Russell Banks - The Angel on the Roof

Slowly Noni came to. She lay in the bed on her back, blinking like a seal on a rock. “What?”

“The Grand Prize Drawing! They’re going to have the Grand Prize Drawing, dear! Think of it! What if he won! Wouldn’t that be wonderful for him? The poor old man.”

“Who? What the hell are you talking about?”

“Don’t curse, dear. Merle Ring, the old fellow out on the lake. He won the lottery back in October, remember? And now, on January fifteenth, they’re going to hold the Grand Prize Drawing. Apparently, they put all the winning numbers for the year into a basket or something, and the governor or somebody draws out one number, and whoever holds that number wins fifty thousand dollars! Wouldn’t that be wonderful?”

“Yeah,” the girl said, and rolled over, yanking the covers over her head.

“No, you can’t go back to sleep! You’ve got to go out there and tell him! He hasn’t been out of that cabin of his for days, or even weeks, so he can’t know yet. You can ski out there with the news! Won’t that be fun , dear?”

“Let someone else do it,” Noni mumbled from under the covers. “It’s too cold.”

“You’re the only who has skis, dear,” the mother said.

“Most of the snow is off the ice.”

“Then you can skate out!”

“Oh, God,” Noni groaned. “Can’t you leave people alone?”

“He’s such a sweet old man, and he’s been very generous. It’s the least we can do.”

“He’s a grumpy pain in the ass, if you ask me. And he’s weird, not generous.” She got out of bed and looked at her reflection in the mirror.

“Well, no one asked you. You just do as I say. You have to involve yourself more in the fates of others, dear. You can’t always be thinking only of yourself.”

It took Noni an hour to prepare for the journey — first breakfast and then, as she ate and dressed herself in three layers of clothing, bickering with her mother about the necessity for the trip in the first place— and another hour for the trip itself. It was a white world out there, white sky, white earth beneath, and a thin, gray horizon all around, the whole of it centered on the red cubicle where the old man fished through the ice.

At the bob-house, sweating from the work of skating against the wind and, having come to rest, suddenly chilled, Noni leaned for a few seconds against the leeward wall, knocked at the door, and, without waiting for an answer, entered. The door closed behind her, and instantly she was enveloped by darkness and warmth, as if she had been swallowed whole by an enormous mammal.

“Oh!” she cried. “I can’t see!”

“Seat’s to your right,” came the old man’s gravelly voice. The interior space was so small that you couldn’t tell where in the darkness the voice was coming from, whether from the farthest corner of the bob-house or right up next to your ear.

Noni groped to her right, found the bench, and sat down. A moment of silence passed. Gradually, her eyes grew accustomed to the darkness, and she was able at last to see the six holes in the ice, and in the green light that rose from the holes she saw the hooked shape of the old man seated at the other end of the bunk next to the stove. He held a drop line in one hand and jiggled it with the other, and he seemed to be staring into the space directly in front of him, as if he were a blind man.

“Why is it so dark in here?” she asked timidly.

“Window’s shut.”

“No, I mean how come?”

“So I can see the fish and they can’t see me,” he said slowly.

More silence passed. Finally, in a low voice, Noni spoke. “How strange you are.”

Merle didn’t respond.

“I have some news for you, Mr. Ring.”

Still nothing.

“You know the lottery you won back in October?”

Merle jiggled his handline and continued staring straight ahead. It was almost as if he’d entered a state of suspended animation, as if his systems had been banked down to their minimal operating capacity, with his heart and lungs, all his vital organs, working at one-fourth their normal rate, so that he could survive and even thrive in the deprivation caused by the cold and the ice and the darkness.

“It seems ridiculous,” the girl said, almost to herself. “You don’t care about things like lotteries and Grand Prize Drawings and all.”

A few seconds passed. Merle said, “I bought the ticket. I cared.”

“Of course. I’m sorry,” Noni said. “I just meant … well, no matter. My mother saw in the paper this morning that they’re holding the Grand Prize Drawing in Concord on January fifteenth at noon, and you ought to be there. In case you win.”

Merle said nothing.

“It’s a lot of money. Fifty thousand dollars. You have a good chance to win it, you know.” He didn’t respond, so she went on, chattering nervously now. “Think of what that would mean. Fifty thousand dollars! You could have a wonderful old age. I mean, retirement. You could go to Florida in the winter months. You could go deep-sea fishing in Florida. Maybe buy one of those condominiums, play shuffleboard, have lots of friends…” She trailed off. “God, I sound like my mother.” She stood up and moved toward the door. Tenderly, she said, “I’m sorry I bothered you, Mr. Ring. My mother … she wanted you to know about the drawing, that’s why I came out here. She thought you’d be … excited, I guess.”

“I haven’t won yet.”

“But you have a good chance of winning.”

“Good chance of dying, too. Better.”

“Not by January fifteenth, Mr. Ring.”

“About the same. I’m old. Not much left to do but think, and then, in the middle of a thought, die.”

“Oh, no,” she said heartily. “There’s lots for you to do.”

“Like what?”

“Well … fishing, for instance. And spending all that lottery money you’re going to win.”

“Yes,” he said. “Yes, there’s that.” Then he lapsed back into silence again.

The girl opened the door and slipped out, and the bob-house filled again with darkness and solitude.

The door to the bob-house was flung open, and a blinding light entered, bringing with it a blast of cold air and the hulking shape of a man in a hooded parka. The man splashed the light from his flashlight around the chamber, located Merle stretched out in his blanket roll on the bunk, and let the beam droop deferentially to the floor. The man closed the door behind him.

“Mr. Ring?”

“Yep.”

“I’m… I’m Leon LaRoche. You know, from the trailerpark?”

Merle swung his body into a sitting position. “You can shut out that light.”

Leon apologized and snapped off the flashlight. “May I sit down and get warm? It’s mighty cold out there tonight.” He chuckled. “Yes, sir, mighty cold.”

“Suit yourself.”

They were silent for a moment. Merle opened the stove front, throwing shadows and sheets of dancing red and yellow light into the room; he tossed a chunk of wood onto the crimson coals and closed the fire door again.

The young man nervously cleared his throat. “Well, Mr. Ring, how’s the fishing?”

“Slow.”

“I’ve been hearing a lot about you lately, from folks at the park, I mean … how you stay out here night and day, only coming in now and then for supplies…”

“Whiskey,” Merle said, and he went under the bench with one hand and drew out his bottle. “Drink?”

“No. No, thank you.”

Merle took a slow pull from the bottle.

“Anyhow, it’s all very interesting to me. Yes, maybe I will have a drink,” he said, and Merle fetched the bottle again and passed it over. “So tell me, Mr. Ring, what do you eat out here? How do you cook and all?”