Sean Michaels - Us Conductors

He had not seemed surprised when I appeared again at his kwoon, two months after stumbling in with Sasha. There was no concern in his face; he came over casually. He watched me watching the sparring students — only three there that day. “You want to learn?” he said finally.

“I think so.”

“You seem you think a lot.”

It was partly the violence crashing through Leningrad in those days. It was partly the desire for physical activity: an order I could bring to my body. It was partly the grace of those fighters, their limbs that moved in deliberate lines. I wanted order, I wanted grace. I wanted to pass like a wind through any tempest.

So I began coming to the kwoon five or six times a week. I learned how to stand; I learned how to exhale. Sifu taught me the first form, “Little Idea,” a sequence of gestures that seem like magic, summoning motions, not like any kind of combat. I stood with Lughur and Yu Wei and repeated the movements, repeated and repeated them, becoming taller, becoming clearer, ten thousand tiny refinements. Sometimes sifu called up a student, his birthmark glowing in the lantern light; five seconds of contest and then the simplest shift of weight, sifu pivoting his hips, a figure sent sprawling.

I improved. My body became lighter and stronger. I did pushups beside the radiating stove. I squatted with Yu Wei, drinking tea, hearing tales of Peking. I laughed with Moritz, who had begun studying kung-fu during the war, when he was stationed in Tsingtao. “Even the Chinese monks know how to fight,” he said. I couldn’t visit the kwoon as often when I began travelling, but still I went. Sifu taught me the second form, “Sinking the Bridge,” with its pivots and kicks. He taught me the third form, “Darting Fingers.” He taught me as though I was the most fitting student, a natural son, and I left coins behind, in the box by the door.

Aboard the Majestic , travelling to America, I tried to maintain my practice. If Pash was out late or up early, I could use our cabin to run through the first and second forms. But usually I skipped down the ladders and across the catwalks to practise in a corner of the aft hydraulics chamber, an area the engine men nicknamed the “gym.” Several of them were enthusiastic bodybuilders (admittedly, all bodybuilders are enthusiastic). They planted themselves beside the hydraulics chamber’s heaving silos, feet flat on the grille, and lifted things: boxes, metal struts, barrels of lard. I worked beside them. It was easy to be self-conscious: I was a paid passenger, smaller than the strongmen, greaseless. I was also the only martial artist. And yet as soon as I slipped into horse pose, my insecurities fizzed away like vapour. There we were, shoulder to shoulder: sailors with sacks of coal raised over their heads, the scientist from Leningrad punching his wing-chun one-inch punch. It was hot. We sweated. I stripped to my underpants before the third form, darting biu jee. Sometimes the space was too crowded to make many movements, but this was all right, this I embraced; the student needs new challenges. In the bowels of the Majestic I tried to breathe like a child.

Nevertheless, I had to come out sometimes, for messages, for meals, and, alas, most frequently, to be sick. At regular intervals I climbed up from the engine rooms, scurried down the aft corridor, flung open a door, and vomited into a toilet. Szigeti always seemed to be standing watch. As soon as my head poked up from the stairwell he would be over me: briny, excited, eager to talk. I’d trundle past him, breathing sideways, feeling every swaying slow motion of the ship. I kneeled by the porcelain. MADE IN TORONTO, it said. Szigeti stood quietly outside, leaning his head against the closed door, speaking in the tone of a lover. “Are you all right, Lyova?”

“Yes,” I murmured.

Sometimes I would come out and he would be gone, and the only sign he had been there was the glass of seltzer water he’d left for me, gurgling, sad and alive.

NOW IT IS ELEVEN YEARS later and I am on a different ship, the Stary Bolshevik , and here too the waves fall and lift. I once proposed a device that would ameliorate a great boat’s sway, balancing the bobbing seas, a sort of unbobber, but I could not find anybody to finance the prototype.

I am being taken back to Russia. Where once I roamed the Majestic ’s decks, now I sit in a sealed cabin, its door locked from the outside. The ship’s roster pretends I am the ship’s log-keeper. Thus: I keep a log. This is a Skylark Mk II typewriter, made in Saint Paul, Minnesota, a place I once visited. Under a red sky, I played Rimsky-Korsakov’s “Song of India.” The applause was like a net of fish being drawn from the brine.

When I was last atop the Atlantic, I imagined New York as a single row of gold and brass buildings, a panel of architecture nestled against the shore. Beyond these buildings — desert, cowboys, Indians. Ten thousand miles of sand, spurs, and feather headdresses. I was not seeking love or fortune, just a new frontier, just open country for young inventions, just a long, clear course to serve the Revolution.

In the end I found much more than that, and less.

WE LANDED IN NEW YORK on December 20, 1927. There were photographers, newsmen, a quartet of harpists. The harpists and the newsmen did not get along. At every angelic strum, the journalists’ grimaces deepened, like retraced drawings. They shouldered past the musicians, blocking their view, blocking my view of them — and I was eager to see them, the Queens and Brooklyn harpists, the first American women on whom I had ever cast my eyes.

Of course I had no idea why there were harpists playing for us. The winds blew harshly from Ellis Island and we were all shivering as we left the ship, tucked into coats and hats. I had expected to go quietly to a car but instead — this small crowd. People yelling my name, yelling questions in squawky New York accents. Camera flashes going off. I was shocked. I was delighted. I strained to see the harpists. I had no idea Rudolph Wurlitzer had hired them to butter me up; I assumed that in America, harpists greet every ship. It was only later, plunging into a lunch at the Grove, also paid for by Wurlitzer, that I found out he was responsible. In his coughing Germanic English he said he had read an article about me, an interview in London, in which I spoke of my love for the harp. I have no idea what he was talking about. I have no love for the harp. “You spoke with such fine arteeculation , Dr Theremin,” he said. He coughed. “You were like a deegneetary for science.”

He wanted a demonstration, of course he did; he wanted to license the theremin for his company. He had papers in a crocodile-skin attaché, ready for me to sign right then and there. But I didn’t; of course I didn’t. I gave Pash a pre-emptive glare. I wanted to wait and see. I wanted to speak with other Yankee gentlemen. Perhaps things would have gone differently if I had signed with Mr Wurlitzer. Perhaps there would be a theremin in every home. He said he wanted to introduce me to Thomas Edison, “the Theremin of America!” At the Grove, 10:30 in the morning, he ordered a steak (well done).

One more recollection of our arrival: as we crossed the gangplank to the pier, I could see the covered rows of the West Street Market, tables piled with sweet potatoes, buckets of oats, fish on ice. Men stood smoking. Horses waited. I gazed at these first tableaux of New York City and Pash gazed too, both of us newcomers, awed and curious. I glanced at my companion and abruptly I saw him darken, straighten, not because of me but because of something he had seen. Pash was suddenly more like himself. He stared out past the journalists, the musicians, to where the tugboats were docked, scuffed and beetle-like. A figure in a slate-grey trench coat stood on the timber pier, in the boats’ wide shadows. He was tall. He was almost motionless. He looked as if someone had placed him there. Through binoculars, he watched us.