Hilary Fields - Bliss

Both women turned their attention to Serafina, who was suddenly very busy examining the wool-to-alpaca ratio on the label of a ball of worsted weight.

“Well? What do you say, kiddo? Do you want that knuckle-dragging Malcolm McLeod along to infantilize and disempower you, or can you stand on your own two feet and make your own bargains?”

Sera smothered a grin. “Oh, I don’t know, Aunt Paulie. I think I could use all the help I can get.” She gave Pauline’s shoulder a squeeze to mitigate the sting of her betrayal, taking a moment to appreciate her aunt’s T-shirt du jour, which was silk-screened with a faded image of Helen Reddy in her heyday. Underneath, someone—undoubtedly Pauline—had scrawled a caption in Sharpie marker: “I am Woman. Hear me r-O-ar!”

“See?” Hortencia indulged in a moment of genteel gloating. “Sera sees the sense in what I’m saying. We need a man for this mission, and Mr. McLeod was available— and suitably threatening-looking. So quit your bitching, drop that stitching, and let’s get on the road already.”

“You just like the way he flirts with you,” Pauline grumbled to Hortencia, arms crossed beneath her braless breasts, innocent yarn skein squashed in the grip of her white-knuckled fist.

Sera smothered a grin. It was true, Malcolm had looked a whole lot more amenable to the suggestion of playing token Y-chromosome for their car-shopping expedition once he’d caught his first gander at Hortencia. In fact, when she’d introduced them the other day, it was the first time she’d ever seen her pie Nazi completely bereft of his customary bluster.

Pauline, who had already taken a deep dislike to the Scotsman when she’d met him a few days earlier, had been quick to notice his uncharacteristic pleasantness. She’d been even quicker to disparage the Scotsman’s character, appearance, and capabilities both culinary and contractorial once McLeod was out of earshot. Though she was raring to take on her new career as late-in-life counter commander at the new bakery, Pauline wasn’t at all keen on working with a “chauvinistic, unkempt caveman” who saved his only sweetness for his pies—and her life partner. Hortencia had pooh-poohed her disparagements, claiming to find McLeod a rather winning individual. That, of course, had set off a whole new round of arguments between the lovebirds, which they appeared to have resolved in the privacy of Pauline’s boudoir. Sera was just glad the house’s adobe walls were a foot thick.

In truth, Sera didn’t know whether to be amused at or envious of the two women’s closeness. What, she wondered, would it be like to have someone—Asher, for instance—jealous over her?

Don’t be ridiculous, Sera, she chided herself. Who’s his competition? The last man you dated was so fond of you he’s spent the last year trying to ruin your life and crush your career. You’re not exactly a man-magnet. You’re lucky Asher’s as kind to you as he has been, but you better forget any fantasies that he’s suddenly going to develop a mad, passionate crush on your sorry self.

Then Sera shook herself mentally. Whoa. Who hit the bummer button? It’s too damn nice a day to go feeling sorry for yourself, said the healthier part of her mind—the part she’d been working on developing since she’d stopped pickling it with booze. Think about it. Maybe you’ve had a few romantic disasters. Maybe relationships aren’t your forte, but you’ve still got a lot going for you. You’re young (well, youngish), you’re free, and you’re about to buy your very first car. Stop being a dweeb about your landlord and get with the program.

For a wonder, her brain actually behaved. Sera refocused on the day ahead of her and the women she was with. Gratitude, she heard Maggie’s voice remind her. Think about where you’ve been, and feel blessed at how much better things are now. She brought herself back to the present—the brisk, sunny day, the woolly-smelling, colorful yarn shop, and her family. Nutty as they were, she wouldn’t change them for the world.

“For the last time, you ludicrous woman,” Hortencia was saying as she gathered up her windbreaker and tugged it on over her sweater, “we are not having this argument again.” She slung her handbag over her shoulder. “I swear to God, you’d think I was Miss America if you listen to that one,” she said to Sera, winking. “Just this morning she was ready to belt the bag boy at Trader Joe’s for offering to double bag my groceries.”

“I’m sure there was a double entrendre in there,” Pauline muttered, lobbing the well-squeezed skein into a bin of matching yarn. “You should have seen the outrageous wink he gave her, Bliss,” Pauline insisted. “Like I wasn’t standing right there! ”

“He had an eyelash in his eye, fool,” Hortencia snickered, chivvying them out the door and waving good-bye to her coworkers, who were sipping Earl Grey and poring over a pattern book at the back of the store. The door closed behind them with a jingle as light as Sera was determined to keep her mood.

The three women walked the block and a half from Knit-Fit to Placita de Suerte y Sueños, and Sera was pleased to hear the sound of hammering and saws from within her half-baked store by the time they passed beneath the portico and caught sight of the earth mother fountain. Things had been going well with the renovations as far as she could tell. She was no expert on demolition, but Malcolm seemed to have done the deconstruction in record time—probably eager to get his fixtures out of storage in the moving truck and installed in their new home. Aruni, she imagined, was probably a bit less pleased, as the commotion was sure to be harshing the mellow of her students’ yoga classes at Tantrastic. The yogini had assured her everything was fine, however. “Every time I hear the hammering,” she’d chirped, “I just think, “we’re that much closer to homemade croissants and cupcakes!” Sera had been keeping Aruni’s students in yoga-suitable treats as a special thank-you for their patience with the construction. Though multigrain energy bars sweetened with brown rice syrup were personally not Sera’s bag, she was more than happy to whip up a batch now and again for a good cause.

“Why we couldn’t just ask Asher is beyond me,” Pauline was saying as they passed Lyric Jewelry. “If you’re so fired up to lug along a Y-chromosome on this mission, you could have at least gone with someone easier on the eye. I’m sure he’d be happy to help us…”

“We’re not asking Asher,” Sera said quellingly, keeping her voice low as they brushed past the extravagant foliage that shaded his shop. It wasn’t the first time she’d vetoed the idea. “The man’s done enough for us as it is, and I’m not taking advantage of his good nature for every little thing,” she insisted. What she’d like to take advantage of was hardly his good nature, but Sera wasn’t about to cop to that. She kept her eyes studiously averted from his shop windows. Though things had been cordial between them since the kiss incident, Sera hadn’t wanted to push her luck, and she still wasn’t sure what the deal was with her and Asher. Was he interested? Was she?

Oh, c’mon, you liar. You’re interested.

But Sera had decided that, interest or not, she wasn’t going to pursue her sexy landlord. Even if she could catch his fancy—and she wasn’t at all confident of that, kiss notwithstanding—things were simply going too well in her life right now to take such a risk. She’d rather focus on what she could control, rather than her unmanageable attraction to a man who was way out of her league, and whom she could never hope to satisfy.