Russell Banks - Trailerpark

“He’s a grumpy pain in the ass, if you ask me. And he’s weird, not generous. If you ask me.” She got out of bed and looked at her reflection in the mirror.

“Well, no one asked you. You just do as I say. You have to involve yourself more in the fates of others, dear. You can’t always be thinking only of yourself.”

“Yeah, I know.”

It took her an hour to prepare for the journey — first breakfast, then dressing herself in three layers of clothing, bickering with her mother, as she ate and dressed, about the necessity for the trip in the first place — and then another hour for the trip itself. It was a white world out there, white sky, white earth beneath, and a thin, gray horizon all around, the whole of it centered on the red cubicle where the old man fished through the ice.

At the bobhouse, sweating from the work of skating against the wind, and having come to rest, suddenly chilled, Noni leaned for a few seconds against the leeward wall, then knocked at the door, and without waiting for an answer, entered. The door closed behind her, and instantly she was enveloped by darkness and warmth, as if she had been swallowed whole by an enormous mammal.

“Oh!” she cried. “I can’t see!”

“Seat’s to your right,” came the old man’s gravelly voice. The interior space was so small that you couldn’t tell where in the darkness the voice was coming from, whether from the farthest corner of the bobhouse or right up next to your ear.

Noni groped to her right, found the bench and sat down. A moment of silence passed. Gradually, her eyes grew accustomed to the darkness, and she was able at last to see the six holes in the ice, and in the green light that emerged from the holes she saw the hooked shape of the old man seated at the other end of the bunk next to the stove. He held a dropline in one hand and was jiggling it with the other, and he seemed to be staring into the space directly in front of him, as if he were a blind man.

“Why is it so dark in here?” she asked timidly.

“Window’s shut.”

“No, I mean, how come?”

“So I can see the fish and they can’t see me,” he said slowly.

More silence passed. Finally, in a low voice, Noni spoke. “How very strange you are.”

Merle didn’t respond.

“I have some news for you, Mr. Ring.”

Still nothing.

“You know the lottery you won back in October?”

Merle jiggled his handline and continued staring straight ahead. It was almost as if he’d entered a state of suspended animation, as if his systems had been banked down to their minimal operating capacity, with his heart and lungs, all his vital organs, working at one-fourth their normal rate, so that he could survive and even thrive in the deprivation caused by the cold and the ice and the darkness.

“It seems ridiculous,” the girl said, almost to herself. “You don’t care about things like lotteries and Grand Prize Drawings and all.”

A few seconds passed, and Merle said, “I bought the ticket. I cared.”

“Of course. I’m sorry,” Noni said. “I just meant … well, no matter. My mother saw in the paper this morning that they’re holding the Grand Prize Drawing in Concord on January fifteenth at noon, and you ought to be there. In case you win.”

Merle said nothing.

“It’s a lot of money. Fifty thousand dollars. You have a good chance to win it, you know.” He didn’t respond, so she went on, chattering nervously now. “Think of what that would mean. Fifty thousand dollars! You could have a wonderful old age. I mean, retirement. Retirement, I mean. You could go to Florida in the winter months. You could go deep-sea fishing in Florida … maybe buy one of those condominiums, and play shuffleboard, and have lots of friends…” She trailed off. “God, I sound like my mother.” She stood up and moved toward the door. Tenderly, she said, “I’m sorry I bothered you, Mr. Ring. My mother … my mother wanted you to know about the drawing, that’s why I came out here. She thought you’d be … excited, I guess.”

“I haven’t won yet.”

“But you have a good chance of winning.”

“Good chance of dying, too. Better.”

“Not by January fifteenth, Mr. Ring.”

“About the same. I’m old. Not much left to do but think, and then, in the middle of a thought, die.”

“Oh, no,” she said heartily. “There’s lots left for you to do.”

“Like what?”

“Well … fishing, for instance. And spending all that lottery money you’re going to win.”

“Yes,” he said. “Yes, I suppose there’s that.” Then he lapsed back into silence again.

The girl opened the door and slipped out, and the bobhouse was filled again with darkness and solitude.

The door to the bobhouse was flung open, and a blinding light entered, bringing with it a blast of cold air and the hulking shape of a man in a hooded parka. The man splashed the light from his flashlight around the chamber, located Merle stretched out in his blanket roll on the bunk and then let the beam droop deferentially to the floor. The man closed the door behind him.

“Mr. Ring?”

“Yep.”

“I’m… I’m Leon LaRoche. You know, from the trailerpark?”

Merle swung his body into a sitting position. “You can shut out that light.”

Leon apologized and snapped off the flashlight. “May I sit down and get warm? It’s mighty cold out there tonight.” He chuckled. “Yes, sir, mighty cold.”

“Suit yourself.”

They were silent for a moment. Merle opened the stove front, throwing sudden shadows and sheets of dancing red and yellow light into the room; then he tossed a chunk of wood onto the crimson coals and closed the firedoor again.

The young man nervously cleared his throat. “Well, Mr. Ring, how’s the fishing?”

“Slow.”

“I’ve been hearing a lot about you lately, from folks at the park, I mean … how you stay out here night and day, only coming in now and then for supplies…”

“Whiskey,” Merle said, and he went under the bench with one hand and drew out his bottle. “Drink?”

“No. No, thank you.”

Merle took a slow pull from the bottle.

“Anyhow, it’s all very interesting to me. Yes, maybe I will have a drink,” he said, and Merle fetched the bottle again and passed it over. “So tell me, Mr. Ring, what do you eat out here? How do you cook and all?”

“Fish, mostly. A man can live a long time in this climate on fish and whiskey.”

“Very interesting. And you use lake water for washing, I suppose?”

Merle grunted.

“How long do you plan on staying out here, Mr. Ring?” Leon took another drink from the bottle and passed it back.

Merle said nothing.

As if his question had been answered, Leon went on. “And do you do this every winter, Mr. Ring? I mean, stay out on the ice, isolated like this, living off fish and whiskey and solitude?” He chuckled again. “I’m relatively new to the park,” he explained.

“I know.”

“Yes, of course. Well.” He wrestled himself free of his parka and flexed his shoulders and hands. “Say, it’s really comfortable in here, isn’t it? Smells a bit of whiskey and fried fish, though,” he said with a light laugh. “You wouldn’t mind if I had another sip of that, would you? What is it, by the way? It’s quite good! Really warms a man’s insides, doesn’t it?”

Merle handed him the bottle. “Canadian Club.”

Leon unscrewed the cap and took a long swallow, then slowly screwed the cap back on. “Yes. So, yes, I was saying, do you do this every year?”

“Man and boy.”

“But why? ”

“It makes the rest of the year more interesting,” Merle said wearily.

Leon was silent for a moment. “I wonder. Yes, I’ll bet it does. I couldn’t stand it, though. The isolation. And the cold, and the darkness.”