T. Boyle - T. C. Boyle Stories

There was a thrill in her voice. “Tell me.”

“South America and Africa both. A fly bites you and lays its eggs in your bloodstream and when the eggs hatch, the larvae — these little white worms — migrate to your eyeballs, right underneath the membrane there, so you can see them wriggling around.”

There was a silence on the other end of the line.

“Breda?”

“That’s sick,” she said. “That’s really sick.”

But I thought—? I trailed off. “Sorry,” I said.

“Listen,” and the edge came back into her voice, “the reason I called is because I love you, I think I love you, and I want you to meet somebody.”

“Sure,” I said.

“I want you to meet Michael. Michael Maloney.”

“Sure. Who’s he?”

She hesitated, paused just a beat, as if she knew she was going too far. “My doctor,” she said.

You have to work at love. You have to bend, make subtle adjustments, sacrifices — love is nothing without sacrifice. I went to Dr. Maloney. Why not? I’d eaten tofu, bantered about leprosy and bilharziasis as if I were immune, and made love in a bag. If it made Breda happy — if it eased the nagging fears that ate at her day and night — then it was worth it.

The doctor’s office was in Scarsdale, in his home, a two-tone mock Tudor with a winding drive and oaks as old as my grandfather’s Chrysler. He was a young man — late thirties, I guessed — with a red beard, shaved head, and a pair of oversized spectacles in clear plastic frames. He took me right away — the very day I called — and met me at the door himself. “Breda’s told me about you,” he said, leading me into the floodlit vault of his office. He looked at me appraisingly a moment, murmuring “Yes, yes” into his beard, and then, with the aid of his nurses, Miss Archibald and Miss Slivovitz, put me through a battery of tests that would have embarrassed an astronaut.

First, there were the measurements, including digital joints, maxilla, cranium, penis, and earlobe. Next, the rectal exam, the EEG and urine sample. And then the tests. Stress tests, patch tests, reflex tests, lung-capacity tests (I blew up yellow balloons till they popped, then breathed into a machine the size of a Hammond organ), the X-rays, sperm count, and a closely printed, twenty-four-page questionnaire that included sections on dream analysis, genealogy, and logic and reasoning. He drew blood too, of course — to test vital-organ function and exposure to disease. “We’re testing for antibodies to over fifty diseases,” he said, eyes dodging behind the walls of his lenses. “You’d be surprised how many people have been infected without even knowing it.” I couldn’t tell if he was joking or not. On the way out he took my arm and told me he’d have the results in a week.

That week was the happiest of my life. I was with Breda every night, and over the weekend we drove up to Vermont to stay at a hygiene center her cousin had told her about. We dined by candlelight — on real food — and afterward we donned the Saran Wrap suits and made joyous, sanitary love. I wanted more, of course — the touch of skin on skin — but I was fulfilled and I was happy. Go slow, I told myself. All things in time. One night, as we lay entwined in the big white fortress of her bed, I stripped back the hood of the plastic suit and asked her if she’d ever trust me enough to make love in the way of the centuries, raw and unprotected. She twisted free of her own wrapping and looked away, giving me that matchless patrician profile. “Yes,” she said, her voice pitched low, “yes, of course. Once the results are in.”

“Results?”

She turned to me, her eyes searching mine. “Don’t tell me you’ve forgotten?”

I had. Carried away, intense, passionate, brimming with love, I’d forgotten. “Silly you,” she murmured, tracing the line of my lips with a slim, plastic-clad finger. “Does the name Michael Maloney ring a bell?”

And then the roof fell in.

I called and there was no answer. I tried her at work and her secretary said she was out. I left messages. She never called back. It was as if we’d never known one another, as if I were a stranger, a door-to-door salesman, a beggar on the street.

I took up a vigil in front of her house. For a solid week I sat in my parked car and watched the door with all the fanatic devotion of a pilgrim at a shrine. Nothing. She neither came nor went. I rang the phone off the hook, interrogated her friends, haunted the elevator, the hallway, and the reception room at her office. She’d disappeared.

Finally, in desperation, I called her cousin in Larchmont. I’d met her once — she was a homely, droopy-sweatered, baleful-looking girl who represented everything gone wrong in the genes that had come to such glorious fruition in Breda — and barely knew what to say to her. I’d made up a speech, something about how my mother was dying in Phoenix, the business was on the rocks, I was drinking too much and dwelling on thoughts of suicide, destruction, and final judgment, and I had to talk to Breda just one more time before the end, and did she by any chance know where she was? As it turned out, I didn’t need the speech. Breda answered the phone.

“Breda, it’s me,” I choked. “I’ve been going crazy looking for you.”

Silence.

“Breda, what’s wrong? Didn’t you get my messages?”

Her voice was halting, distant. “I can’t see you anymore,” she said.

“Can’t see me?” I was stunned, hurt, angry. “What do you mean?”

“All those feet,” she said.

“Feet?” It took me a minute to realize she was talking about the shoe business. “But I don’t deal with anybody’s feet — I work in an office. Like you. With air-conditioning and sealed windows. I haven’t touched a foot since I was sixteen.”

“Athlete’s foot,” she said. “Psoriasis. Eczema. Jungle rot.”

“What is it? The physical?” My voice cracked with outrage. “Did I flunk the damn physical? Is that it?”

She wouldn’t answer me.

A chill went through me. “What did he say? What did the son of a bitch say?”

There was a distant ticking over the line, the pulse of time and space, the gentle sway of Bell Telephone’s hundred million miles of wire.

“Listen,” I pleaded, “see me one more time, just once — that’s all I ask. We’ll talk it over. We could go on a picnic. In the park. We could spread a blanket and, and we could sit on opposite corners—”

“Lyme disease,” she said.

“Lyme disease?”

“Spread by tick bite. They’re seething in the grass. You get Bell’s palsy, meningitis, the lining of your brain swells up like dough.”

“Rockefeller Center then,” I said. “By the fountain.”

Her voice was dead. “Pigeons,” she said. “They’re like flying rats.”

“Helmut’s. We can meet at Helmut’s. Please. I love you.”

“I’m sorry.”

“Breda, please listen to me. We were so close—”

“Yes,” she said, “we were close,” and I thought of that first night in her apartment, the boy in the bubble and the Saran Wrap suit, thought of the whole dizzy spectacle of our romance till her voice came down like a hammer on the refrain, “but not that close.”

(1987)

The years have put a lid on it, the principals passed into oblivion. I think I can now, in good conscience, reveal the facts surrounding one of the most secretive and spectacular love affairs of our time: the affaire de coeur that linked the thirty-fourth president of the United States and the then first lady of the Soviet Union. Yes: the eagle and the bear, defrosting the Cold War with the heat of their passion, Dwight D: Eisenhower — Ike — virile, dashing, athletic, in the arms of Madame Nina Khrushcheva, the svelte and seductive schoolmistress from the Ukraine. Behind closed doors, in embassy restrooms and hotel corridors, they gave themselves over to the urgency of their illicit love, while the peace and stability of the civilized world hung in the balance.