Timo Schmitz - For better and for worse

Do I need to think of you?

Do I need this sorrow?

If I know you miss me too,

Is there any tomorrow?

But maybe you are missing another one,

Then everything between us might be done,

The moment under the orange sun,

The day which brought me so much fun.

A hug,

Later you may refuse,

But wish me good luck,

And the pain will be reduced.

I had this chance today – to get to know you better, but what do you think after today? Just now, I know I am happy. Of course I am afraid to lose, but at least you paid attention to me. Maybe I should be happier, treasure this luck, and take a chance to get to know you much better. Maybe you secretly like me, you gave me a clue, but maybe it just means friendship and has nothing to do – nothing to do with my secret dream of you! Maybe you just were curious, I just can’t figure out, I gave you a clue, but I didn’t speak out – didn’t speak out the meaning behind it. It is just too early to tell you about it, and if you will agree, maybe other boys will be jealous. If your feeling is strong enough, can you give me more clues, then I will let you know, that I need you. I shouldn’t be too fast, we just have met, and now I had some moments with you. I am so grateful I had this possibility. I never thought that it would be like that, now I think of the future, and I wonder myself, do you have any sympathy or do you feel we are not matching? I am afraid you will tell me we don’t fit, but if you will ask me first, I don’t know if I will accept. But just now I don’t dare to confess to you, and hope you will ask me to be together, then I should accept, because I love you. At first, I didn’t want to believe my feeling, but when I’m with you I just feel good. Maybe tomorrow will show it, but maybe tomorrow nothing will happen. I think you have once paid attention to me today before we met later. It was you who talked to me first today, so I know you want to know me, but what will we be? Should I be more optimistic? Maybe I think so negative, because I just miss you so much. Tomorrow is coming soon, please join my breakfast, and until that time I will surely continue my dream of being with you – just you and me.

This morning you didn’t look at me, what does it mean?

Yesterday’s sweetness, is it left?

My wish, has it just been a dream?

Will you break my heart, will you leave a cleft?

I feel so empty, although you were next to me.

I should not think too much,

I will go on loving you, it just feels so great,

For my own sake, it is such

A dream, and a thunder can’t let it shake.

Is it better to love you than being alone?

After this morning’s sorrow,

we had the chance to be next to each other again,

you paid attention to me, between us there might be a tomorrow,

We are moving forward, but will you love me? When?

It was just a small moment, I am happy to see,

You finally care, about you and me,

But now it’s your turn, please give me a clue,

Whisper in my ears “the sky is blue”.

When I asked to meet you again,

You behaved strange to me,

I just had a try,

But you didn’t agree,

It made me so shy.

I was sad in that moment,

I just wanted to cry,

I was strong enough,

But you made me so shy.

I just wonder if we really fit,

Or is there anything matching,

It wasn’t just the perfect hit,

Now the pain is catching.

My beloved, what did I do wrong,

Maybe I just had the wrong idea for a meeting,

Sometimes I feel my patience is gone,

Shall we go out for a coffee, or even go out for eating.

Have you been in a bad mood today?

Have you been tired?

My strength is fading away,

Anything you desired?

I still secretly love you, still try my best,

Even if there’s a lot of time wasted,

You are really not like the rest,

That’s the way, my love just tasted.

I feel you like me a bit,

But you don’t pay attention to me,

So I feel very sad,

Because maybe the way you like me is just “like”,

And not “love”.

I don’t know what I shall think of you,

Because I love you very much,

But you don’t know it,

And I can’t tell you.

I don’t want others to know it,

Because if you will refuse,

Then I will feel bad,

But I want you to know my love,

I just can’t tell you.

Some days have passed now,

And I saw you rarely,

And I miss you much more,

But you don’t know it,

And I can’t tell you.

I feel ashamed,

I don’t want to ask for a date,

I want you to ask me first,

But I can’t let you know.

What do you think of me,

Give me a sign,

I will answer you,

But you don’t tell me.

I doubted you could love me,

But hope never dies.

I doubted you think of me,

But I knew that can’t be true.

I doubted you pay any attention to me,

You talk to me, so at least I can look in your eyes.

I wanted to give you a sign,

But I doubted you can understand.

But now I find out you have somebody else,

No love for me, no thinking, no missing, no attention,

But I cannot understand.

Tonight I dreamed of you,

That you could love me too.

But when I woke up,

My dream just stopped,

My heart just cried,

I took my pencil to write.

But then I threw away my love letter,

I think that made things better,

I feel sad, that’s enough,

And I don’t want to annoy you with my stuff.

If I tried for you, it would be rude,

I don’t want to make you sad, bringing you in bad mood.

I think I realised, if you had accepted me, we wouldn’t have fit anyways –

But since one month, I always think of you, day and night,

I often dream I could hold you tight,

I often dream you would be by my side.

What kind of dream could be as sweet as that,

Which other sentiment could make me feel bad,

I have to give up my feelings for you,

But just now, still – I can’t.

Actually, I have my own plans, without you,

I don’t need you, I know –

But why can’t I forget you,

I love you, I know.

Sometimes I try to avoid you, this makes me cool down,

But I can’t always avoid you, we have the ways on our own,

And I think of you and miss you, I know you don’t know that,

But somehow I don’t mind.

No one knows how I feel toward you,

Who can understand?

When someone once light a fire in heart,

There’s a feeling that just starts.

The fire lit in heart is like a first impression,

If you once have it, it doesn’t want to go away,

And so my heart tells my feelings “please stay!”.

Oh, how unforgettable you are.

If we could forget easily, what would it mean for us,

Would it really be better?

Maybe no, because love goes its own way,

No matter what you try to say.

You can hide your feeling,

You can ignore it,

Doubt it,

But love from the heart will always show up.

If I could be yours,

I would have your safety when I have a bad moment,

But I cannot be with you,