Joshua Mohr - All This Life

“Call him now.”

“Don’t raise your voice.”

“My son is missing.”

Paul opens up the laptop, logs on, refreshes his feed, sees there’s a new tweet from Jake: I am striking out on my own, @Paul_Gamache.

“This came in while I was driving over,” says Paul, turning his computer around and thrusting it at the cop, who only sits there.

The cop doesn’t read from the laptop, doesn’t make eye contact with Paul. She picks up the phone and says, “Paul Gamache is here. And he’s pissed.”

She hangs up and Paul says, “Thanks.”

She doesn’t answer.

“I’m not pissed. I’m scared,” he says.

She’s back to filling out that old form.

The door between the waiting area and the actual precinct opens, and Esperanto waddles out. If at first Paul lamented the young age of the initial officer on the scene, Paul wishes Esperanto were in better shape. He has the lumbering look of an old athlete with no cartilage left in his knees.

“What can I do for you?” he asks Paul.

“It’s Jake. He’s talking to me on Twitter.”

“Is this how you normally communicate with him?”

Paul tells how he created the account and reached out to Jake. Paul hands Esperanto the laptop and he reads through Jake’s tweets, then says, “At least we know he’s not in some guy’s trunk.”

“Can we track his cell phone?”

The detective hands the laptop back. “It’s not that simple.”

“Why?”

“You’re another parent who has gone to college on TV shows, watching police procedurals and think you know how this all works,” Esperanto says.

“This is our best lead.”

“Your son isn’t inside the computer.”

Paul waves his laptop at Esperanto: “He’s right here, right fucking here, I can see him!”

“Your son has only been missing a few hours. FBI is on their way. They have all the good toys. Don’t worry. You need to go home and wait. Keep him talking. Keep communicating with him. That way you know he’s okay. And let us do our job.”

Paul sits down in one of the plastic chairs in the waiting room. There’s a bank of six of them. Besides that, the space is sparse. Linoleum and police propaganda posters on the wall. No music. Nothing.

“What are you doing?” Esperanto asks.

“I’m staying.”

“No.”

“Then arrest me.”

“You can’t have your laptop in a holding cell.”

“I can’t leave.”

“Fine.”

“I’ll alert you if there are any advancements in here,” says Paul, shaking the computer.

“Not any advancements. Only important ones.”

Esperanto limps through the door, disappearing into the back, and Paul stares at the remaining officer, who has all her attention on the remaining boxes of her form.

PAUL IS LIKEeveryone else now, plugged in. He tweets at his son and waits for answers but something changes: They are not alone.

Paul knew on some level that this was public, their back and forth, this online cat and mouse. But no one else had been butting in and interrupting their communiqués. It was a father and son talking — who cared about that; however, the luxury of isolation is over, with the introduction of a hashtag, #GoHomeJake.

At first, Paul has no idea what a hashtag is, but Google tells him with a quick search.

It’s tweeted to Jake from a local TV affiliate, and their whole message reads Missing teenager, @TheGreatJake, is live-tweeting. Join the conversation. #GoHomeJake.

Paul follows the station. Maybe they’ll have a clue to help his hunt. Right back, they follow Paul, probably for the same reason. It’s instantaneous. He clicks to follow a few more and they return the favor. Four. Five. Nine. New alliances, greedy alliances, all for Jake.

Immediately, their tweet is retweeted and retweeted, and Paul watches their private conversation mutate. Paul is disgusted, all this attention, turning his missing boy into something else. It had never occurred to Paul until this moment in the waiting room how when a video goes viral, that’s comparing it to an actual virus. Something that has the potential to spread out of control, infect all sorts of unsuspecting people, and this latest outbreak is his boy. Jake is the infective agent. Jake is the salacious contaminant. Jake is contagious.

These retweets lead to others intruding on their intimacy. Strangers feel the effects of the virus and, once tainted, they are pulled to patient zero:

It’s not worth it, little man. #GoHomeJake.

B safe. B careful. #GoHomeJake.

Just worm home, you spoiled brat. #GoHomeJake.

Paul can’t believe how quickly things evolve. How one father and one son, like grains of sand on a beach, can be singled out and picked from a million other nearly identical grains and their anonymity vanishes, as they’re pinched between a thumb and a forefinger, held up for everyone to inspect.

@TheGreatJake tweets to his father, @Paul_Gamache, while he’s MIA. #GoHomeJake.

Now I’ve heard of everything. Spoiled teenager needs more attention. #GoHomeJake.

Taking bets on how long @TheGreatJake makes it. I give him 3 hours before needing to be burped & bottle fed. #GoHomeJake.

Strangers even lash out at Paul: You must be a shite father, @Paul_Gamache. #GoHomeJake.

It takes all his willpower, but he’s not going to engage. You can’t win with an Internet troll, though if he — Paul knows it’s a man — stood face to face right now Paul would punch him.

Another feature of Twitter that Paul hasn’t known about is direct messaging, a way for users to talk privately, one on one. Lo and behold, he gets a bunch of DMs, a bunch of solicitations from local news programs. TV. Radio. Web. They want to be the first to talk to @Paul_Gamache and get his story. These vultures even make it sound like they’re trying to do him a favor. As if they’re not frothing for the carrion. As if the scavengers don’t need a new carcass to devour. They all take the angle that telling his story publicly will help get more people involved in the case. Crowd-sourcing: The greater number of people who know about Jake’s disappearance increases the chances of somebody spotting him on the street, and don’t you want to use every resource at your disposal, don’t you want to find you son?

He hates all of them, but they’re making some good points. His phone rings, a number he doesn’t recognize, but on the off-chance it’s Jake, he answers.

“Mr. Gamache,” the female voice says, “I’m Lauren Skelley, a producer with Channel—”

Paul hangs up.

His phone rings again, a different number. He rejects the call. It’s all happening so fast, from all angles, from both worlds. Paul is suddenly being constricted, encroached. More and more users tweet at him and Jake, and his phone keeps ringing, and if all these people are so interested in the case, why is Esperanto being so standoffish? So what if Paul has watched too many police procedurals, has soaked up all the detective movies? So what if he has opinions? If the police aren’t willing to exhaust all avenues, it’s up to Paul. He has to champion this, has to try and alert everyone.

Though that seems to be somewhat happening on its own. The virus doing the only thing it knows how: snaking from existence to existence. From user to user. Paul watches his son’s number of Twitter followers multiply. Even @Paul_Gamache gains new followers every second. He had none an hour ago. Now he has 822. His son has over 5,000, and every time Paul refreshes his feed it jumps by at least twenty.

The next vulture to call gets the story. It doesn’t matter, he suspects. One is the same. And the initial report will lead to follow-ups and he’ll end up talking to multiple hubs and Jake will be spotted, he will be saved, he will be home soon.