Thomas Mcguane - Nobody's Angel

He cut down Divide Creek and went the back way around Deadrock. No supplies needed. Coming from this direction, you could see the ranch’s high meadows cross the river bottom. You could see the old schoolhouse road and used-up thrashers and combines, drawn like extinct creatures against the gravel bank. Then this way you could run along the curving rim to the ranch itself, seeing now from above the original plan, a little bit like a fort and old-looking. Though around here nothing was really old. A woman in town was writing a book called From Deer Meat to Double Wides to chronicle the area and show it was old. There was a chapter on Patrick’s ranch as well as one on high-button shoes, plus prominent Deadrock families, all written at very high pitch. The ranch chapter had a romantic version of the foray against Aguinaldo’s insurrection, as well as of Fourths of July celebrated with dynamite. When Patrick grew older, the ranch meant less. The trouble was, he had charged it with meaning while he was in the Army, and left without benefits. He wanted his heart to seize the ancient hills, the old windmills and stock springs. Now all he seemed to care about were the things that lived and died on a scale of time an ordinary human being could understand. Then he wanted to know what those things were there for, taking every chance for knowledge about that. Nor was he about to press his grandfather about death’s nearness. But he would watch him for accidental revelations. He had a feeling that the little churches around Deadrock, all of them so different, were trying to duck this question. He was tempted to attend every one of them in a string of Sundays to see how this fatal ducking worked.

He knew that one reason he still felt so incomplete was that his father had farmed him out, left him as crow bait to education and family history. And his grandfather hadn’t given his father much. All that cowboy rigidity was just running from trouble. Patrick had wandered away and Mary had flown into the face of it, the face of it being the connection they never had, an absence that was perilously ignored. The connection had not been in the airplane on the mountain; it had not even been a sign. Mary in pursuit of the ghosts was close; Claire was nearer. But he had been indecent. Had she? He was inclined to think she’d been worse than that.

PATRICK AND CLAIRE SAT NEXT TO EACH OTHER IN THE DEEP old leather couch. There were chunks of Newfoundland salmon that Tio had caught, in a silver bowl, and toast points made from bread Tio had baked the previous day. Then Tio brought them a superior cold pumpkin soup and pressed upon them yet another bottle of St.-Émilion before returning to the kitchen. Instead of an apron he had a worn-out hand towel tucked into the top of his tooled belt and he moved at very high speed. He said they did not have many minutes to finish the bottle and move to the dining room. Patrick was impressed. But he felt he was in a madhouse.

“Will dinner be as good as this?” asked Patrick.

“Dinner will be great,” Claire said.

“And he caught these fish?”

“Oh, Tio is a sportman. Got a bunch of records and all. He shot the ninth largest whitetail to ever come out of Texas.” Patrick studied her eyes, hoping he would not find real pride in the bagging of the ninth largest whitetail. He did think he saw a little pride, though. Above all, he saw the beauty of beveled face with its gray-green eyes and ineffable down-turned Southern mouth.

“How does he ever find the time to be a fine cook and record-holding sportsman?” He sensed something aggressive in his own question.

Claire looked up at him. “What else has he got to do?” she inquired.

“He’s got businesses to run and a lot of money to look after.”

“Tio don’t have any money. Doesn’t have any money.”

“Well.” Patrick was finding some embarrassment in this. Claire’s amused and corrected bad English was also a moment he’d liked to have gone back over. “It seems you live well and it seems you can do as you want.”

“We do. But I support Tio.”

“How?”

“Inherited Oklahoma land.” Stated flat. “Including mineral rights.”

Patrick looked straight at her in silence.

“Tio told me,” he said deliberately, “that he had a world of leases and row crops and wells he had to get back to and he couldn’t mess around up here in Montana any longer.”

“Tio has this little problem, Patrick.”

“Which is?”

“He thinks he has those things. It’s not his fault. But he gets carried away. And in some respects Tio isn’t completely healthy.”

“What else does he think?”

The door flew open and Tio brought in a plate of roast lamb chunks with currant jelly. He bore the mad vanity of an Eagle Scout.

“Thinks he’s got a jet plane and a jillion Mexicans.”

Patrick stared at Tio in shock.

“Who’s this?” Tio asked.

“Guy in Houston,” said Claire. She pointed toward the gulf coast of Texas.

“Oh, yeah? Well, finish them lamb and come eat dinner. It a be on in five minute.”

Tio’s manners and his cooking were equally fine. Yet in the tall wavering of candlelight, the conversation — ranch history and oil — carried, against what Patrick now knew, some echo of calamity, something that lingered. “You get a deal,” said Tio, “to where what you’re looking for is the actual lifeblood of the machine age, and this junk pools up where it gets trapped and where nobody can see it in the middle of the earth, and all we’re doing is running little needles downwards toward it. Unless of course you’re some old farmer with a seep. And the last one of them I know about was mounted and hangs over the dining room table at the Petroleum Club. But a man has to suspect his traps before he runs his drill in on down to where Satan is gettin out his book matches. And you got to know your domes.” Then he looked around the table with matchlessly overfocused wide eyes. “I just don’t care to be around people interested in other fuels. They make me sick.” His eyes compressed to refocus on a forkful of perfectly prepared lamb.

“Go on ahead and eat that,” Claire said quietly.

“What happened to your face, Pat? Get scratched tryin to get you a little?”

“Had a colt run through the bridle in some brush.”

“Didn’t know a colt had a hand on him like that.”

“It was the brush that did it.”

“Boy, amo tell you what, you couldn’t carve a more perfecter piece of brush for that job, now, could you?”

“Say, after all this wine, I’m finally seeing what you’re getting at: I try to rape some girl and she claws me. I guess I had a better day than I thought.”

“Aw, good buddy.” Real disappointment, moral disappointment, floods Tio’s face: A man don’t talk like that in company. In the flashing silence Patrick gave himself the liberty of remembering Claire beneath him, one thin arm reaching into the cool quiet, the aerial motion and breath. They ate quietly for a long time. Then he saw Tio’s studying eyes deep against his own; they were, somehow, certainly not normal.

Claire got up. “I don’t like to eat when it’s like that.”

“Food not right?” Tio asked. “Anybody says I can’t cook is dumber than Ned in the First Reader.”

“I’m going to sit in the living room.”

“What about you, Pat?”

“I’m going to finish this good dinner.”

“I’m heading for bed. I’ve got some studying up to do. Then me and about five of my best old buddies around the country are going to hang all over our WATS lines and make a couple of bucks.”

“Well, good night, I guess.”

“Good night. Don’t get scratched.”

“I got my colts rode earlier. What a day.”