Zone of Interest

Predictably, but with unexpected starkness, the matter of Dieter Kruger was asking me a certain question.

I had just said my farewells to Frithuric Burckl, and then been introduced to his replacement (an Old Fighter, and an old Old Fighter, called Rupprecht Strunck), when Peters’s call came through.

‘All right,’ he said. ‘Transferred from Brandenburg Penitentiary to Leipzig State Prison on Christmas Day, ’33. Just him. In a Steyr 220. Then the trail goes cold.’

‘Why the Dienstwagen, sir?’

‘Oh I think this thing goes pretty high up. As I see it there are only two possibilities. He certainly wasn’t freed. So either he escaped , later on. And in particularly embarrassing circumstances. Either that or he was spirited away for special treatment. Very special treatment.’

‘Killed.’

‘Oh. At least.’

So the question was clearly framed.

Did I want the rugged Kruger at large, boldly masterminding an isolated splinter of the resistance, perhaps, hiding, planning, putting himself in harm’s way — his craggy good looks gaining and maturing in nobility and honour?

Or did I want his existence reduced to an exhausted echo or two in a blood-bespattered Horrorzelle, a handful of ashes, and a scratched-out or inked-over name in a barracks register?

Well, which?

At four o’clock she came out of the glass doors of the breakfast room and into the garden…

As things now stand, Doll will have no reason to strike out at you. But if your plan works, he won’t need a reason.

Let me now say something from the heart. You can stop memorising. Perhaps you should start forgetting. And if you don’t already look quite leniently on me you could simply skip to the last (eleven-word) paragraph.

After we elevated to the Chancellery a known political killer who, when he spoke in public, often foamed at the mouth, a man almost visibly coated in blood and mire, and as the gross mockery settled on the lives of all but the mad: emotion, sensibility, and delicacy retreated from me, and I developed the habit of saying to myself, almost daily, ‘Let it go. Let it go. What, let that go? Yes, let it go. What, even that ? Yes, that too. Let it go. Oh, let it go.’ This internal process was astoundingly well caught, in eight syllables, by the English poet Auden (writing in about 1920):

Saying Alas

To less and less.

In that gazebo or half-made pavilion, as I watched you sleep: during those sixty or seventy minutes I felt something happen to the sources of my being. Everything I had waived and ceded made itself known to me. And I saw, with self-detestation, how soiled and shrunken I had let my heart become.

When you finally opened your eyes I was experiencing something like hope.

And now I feel I am starting again — and starting from nothing. I am perpetually harassed by first principles, like a child or a neurotic, or like a trite poet in an ingenuous novelette. But this is the state of mind of the artist, I’m sure: the diametrical opposite of what we call taking things for granted . Why does a hand have five digits? What is a woman’s shoe? Why ants, why suns? Then I look, with definitive incredulity, at the bald stickmen and bald stickwomen, huge-headed, in lines of five, scurrying back to slavery while the band plays.

Something like hope — even something like love. And love: what is that ?

Everything you do and say warms and thrills and touches me. I find you physically beautiful beyond assimilation. And I simply can’t help it if in my dreams I kiss your mouth, your neck, your throat, your shoulders, and the rib between your breasts. The woman I kiss is not of the here and now. She lives in the future, and she lives elsewhere.

That poem is called ‘ The Exiles ’ (and aren’t we, the sane — aren’t we all inner exiles?). It concludes as follows:

Gas-light in shops,

The fate of ships,

And the tide-wind

Touch the old wound.

Till our nerves are numb and their now is a time

Too late for love or for lying either,

Grown used at last

To having lost,

Accepting dearth,

The shadow of death.

And to this we say an emphatic No .

It would infinitely reassure me if, once a week, on Tuesdays, say, at four o’clock, you would go out and take a five-minute turn in your garden. I will see you from the building up on the hill, and I’ll know you are well (and that you’re walking there for me).

A great void lies ahead — my one or two or perhaps three months in the Reich; but what I have I have, and I will hold it to me.

When the future looks back on the National Socialists, it will find them as exotic and improbable as the prehistoric meat-eaters (could they really have existed, the velociraptor, the tyrannosaur?). Non-human, and also non-mammalian. They are not mammals. Mammals, with their warm blood and live young.

You will now of course destroy this letter beyond retrieval. GT.

‘Esther will fail tonight — on purpose. And oh yeah. The war is lost.’

‘… Boris! ’

‘Oh, come on. And I don’t just mean the Sixth Army. I mean lost anyhow.’

I poured him a schnapps. He waved it away. On the Volga, Friedrich Paulus’s troops were encircled (and frozen, and starving). And von Manstein’s relief armour, which began its march three weeks earlier, had not yet engaged Zhukov.

‘The war is lost. Esther will fail. There. Put a drop of ponce behind your ears.’

‘What? What’s this? Eau des Dieux…’

‘A bit of ponce can be very appealing, Golo. On a man of exceptional virility. Behind your ears. Don’t be shy. That’s it. There.’

We were in his cramped flatlet in the Fuhrerheim, making ourselves especially smart and fragrant for the Dezember Konzert over in Furstengrube. With five months of his one-year demotion still to run, Boris was defiantly accoutring himself in the dress uniform of a full colonel. Full colonel, senior colonel, active colonel in the Waffen-SS. And Boris, this night, was levitational with nerves.

‘That was a very silly idea,’ he said. ‘Invading Russia.’

‘Oh. So you’ve changed your tune, have you?’

‘Mm. I admit I was all for it at the time. As you know. Well. I got a little ahead of myself after France. Everyone did. No one could refuse him anything after France. So the Corporal said, Now let’s invade Russia, and the generals thought, Sounds insane, but so did France. Fuck it, he’s our man of destiny. And come on, while we’re there we may as well indulge his fever dream about the Jews.’

‘Oy. The greatest military genius of all time. Those were your words.’

‘France, Golo. Smashed in thirty-nine days. Four days, really. Much better than Moltke. France .’

Boris was my blood brother, and the connection went back beyond the limits of human memory (we got to know each other, apparently, when we were one). But there had been several serious lacunae along the way. I found it impossible to be near him in the months after the seizure of power: in 1933 there were only two people in Germany who viscerally wanted world war — and Boris Eltz was the other one. Then there was that froideur between the invasion of Poland and the sharp setback at the gates of Moscow in December ’41. And our views continued to be in less than perfect accord. Boris was still a fanatical nationalist — even though that nation was Nazi Germany. And if he knew what I was up to with Roland Bullard, Boris wouldn’t hesitate. He would draw his Luger and shoot me dead.